Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away Diet of life, shelter without the face that cannot see inside yours and mine When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe, this time Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the slide that breaks a will Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled? It's a damn shame When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe (This time) Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again

Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away Diet of life, shelter without the face that cannot see inside yours and mine When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe, this time Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the slide that breaks a will Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled? It's a damn shame When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe, for our handle on this life I don't believe (This time) Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again Would you look at me now? Can you tell I'm a man? With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again, try to die again, try to live through this night, try to die again

Starring at my food but I can not eat it, Laying in my bed but I am not sleeping, Crying in my room and I keep it top secret, Because people tell me they care but they do not mean it. I'm cut open, even thought I am not bleeding. My heart's broken, so Imma make it stop beating. Someone runs in the room and screams, "He's not breathing!" I'm rushed to the hospital to have a Doc treat it, But he cannot beat it, there's no time at all, Cause I just popped some pills with some Tylenol, And 3 bottles of antidepressants, and Zam Booka, 40 ounces, got killed I didn't puke up anything. There's no use in pumping my stomach, Cause I'll just do it again, I'm a lost cause so fuck it. Everyone with grudges towards me, Is gonna love this. The smiles on their faces when my death goes public. Cause I'm killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands ... I can't picture myself as a grown man... I don't wanna grow up ... I hate change and everything's just so ... Rearranged. My life is nothing but a disaster ... And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit wont matter ... Fuck this Imma kill myself. I act happy. But I wanna die, I'm not gonna lie ... Thoughts of suicide keep crossing ... My mind on a regular basis ... Going crazy cause I'm going through bull shit ... On a regular basis ... Look me in the face, I'm sick in my eyes... Cause I'm sick in the mind ... I've been wishing to die ever since I was 9. This isn't a lie ... I don't bitch just to whine Or bullshit just to rhyme about it. I don't cry just to spit, Just to try to quilt trip ... Cause I could give two shits about your pity... I ain't trying to get everyone to feel bad for me, I'd rather dis everyone and make y'all mad at me ... I ain't a happy person and I ain't that liked. Not even by myself. I know I ain't that nice... But people don't understand how much ... I hate my life ... Cause if they did they'd know how bad... I want to take this knife and be ... Killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands. I can't picture myself as a grown man. I don't wanna grow up... I hate change and everything's just so rearranged ... My life's nothing but a disaster, And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit wont matter, Fuck this Imma kill myself ... I quit, I'm bailing, I'm done ... I finally give up, I'm sick of failing, I'm done trying to live up ... To the expectations everyone has set for me . And trying to explain to myself ... Always questioning about my destination ... Fuck my destiny ... No more relationships ... My friends are all dead to me ... My head is aching, and I don't have any energy ... I'm patiently waiting for the day ... That I can rest in peace ... And this medication is the reason ... That I don't get no sleep ... It ain't worth taking, So I just take some ecstasy. Then hear my friends say, "You're a retarded fuck up." Maybe killing myself will Make you retards shut up!!! Cause I only do it once in a while ... At times when I forget how to fucking smile ... I hate being belittled when y'all act like you're ... Looking out for me ... If you were looking out of me then ... I wouldn't about to be ... Killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands. I can't picture myself as a grown man. I don't wanna grow up... I hate change and everything's just so rearranged ... My life's nothing but a disaster, And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit wont matter, Fuck this Omma kill myself ... When the times comes ... I'll be crying then ... I'll have to get a hold of myself ... Call all my friends, and say goodbye to them ... Then get high and then ... Call up all my friends again and say goodbye again ... And cry again ... Stop crying, Smile... Find a pen. Write down some last words... Somebody will find them when ... I'm in heaven ... Looking down on them ... Or who knows ... The way shit's been going maybe in Hell ... Looking up on them ... But either way I'm watching ... I'm waiting their reaction ... Suddenly someone walks in ... Wait they ain't laughing ... They read it and start crying ... They actually do care ... I'm shocked, I can't believe they're ... Sad that I ain't there ... They miss me... Man what a horrible mistake I made ... And i can't take it back ... It's way to late ... If only I could relive my life ... I'd re-make this song ... Rewrite the hook and it would be like ... Life shit, But I'm taking matters to my own hands. I can picture myself as a grown man. I wanna grow up, and I can deal with change, Even if everything gets rearranged. Maybe my life's a disaster ... And time keeps going by faster ... But now I can see all that shit don't matter ... Fuck that Imma live my life!

Out of my mind, gun up to the mouth No pretension, execution, live and learn Rape and turn Fret not family, nor pre-judged army This is for me, and me only, cowards only Try it Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending It's not worth the time to try, to replenish a Rotting life I'll end the problem, facing nothing, fuck you off, Fuck you all Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me For weakness is a magnet - watch me do it (do it) Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending down Why would you help anyone who doesn't want it, Doesn't need it, doesn't want your shit advice When a mind's made up to go ahead and die? What's done is done and gone, so why cry? Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me For weakness is a magnet - watch me do it (do it, do it...) Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves descending down

Honestly, I hate this conversation right now I'm sitting on a bed, living my own nightlife And I shut the fucking door, like I'll never use it more I got these fucking feelings that I never wanted tho Why do we need words, uh Smoking on this herb It makes me think about my life But I am dreaming about her I'm losing control again, but I did this all the time I'm used to having thoughts about my life, now it's You & I I remember times when I was blind from all the things I did Smoking at the school, and taking pills like they were vitamins Living in "the haze" I do enjoy the space Space for all my thoughts, and all my things that I won't take with me on a daily basis Yes, I hate decisions, and I cannot make 'em Some my brothers out here, they just wanna get some dough Motherfucker, she just wanna kick me to the door I don't wanna fuck around with bitties anymore I just wanna go ahead, and make it on my own Some my boys from broken homes, and some are from the streets Some have handled struggles, some are spoiled to the teeth I don't give a fuck about your past or your beliefs I just wanna break the bread, and try, and get some sleep Like, sometimes I don't even wanna know Boy, he tried to dip me last week, now he tryna be my bro I don't deal with fucking fools, I'd rather be outchea alone If you don't believe me then you talk to Amino' (oh-oh) Talk to Amino' (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh) (Hey, yeah) Yeah, I'd rather be alone Yeah, I'd rather be alone Oh, wait Honestly, I hate this conversation right now I'm sitting on a bed, living my own nightlife And I shut the fucking door, like I'll never use it more I got these fucking feelings that I never wanted tho Why do we need words, uh Smoking on this herb It makes me think about my life But I am dreaming about her I'm losing control again, but I did this all the time I'm used to having thoughts about my life, now it's You & I Honestly, I hate this conversation right now I'm sitting on a bed, living my own nightlife, And I shut the fucking door, like I'll never use it more I got these fucking feelings that I never wanted tho Why do we need words, uh Smoking on this herb It makes me think about my life But I am dreaming about her I'm losing control again, but I did this all the time I'm used to having thoughts about my life, now it's You & I (Thank u 4 listenin)

Hello baby, what you looking at? I see that you probably like me, I'm not that cool in fact I'm slacked and slacking from this packet that I bought from this guy back here Liked the smoke, but it was passing fast, and I'm lacking a better effect In fact, I'm floating in the motherfuckin' sky I don't wanna change my mind Just lemme snort that one last line If you're low, then imma bring you so much higher Remember, all the drugs are telling the truth, the world's a liar Knock-knock, who's there motherfucker? I don't recognize you, are you wearing another color? I'm better now, I don't have all that stress on me I wanna have an accent like KAE Maui Nowadays, words don't mean nothing Cause one day you say something And the other day you're judging It's not okay That you tell yourself you trust But the situations fucked, and now you got yourself running Dive with you I wanna dive-dive-dive-dive Dive with you I wanna dive with you I wanna dive-dive-dive-dive with you (Yeah) And now it's like Cold chains, bold change I don't wanna fuck this up So I better buckle up now Purp haze, low gaze I don't give a fuck about no life, I wanna fuck this up I've been dealing with these mood swings, self-destruct You don't wanna hear me talking, I'm sorry to interrupt How do we know if we're on right track? Soundcheck One Two Check-check, check It's all right now, I had to turn myself up little bit My new soundcard is dope as fuck it's the same price as a limousine I have to spit some bars, cause the second verse is incomplete But if I write it now the quality's not guaranteed My dick is quarantined, bitch you cannot count on me Just because I didnt wanna meet, you gonna fuck on me? I need a rope, a chair, and a paper I'll write a fucking letter, where I thank the undertaker, uh Dive with you I wanna dive-dive-dive-dive Dive with you I wanna dive with you I wanna dive-dive-dive-dive with you (Yeah) (Life is good tho, I want y'all to see that life is great) (Uhm) (Your life is great too) (Have a good time, man) (Have some fun) (Having fun is okay) (Uhm) (Get some love in your life, whether that be... Another person, or just loving yourself, man) (Love is good, spread love) (Spread love) (I'm outta here) (I'll be back soo)

I do believe in pain that's why I'm always chasing it This place is lonely just like us, the world where we are racing in This education makes us hating, and waiting for mocking others Believing in toxic systems which make us fucking forgotten I don't believe in no god, because I don't believe in politics Molly pills making optimists Always staying anonymous If dissatisfaction makes me a pussy I'm the biggest of them all Because I'm not supporting any kind of oppression at all I wake up and go to hell, right? That's where's my place at This voice in my head never stops until I take meds I don't think it's cool that I can't live without the haze, man But tell me something new, do I behave or think like they can? Uh Fuck this society, And it's fucked up commentary I always create something, And they're tryna explain it to me Did you live my memories? Did you experience my dreams? Are you the one who's standing next to me? Well I don't think that's true Boy, you shouldn't think you're on top of me We gathered together with these motherfuckers eternally 'The fuck is happening?

Remember times when we had to get up early? Praised the lord, almost forgot to ever serve him Spent some months in hospital, now I'm swervin' Got a death note from god, but I returned it Some people survive, some people die But I will live for you children, can't be alive by now Souls will live forever in the hearts of our society We cannot bring you back, your voices faded out so silently Life can be hectic, points unconnected With no money in our pockets being robbed And that shit is just one way life made us learn things But my momma never been skeptical Body full of chemicals I'm sorry sister, cause you had to be alone Cause mom was fighting for my life It was so hard to let her go I feel your pain, but you were strong I thank you all the patience You were able to carry on

My soul was taken under ground, beat from the battleground Wishlist in my pocket, but the half of it is done Sittin on a rocket, but the half of it is gone Moneyman on the beat constantly doin proper job This country actin ectomorph, someone pass the dope Got my pockets fulla tracks, but baby I will pack some more Throw me all the violence, and I will fight back with them all This shit is kinda verbal so we have to spit it all I spit the truth i aint fill it with a fistful of dreams Im in the booth how i hit you with a fist full of peace Now tell me who got something that could match with my steez I guess i'm too hot for you and you can't resist the heat I Can't control myself, when I am spittin on these tracks Yo yo Y O We on the cruise like Taio Low to the slow read the motto off the bio Room fulla smoke ain't smellin like it is tobacco Got the old school attitude and soundtrack of tomorrow Yea they put bars on my window, guess what im outside again Still high as fuck smokin indo, Co Lee can hi-five a man Don't make me drive by the bank, nor tryna come out and pay All y'all attention to mention me on on your instagram page I flipped the switch but it stayed Bitch i be blind to that hate Im dodging bullets no duckin' See me i ride on that wave Ok, one, two Hands in the air Let me see them W's if you're here and you care One, two Blaize on the beat Bringin up the heat from the valley to the peak Why the fuck you aint rap in your mother language Why you act like pac you should pack a Sandwich With a track like that You could really say shit but they won't understand Fuck it i'll bang, 'Know what we run with the gang Stayin on top of the game, we only flow got no plans Choose a side and exercise Pass the mic we don't rest aside Choosed a path, we pack the rhymes Scoring goals, closed door behind Too loose to hit it slow-mo No-scope, cause we lo-slo No jokes, we in this mofo Sirens up like iss popo Bitch i know the way You should come with me My Brothers on my side You know we keep it clean Swim under the ice Like a submarine Posted up on the wall One, two Hands in the air Let me see them W's if you're here and you care One, two Blaize on the beat Bringin up the heat from the valley to the peak