Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away Diet of life, shelter without the face that cannot see inside yours and mine When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe, this time Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the slide that breaks a will Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled? It's a damn shame When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe (This time) Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again

Out of my mind, gun up to the mouth No pretension, execution, live and learn Rape and turn Fret not family, nor pre-judged army This is for me, and me only, cowards only Try it Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending It's not worth the time to try, to replenish a Rotting life I'll end the problem, facing nothing, fuck you off, Fuck you all Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me For weakness is a magnet - watch me do it (do it) Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending down Why would you help anyone who doesn't want it, Doesn't need it, doesn't want your shit advice When a mind's made up to go ahead and die? What's done is done and gone, so why cry? Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me For weakness is a magnet - watch me do it (do it, do it...) Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending down

Running fast mate Running fucking fast Until I last I'm coming back, aye Give me fucking time and imma blast You aren't fast, aye Am I the only one trying to live without past, aye Am I the only one trying to survive the rest, aye (Who said money can't buy happiness?) Cold nest, aye Hot pain, never wanted to do that But I have to do that, aye And whenever I want to last, I just can't do it Can't deal with anything, fuck man I just want to forget I just want to rest I just want the rest (I feel, I wish I was dead) (I wanted to commit suicide several times) (Every time I write a new letter to my family, before I attempt) (I probably have about 30 or 40 letters stacked up somewhere, Because I'm too much of a coward to go through with it) (So what's the point in living?) This day has come I feel like I'm numb The struggle don't worth it I need to be done I try to convince others 'bout I don't understand my own mind I can't live with myself anymore And I don't need more And I feel like I'm worn And nobody told that (Fuck you, I want to quit!) (The fuck is going on here?) (Fuck you!)

A dead issue Don't wrestle with it Deaf ears are sleeping A guilty bliss So inviting (let me in) Nailed to the cross I feel you Relate to you Accuse you Wash away us all Take us with the floods (Then throughout the night) (They were raped and executed) (Then throughout the night) (They were raped and executed) Cold hearted world Your language unheard of The vast sound of tuning out The rash of negativity Is seen one sidedly Burn away the day The nervous The drifting The heaving Wash away us all Take us with the floods (Then throughout the day) (Mankind played with grenades) (Then throughout the day) (Mankind played with grenades) Cold hearted world (And at night) (They might bait the pentagram) (And at night) (They might bait the pentagram) Extinguishing the sun Wash away man Take him with the floods Die... Die... Die... Die...