Suicide Note - Masicka

Running fast mate Running fucking fast Until I last I'm coming back, aye Give me fucking time and imma blast You aren't fast, aye Am I the only one trying to live without past, aye Am I the only one trying to survive the rest, aye (Who said money can't buy happiness?) Cold nest, aye Hot pain, never wanted to do that But I have to do that, aye And whenever I want to last, I just can't do it Can't deal with anything, fuck man I just want to forget I just want to rest I just want the rest (I feel, I wish I was dead) (I wanted to commit suicide several times) (Every time I write a new letter to my family, before I attempt) (I probably have about 30 or 40 letters stacked up somewhere, Because I'm too much of a coward to go through with it) (So what's the point in living?) This day has come I feel like I'm numb The struggle don't worth it I need to be done I try to convince others 'bout I don't understand my own mind I can't live with myself anymore And I don't need more And I feel like I'm worn And nobody told that (Fuck you, I want to quit!) (The fuck is going on here?) (Fuck you!)

Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away Diet of life, shelter without the face that cannot see inside yours and mine When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe, this time Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the slide that breaks a will Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled? It's a damn shame When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe (This time) Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again

Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away Diet of life, shelter without the face that cannot see inside yours and mine When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe, this time Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the slide that breaks a will Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled? It's a damn shame When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe (This time) Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again

Starring at my food but I can not eat it, Laying in my bed but I am not sleeping, Crying in my room and I keep it top secret, Because people tell me they care but they do not mean it. I'm cut open, even thought I am not bleeding. My heart's broken, so Imma make it stop beating. Someone runs in the room and screams, "He's not breathing!" I'm rushed to the hospital to have a Doc treat it, But he cannot beat it, there's no time at all, Cause I just popped some pills with some Tylenol, And 3 bottles of antidepressants, and Zam Booka, 40 ounces, got killed I didn't puke up anything. There's no use in pumping my stomach, Cause I'll just do it again, I'm a lost cause so fuck it. Everyone with grudges towards me, Is gonna love this. The smiles on their faces when my death goes public. Cause I'm killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands ... I can't picture myself as a grown man... I don't wanna grow up ... I hate change and everything's just so ... Rearranged. My life is nothing but a disaster ... And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit wont matter ... Fuck this Imma kill myself. I act happy. But I wanna die, I'm not gonna lie ... Thoughts of suicide keep crossing ... My mind on a regular basis ... Going crazy cause I'm going through bull shit ... On a regular basis ... Look me in the face, I'm sick in my eyes... Cause I'm sick in the mind ... I've been wishing to die ever since I was 9. This isn't a lie ... I don't bitch just to whine Or bullshit just to rhyme about it. I don't cry just to spit, Just to try to quilt trip ... Cause I could give two shits about your pity... I ain't trying to get everyone to feel bad for me, I'd rather dis everyone and make y'all mad at me ... I ain't a happy person and I ain't that liked. Not even by myself. I know I ain't that nice... But people don't understand how much ... I hate my life ... Cause if they did they'd know how bad... I want to take this knife and be ... Killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands. I can't picture myself as a grown man. I don't wanna grow up... I hate change and everything's just so rearranged ... My life's nothing but a disaster, And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit wont matter, Fuck this Imma kill myself ... I quit, I'm bailing, I'm done ... I finally give up, I'm sick of failing, I'm done trying to live up ... To the expectations everyone has set for me . And trying to explain to myself ... Always questioning about my destination ... Fuck my destiny ... No more relationships ... My friends are all dead to me ... My head is aching, and I don't have any energy ... I'm patiently waiting for the day ... That I can rest in peace ... And this medication is the reason ... That I don't get no sleep ... It ain't worth taking, So I just take some ecstasy. Then hear my friends say, "You're a retarded fuck up." Maybe killing myself will Make you retards shut up!!! Cause I only do it once in a while ... At times when I forget how to fucking smile ... I hate being belittled when y'all act like you're ... Looking out for me ... If you were looking out of me then ... I wouldn't about to be ... Killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands. I can't picture myself as a grown man. I don't wanna grow up... I hate change and everything's just so rearranged ... My life's nothing but a disaster, And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit wont matter, Fuck this Omma kill myself ... When the times comes ... I'll be crying then ... I'll have to get a hold of myself ... Call all my friends, and say goodbye to them ... Then get high and then ... Call up all my friends again and say goodbye again ... And cry again ... Stop crying, Smile... Find a pen. Write down some last words... Somebody will find them when ... I'm in heaven ... Looking down on them ... Or who knows ... The way shit's been going maybe in Hell ... Looking up on them ... But either way I'm watching ... I'm waiting their reaction ... Suddenly someone walks in ... Wait they ain't laughing ... They read it and start crying ... They actually do care ... I'm shocked, I can't believe they're ... Sad that I ain't there ... They miss me... Man what a horrible mistake I made ... And i can't take it back ... It's way to late ... If only I could relive my life ... I'd re-make this song ... Rewrite the hook and it would be like ... Life shit, But I'm taking matters to my own hands. I can picture myself as a grown man. I wanna grow up, and I can deal with change, Even if everything gets rearranged. Maybe my life's a disaster ... And time keeps going by faster ... But now I can see all that shit don't matter ... Fuck that Imma live my life!

Out of my mind, gun up to the mouth No pretension, execution, live and learn Rape and turn Fret not family, nor pre-judged army This is for me, and me only, cowards only Try it Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending It's not worth the time to try, to replenish a Rotting life I'll end the problem, facing nothing, fuck you off, Fuck you all Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me For weakness is a magnet - watch me do it (do it) Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending down Why would you help anyone who doesn't want it, Doesn't need it, doesn't want your shit advice When a mind's made up to go ahead and die? What's done is done and gone, so why cry? Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me For weakness is a magnet - watch me do it (do it, do it...) Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending down

Good Good Productions 10 outta 10, 10 outta 10 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 Gyal, your pussy good me gi' you 10 outta 10 Up inna me bed me want you spread out again What a body good, like you mek outta gem Hot inna your clothes when you step out again A jus' 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 Open up your book and mek me tek out me pen A jus' 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 Bubble 'pon the buddy, baby a wha' do dem Yeah (hello) I got to tell you Dem kind a feelings yah felt new Know say you independent, baby But somehow, me waan help you When your skin it out, is the best view Body right, pussy tight, how me fi lef' you See it deh, anything yuh want, a that yuh get boo Let through the genna mek me tell you Gyal, you a the best Tell dem say me heartless, nutn nu inna chest You gone with it girl me did 'affi confess Shift your draws, you d'even 'affi undress, Empress Gyal, your pussy good me gi' you 10 outta 10 Up inna me bed me want you spread out again What a body good, like you mek outta gem Hot inna your clothes when you step out again A jus' 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 Open up your book and mek me tek out me pen A jus' 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 Bubble 'pon the buddy, baby a wha' do dem Slow whine gyal, you're so fine Pussy mek me cum in no time Ready again, up inna belly again Gyal a you have the gold mine You tick it, you tock it You lift it, you drop it Me dip in me pocket, yeah Me love it nuh stop it Me tell you, "You got it" and I am an addict, ye Me love your body, you mek me happy You bring me joy when you sidung 'pon me cocky Gyal, your pussy good me gi' you 10 outta 10 Up inna me bed me want you spread out again What a body good, like you mek outta gem Hot inna your clothes when you step out again A jus' 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 Open up your book and mek me tek out me pen A jus' 10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10 Bubble 'pon the buddy, baby a wha' do dem Yeah (10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10) Yeah (10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10) Yeah (10 outta 10 outta 10 outta 10) Yeah (10 outta 10 outta 10 outta.) Yeah

Yeah Aye G-Syde Man a fire like one pack a matches Everyweh mi tun one bag a crotches Cum inna yuh face, land pon yuh lashes She seh a suh yuh sperms strong like molasses Louis shirt, Louis glasses Bun it up, when mi duh di dirt know a ashes Dem pussy deh nuh know what cash is Work anuh chicken man a jerk like Scotchies IPhone, Rolex watches Weh yuh think seh di chrome leff scratches Mansion eh don plan anuh cottage One call, touch eh road, grab a package She horny fi money suh she waah nyam a sausage Mi heart cold, cocky warm ina yuh passage Fuck a gyal, leff a gyal nah guh nuh baggage Short hand gun draw fi di cabbage Man a fire like ten pack a matches Ten, t-ten, ten pack a matches Man a fire like ten pack a matches Ten, t-ten, ten pack a matches Carry di flame like ten pack a matches Fire to mi name like ten pack a matches Man a fire like ten pack a matches Pack a, pack a, ten pack a matches Runnin' up di comma, tunnin' up di bomba' Money talk mi up di gram a nutt'n stamma' Liff up di banner, a we di crocs dem honour A we di gyal dem love fi fuck oh yes she gonna Cock it up, she gonna, bitch choke di banana A plan a fi tun yuh inna star like Madonna Top quality mi gyal and yuh nuh banga' Nuh drop quality, pose pon Donna Owna yaad, clothes pon hanga' Spliff and mi roll one grabba Nuh diss when yuh know man madda' Diss chrome man... Man a fire like ten pack a matches Ten, t-ten, ten pack a matches Man a fire like ten pack a matches Ten, t-ten, ten pack a matches Carry di flame like ten pack a matches Fire to mi name like ten pack a matches Man a fire like ten pack a matches Pack a, pack a, ten pack a matches Hell fraida di fire weh mi bring dawg If anuh me den a who? Like Bling Dawg Who fi bad like Dudus, like Jim dawg Mi groupie gyal, she duh coco, she duh big fraud Fi shoot mi glad, head buss up, it a kick hard Different timezone, different simcard Different crimezone anyweh, links broad One pack a matches A neva three card Fly gone, fly gone, mi nuh need yaad Drive off, select di matik and man a bleed hard Mi did haffi seh mi grace to di meal-ah Every pack a matches pon mi belly, dem a retard One pack a bad gyal, top shotta Ansa wah? Which phone? Long chatta One pack a, every gyal a get a one knocka Nuh blank poppa, guns out, don propa Man a fire like ten pack a matches Anyweh mi pull up and leff dat a ashes Gun deyah, money deyah, wi get crotches Eh sun a bawl how wi suh hot, yuh know who dat is Carry di flame like ten pack a matches Fire to mi name like ten pack a matches Everyday a just di same life, money and crotches Inna Gucci and Air Nike (woo)

You can depend on me (one) Yes you can (fi life yuh know dat) Yeah, you can depend on me, yeah I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner Anytime the trouble is on I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner When you need someone around You know I'll be your friend 'Cause I'm in your corner Anytime the trouble is on ya I'm in your corner friend (yeah) Yes I'm in your corner And I never gonna let you down And if mi lose it all and everyting slide Di house dem and di big ride She stand up by di King side Have some dawg a hold it out 'pon di inside One call and dem still smile Nuh matter how di ting vile (how yuh mean?) Inna yuh corner like di coach ah di ring side yeah From wi used to n'ave no clothes Cash nuh swing my way A nuff pot hole inna di road But never switch I say And if wi fight, wi fight to death, a dat a di right way (yeah) So when I call you my brother, I mean it (one) What's thicker than blood, ah realness (real) I'm not leaving Share di food mek we feed together If anytime we wi' bleed together I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner Anytime the trouble is on I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner When you need someone around You know I'll be your friend Mi inna yuh corner Yeah, I'm in your corner I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner Oh yes I am, yes I am, woah Seh she loyal to di grave mi hope yuh naah stray (hope) Hope yuh nuh change yuh mind, mi know how di heart stay (yeah) Yeah mi dawg dem a mi dawg 'till di last dawg (one) Hope dem nuh sell mi out fi di fast pay (pray) Inna yuh corner like di coach at di ring side Tell yuh seh fi fight on Never swtich when it get rough, yeah wo survive storm Yeah di family come fuss until mi light gone When mi say love you sister, I mean it (yeah) What's thicker than blood, ah realness (real) I'm not leaving Share di food mek we feed together If anytime we wi' bleed together I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner Anytime the trouble is on I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner When you need someone around You know I'll be your friend 'Cause I'm in your corner (yeah) I'm in your corner I'm in your corner friend Yes I'm in your corner And I never gonna let you down Yeah Yeah mi solid from the start before no food a eat From wi barely have no shoes yeah, from di roof a leak A try fi get to the paper, man a manoeuvre street And now di table turn, di tune a beat, di ute a reap and Wol' a mi dawg dem deh yah, memba di crew nuh weak Nuh gyal couldn' sink di ship and money couldn't dweet Naah hide di glory from mi fam, mi want unuh fi see't Mi put mi bredda pon a plane, a hell wi used to sleep deh (Yuh remember dem days deh) And if di house an' everyting slide (yeah) Aye would you stand up by di King side I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner Anytime the trouble is on I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner When you need someone around You know I'll be your friend 'Cause I'm in your corner Yeah, I'm in your corner I'm in your corner friend I'm in your corner And I never gonna let you down

Aye Dunwell Yuh know how it go a'ready Dem a seh how mi cyaa' see yuh Deh a di top fi a minute Keisha seh she nuh get di cock fi a minute Kerry seh she nuh bite di snack fi a minute Cah mi fly out ah mek di cash fi a minute Circle Portmore, stop fi a minute Me an' di crocodile chit chat fi a minute Couple rifle, couple criss Glock fi a minute Caa mi deh-deh so di whole place lock fi a minute (fi a-) Hey girl, can you stop fi a minute (yeah) Tek off yuh draws and yuh top fi a minute Open nuh, stop, lock dat fi a minute Woulda kill yuh wid couple backshot fi a minute Haffi sober, so mi get frass fi a minute (yeah) Hold up, mek mi count mi cash fi a minute (yeah) Pussy seh dem ah lead, stop dem a mimic Ah suh dem wobble, suh dem drop every minute Wha' mi need? Just a minute (woo) Nuh bother tell mi 'bout di sky, mi nah go limit (no) Mi have dem gyal ah open wide, mi cocky in it (wha'?!) Yuh know di vibe, yuh see di life and now mi live it Wha' mi need? (yeah) Just a minute Nuh bother tell mi 'bout di sky, mi nah go limit (no) Mi have dem gyal ah open wide, mi cocky in it (wha'?!) Yuh know di vibe, yuh see di life and how mi live it Mi juss' swing di Beretta pon mi belly fi a minute Link up Erica pon mi celly fi a minute Seh she wan' fuck (pull up, pull up) deh deh fi a minute She sing pon di cocky like Reggae fi a minute Mi seh ah hot gyal nah fuck streggae fi a minute Baby mi ah cum hold steady fi a minute Man ah born star, dem ah roll heavy fi a minute Pop it off, head ah buss e road shelly, yeah wi did it Wha' mi need? Just a minute (woo) Nuh bother tell mi 'bout di sky, mi nah go limit (no) Mi have dem gyal ah open wide, mi cocky in it (wha'?!) Yuh know di vibe, yuh see di life and now mi live it Wha' mi need? (wha' wi need) Just a minute Nuh bother tell mi 'bout di sky, mi nah go limit (no) Mi have dem gyal ah open wide, mi cocky in it (wha'?!) Yuh know di vibe, yuh see di life and how mi live it Wulaan, mek mi tell dem how mi grow fi ah minute Get pussy fast, never slow fi ah minute Suit out, cuh di shoes mout', anuh gimmick Shoot out, heavy tools out, mi ah bring it Get di food doh, buy ah new house every minute Have ah few hoes inna di pool house, mi ah dig it She ready fi do it all, yeah mi trick it If yuh hear she lick the ball, anuh cricket Wha' mi need? Just a minute (woo) Nuh bother tell mi 'bout di sky, mi nah go limit (no) Mi have dem gyal ah open wide, mi cocky in it (wha'?!) Yuh know di vibe, yuh see di life and now mi live it Wha' mi need? (wha' wi need) Just a minute Nuh bother tell mi 'bout di sky, mi nah go limit (no) Mi have dem gyal ah open wide, mi cocky in it (wha'?!) Yuh know di vibe, yuh see di life and how mi live it Wha' mi need? Just a minute Just a minute Minute Just a minute Just a minute Just a minute Just a minute Minute Just a minute Just a minute