Used To Be - Matt Nathanson

I'm sorry that I showed up late Ain't been keepin' track of time I got so much on my plate Trying not to lose my mind Sorry if I said some shit that I mean, yeah I'm just trying to get back to the friend that I used to be I'm sorry I don't let you in It's a little dark inside What would happen if you saw Everything behind these eyes? I've seen some things, I swear to God I wish that I couldn't see, yeah I'm just trying to get back to the lover I used to be 'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be I'm sorry that I woke you up Know I shouldn't do these drugs Only you could understand Just how hard I am to love I know that you can still see the happy child in me I'm just trying to get back to the son that I used to be 'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be Yeah, I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be

I was honest for the second time I guess that wasn't really what you had in mind Said that you could like me if you wanted to Then followed me around until I talked to you And could you tell that you were scaring me Called me crying, said you thought you were in love with me Cut my hair enough that I won't look the same Maybe it gets easier in seventh grade I'd already had enough then I already gave an answer and still it wouldn't end You didn't care what I said Guess it was just another rule that you could bend We used to be friends Even at my best I'm still just small to you Dragged me halfway down the hall 'cause it was easy to What a funny feeling when you're pushed around You don't even know you're falling till you're on the ground I'd already had enough then I already swore to be a person I'd defend Carry me to the deep end What could be worse than having nothing to depend on? We used to be friends You were just waiting on a call I never cared for it at all You were so hopelessly dissolved I never wanted you to take the fall Take the fall

Well, it made no sense at all Until you came along I'm afraid you're letting go 'Cause the only life I've ever known Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely When long days knock you down When cold winds turn me round Take me out into the night 'Cause the only way to spend our time Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely Used to be lonely Lonely

I don't wanna see the wires in the circus anymore I wanna dream and make believe people can fly I don't need to be reminded what it takes to kill the fun I got a head full of sharp knives Yeah, it's easy to get colder And it's easy to forget So meet me where the lights dim We can wake up every morning We can set ourselves on fire And we can do it all again The world don't speak for us They lack the confidence Yeah, we're only hearts and bones and blood Oh, but we are giants Giants The walls are closing in We climb and they descend With nothing but the clouds against our skin Oh, we are giants Giants I want to roll around the darkness 'til the darkness goes away 'Til the television finally tells the truth You know, everybody's scared of things they don't understand And all of the living that they don't do Yeah, it's easy to get colder And it's easy to forget So meet me where the lights dim We can wake up every morning We can set ourselves on fire And we can do it all again The world don't speak for us They lack the confidence Yeah, we're only hearts and bones and blood Oh, but we are giants Giants The walls are closing in We climb and they descend With nothing but the clouds against our skin Oh, we are giants Giants I'm done trying to fit in and be half forgiven For things that I never did We're more than what scares us, we're final and fearless We'll dance where the ice gets thin Gets thin The world don't speak for us They lack the confidence Yeah, we're only hearts and bones and blood Oh, but we are giants Giants The walls are closing in We climb and they descend With nothing but the clouds against our skin Oh, we are giants Giants

I want a real love to let me in I wanna zero out and be born again No more false starts and no dead end 'Cause I'm in no shape to do what's right And I see up as down and black as white It makes me dizzy, I come apart All this love, love, love in the dark Mercy, mercy, both hands I need less drowning and more land Mercy, mercy, understand (Less drowning, more land, less drowning) Lit a fire in the crowd just to watch you move And tie your hands and demand a salute Oh, this garden's full of snakes and fruit Oh, oh no, no, no, no Hear the click, click, click of the camera flash And in the definite kicking of the fame bomb blast But they don't call and they don't last And you're gone, outshined Mercy, mercy, both hands I need less drowning and more land Mercy, mercy, understand (Less drowning, more land, less drowning) So come on, kill the lights, and leave it all behind I'm right by your, I'm right by your side Ignore the tick of time, put your hand in mine Watch it all, watch it all ignite Mercy, mercy, both hands I need less drowning and more land Mercy, mercy, understand Less drowning, more land Mercy, mercy, I'm in your hands I look into your eyes and I see what I can Mercy, mercy, understand Less drowning, more land Less drowning, more land

Will you lead me? And fit around my tongue? It's so easy, to forget that I'm lost Spent all of my life Waiting for answers To lift me, to numb me, to define it all Sunshine, I'm beginning to like this 'Cause all I want to be is the minute that you hold me in When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for Time slips to nothing and I'm better than I've ever been I'm suspended With your breathing, filling up my lungs I can almost believe that I'm almost enough Spent all of my life emptied of anthems Bracing for something that never did come Sunshine, I'm beginning to like this Sunshine, I'm beginning to like it Cause all I want to be is the minute that you hold me in When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for Time slips to nothing and I'm better than I've ever been Yeah, I'm suspended It's not enough to stay surrounded It's not enough to stay awake, torn, braced, cornered And not feel alive Sunshine, I'm beginning to like this Sunshine, I'm beginning to like it Cause all I want to be is the minute that you hold me in When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for Time slips to nothing and I'm better than I've ever been Yeah, I'm suspended Yeah, I'm suspended I'm suspended