Lost in kaleidoscope skies I am hypnotized When you look in my eyes Lost in kaleidoscope skies I get so high When you look in my eyes Trippin' away, when you look in my eyes In a kaleidoscope of day glow hope and crystal lullabies You've spoken truth, you've spoken lies Now I finally realize don't say a word just speak with your eyes Lost in kaleidoscope skies I am hypnotized When you look in my eyes Lost in kaleidoscope skies I get so high When you look in my eyes Trippin' away, when you look in my eyes In a kaleidoscope of day glow hope and crystal lullabies You've spoken truth, you've spoken lies Now I finally realize don't say a word just speak with your eyes Lost in kaleidoscope skies I am hypnotized When you look in my eyes Lost in kaleidoscope skies I get so high When you look in my eyes Trippin' away, when you look in my eyes In a kaleidoscope of day glow hope and crystal lullabies

I hate the summer Beaches and the waves Drive yourself insane Someone make it rain now Mama make it rain I hate the summer Beaches and the waves Drive yourself insane Someone make it rain now Mama make it rain Can't stand the vibe Just find myself inside And plus i'm scared to show my skin oh yes I'm terrified Of quintessential eyes Of all these strangers throwing judgement I'm fucking anxious mess and yes I know you fucking love it Fall apart when that heat can grow A lonely poet you know Family had told you me that you are not special you'll never sell records and flows But what do they know That's why Ima cry til' the winter In summer have barbecue breakfast through dinner I'm sick a these hamburgers fucking my liver In may, weather said "Fuck it I'm packing my bags and i decide I'm gone" Don't tell me that shit about freedom from school Tell me whose side you're on Cargo shorts and thinking you cool Why even try those on No No, No We're never sober And too hung over To keep up now Yup I hate the summer Beaches and the waves Drive yourself insane Someone make it rain now Mama make it rain I hate the summer Beaches and the waves Drive yourself insane Someone make it rain now Mama make it rain I hate the summer Beaches and the waves Drive yourself insane Someone make it rain now Mama make it rain Mama make it rain

One Two Three Four Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Only living for the better days Only see you through the photos that gon never change Always felt this was forever so we stay the same Never thought i'd see you go Waiting on some texts i know i won't receive And i still call myself a failure Cause i don't believe in progress I can't help from being honest I just focus on the problems up at hand So i ain't sleeping Tell me when i'm suppose to dream The future never waiting for me And all these people say they love me but they hating on me Tell me how the fuck you suppose to love me now When i can't love myself This shit just draining on my mental pick up the pencil Taken as no surprise Devil working overtime Wish she hit me on my line Stuck alone another night Wear this love i'll never find Pray it's only in my mind Had to ask you are we fine Wish I did you right Did you right Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go Give and go Or let me know Said baby we should take it slow But here we go You don't love me You love the idea of me You want someone that's gonna give you everything you want And that's just not me I'm just not that person

I smoke cigarettes Because I got a problem With my mental health I don't know how to help myself Don't know how to ask for help I don't know how to not break myself Don't wanna see so many sunrises Because of all the late nights I know where all the afterparties is When I'm tired as shit And I just wanna keep going And fuck with that blow And be a different person That I know I will like I'm a different person You see on the outside On the Instagram Tryna get a lot of likes Smoking in this room When I'm supposed to smoke outside I'm the one that you thought Was so good but I couldn't Make one good decision Even if I could Fucked up So drunk I got no one to love I hate myself And the way I am I hate myself And the way I am Go I hate myself I'm trapped inside a system Lock my heart and hide the key And know there ain't nobody miss 'em Got some cringe I call my life And see as memories Dodging all my peers Because I know they're so ahead of me Lace my blunts with Ketamine Chase my pills with Hennessey Dive into the ocean from the bridge It's feeling heavenly Died when I was seventeen Got stood up by Emily Hate myself much more Than you could ever know Or ever be Jumped to methamphetamines Can't change a world I'll never see Weight up on my heart And man I'm only stuck on Level three Still make the same bad decisions And in my position I know I should change in my heart But don't know where to start I hate myself Because I make a lot of bad decisions Then I suffer the consequences And just live with them I don't fight I don't try I don't hide I just lie In my mind Like it never ever ever happened It never ever ever happened Coming up and being happy It never ever ever happened I hate myself And the way I am I hate myself And the way I am