Ilya Used To Be

I'm sorry that I showed up late Ain't been keepin' track of time I got so much on my plate Trying not to lose my mind Sorry if I said some shit that I mean, yeah I'm just trying to get back to the friend that I used to be I'm sorry I don't let you in It's a little dark inside What would happen if you saw Everything behind these eyes? I've seen some things, I swear to God I wish that I couldn't see, yeah I'm just trying to get back to the lover I used to be 'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be I'm sorry that I woke you up Know I shouldn't do these drugs Only you could understand Just how hard I am to love I know that you can still see the happy child in me I'm just trying to get back to the son that I used to be 'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be Yeah, I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be

I'll always be the one who messed up Every time I will have your back just so you know Just want to hear the word The word that had me falling Smash the mirror cause don't like what it shows every time The storyline, mine was never been sold What am I supposed to do? What happens if I do it? Now I'm holding onto something and I dont know why I need to step out, and find myself a way out I wish that I could rewind To find myself, who I am There could be something that I should fix But I don't know how Seems like I'm not attractive to you I don't mind Didn't ask you to turn back around Cause I'm used to it I don't know what's in my mind Want to feel like I'm in Las Vegas Find the best part of me In a starring role Maybe that can change your mind Now I'm holding onto something and I dont know why I need to step out, and find myself a way out I wish that I could rewind To find myself, who I am Oh yeah I don't care about all, and I don't know why How will I face it and Throughout all these things I wish that I could rewind To find myself, who I am Woah Oh Oh Woah Oh Oh Woah Oh Oh Woah Oh Oh It's just a wall that people have created But I want to break it down into dust Now I'm just a man with a broken heart Try to feel good in a mess Now I'm holding onto something and I dont know why I need to step out, and find my self way out I wish that I could rewind To find myself, who I am Oh yeah I don't care about all and I don't know why How will I face you and Who will save me now? I wish that I could rewind To find myself, who I am Woah Oh Oh Woah Oh Oh It's something that I used to be Woah Oh Oh Woah Oh Oh

S'up baby Remember how your man was? Yeah but that's when love was sexy Smooth You know, au natural Lil' something like this, check it out It used to be about your droptop It used to be about your bling-bling Used to be about the fancy things I thought And anything that your money bought You talking about the real thing? (used to be) Are you talking about a diamond ring? Oh baby, baby Listen Do you remember when we first met? It was a day like this Oh I remember It wasn't too long after that We started kicking it With each other We shared some good times and bad times, too But we got through it Yes we did When there was doubt we both worked it out Together That's how we stayed together It used to be about your droptop It used to be about your bling-bling Used to be about the fancy things I thought And anything that your money bought You talking about the real thing? Are you talking about a diamond ring? I'm talking about spending time with you shorty Let's go somewhere and just do this Look at us now, how we've come so far We've both had drama in our lives Yet we both shook it off We've been through it And through it all You're my heart, you're my love You're the one I want baby It used to be about your droptop It used to be about your bling-bling Used to be about the fancy things I thought And anything that your money bought You talking about the real thing? Are you talking about a diamond ring? I'm talking about spending time with you shorty Let's go somewhere and do this No, no, no, no, no, no, no Don't wanna let you go Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Baby I know this for sure I could see us together for a very long time So let's be like this For all times Oh yeah All right Ooh-ee Yeah yeah Oh oh oh... It used to be about your droptop It used to be about your bling-bling Used to be about the fancy things I thought And anything that your money bought You talking about the real thing? Are you talking about a diamond ring? I'm talking about spending time with you shorty Let's go somewhere and just do this It used to be about your droptop It used to be about your bling-bling Used to be about the fancy things I thought And anything that your money bought You talking about the real thing? Are you talking about a diamond ring? Anything you want baby, oh, oh Hey baby It used to be about your droptop It used to be about your bling-bling It used to be about the fancy things I thought And anything that your money bought You talking about the real thing? Are you talking about a diamond ring?

I was honest for the second time I guess that wasn't really what you had in mind Said that you could like me if you wanted to Then followed me around until I talked to you And could you tell that you were scaring me Called me crying, said you thought you were in love with me Cut my hair enough that I won't look the same Maybe it gets easier in seventh grade I'd already had enough then I already gave an answer and still it wouldn't end You didn't care what I said Guess it was just another rule that you could bend We used to be friends Even at my best I'm still just small to you Dragged me halfway down the hall 'cause it was easy to What a funny feeling when you're pushed around You don't even know you're falling till you're on the ground I'd already had enough then I already swore to be a person I'd defend Carry me to the deep end What could be worse than having nothing to depend on? We used to be friends You were just waiting on a call I never cared for it at all You were so hopelessly dissolved I never wanted you to take the fall Take the fall

Well, it made no sense at all Until you came along I'm afraid you're letting go 'Cause the only life I've ever known Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely When long days knock you down When cold winds turn me round Take me out into the night 'Cause the only way to spend our time Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely