Yeah, yeah Everyday we wake up and they don't Everyday we're asked to be so strong But it's getting ridiculous and tedious, we lost 3 relatives in just 2 months My grandma lost her brother and her son She barely got to breathe and she was also gone Thought death could never graze my loved ones It's pretty clear I was wrong (I was wrong) We gotta find a way to take this pain and make it something we can cherish (Cherish) We gotta find a way to use these tears up and relieve some of the anguish Anguish, anguish Pictures hang in frames in living rooms And they're the only way we can see you Trying to reminisce the good and the better days Wondering whether we'd be different if we knew (If we knew) And I'm sick of all the dying, the powerlessness And the feeling we're somewhere outside our lives (Our lives) Yeah, I'm sick of all the crying, the emotional mess, the keeping bottled inside (Bottled inside) We gotta find a way to take this pain and make it something we can cherish (Cherish) We gotta find a way to use these tears up and relieve some of the anguish Anguish, anguish We gotta find a way to take this pain and make it something we can cherish, cherish We gotta find a way to use these tears up and relieve some of the anguish Anguish, anguish

I wanna know what it is that I did wrong Understand why you hate me for what feels like way too long How I'm destined to be laughed at There's no way I can take that, 'cuz I'm not writing a song "No rest for the weary", right 'cuz I can't catch a break Each step of mine in the playground seems like my newest mistake You know the worst kind of sadness The one equivalent to emptiness, every day is a blank slate I guess it'd be weird if I knew a place where I felt safe "They're only mean to me cuz I teased them" that's what I've been said Is that what teenage is made of? Is the salt in my tears depicting the fate of my life? Someone stole my eyes I feel empty I feel sorry I feel lonely, I need to be saved I guess it'd be weird if I knew a place where I felt safe I just need someone who resonates with the way I'm made But who I am is just a punk, and that's what I've been said Oooooh Maybe I'll find myself some day

I think my life was easier when I loved you I think my life was stupider when I loved you And stupid with a cool meaning cuz I loved you And stupid has a cool meaning when the love's true They told me I was obsessed, and maybe I was Overcome with stress, yet you got me drawn, To an idea of someone who's wearing your clothes And we're grains in the sand, floored by gravity's calls Just how far we'd have fled if we weren't trapped on the floor You're the means to my ends, and my end all be all Such a part of my fantasy, one I'd withdrawn into One I'd withdrawn into One I'd withdrawn into We were grains in the sand, floored by gravity's calls Just how far we'd have fled if we weren't trapped on the floor She was the means to my ends, and my end all be all Such a part of my fantasy, one I took for the truth

All she wanna do is party all night Drinks everywhere I'm feeling so drunk, so lost Drunk in love All she wanna do is party all night Drinks everywhere I'm feeling so drunk, so lost Drunk in love You told me you'd never go away Dear lil' Hennie take the pain away All this smoke I can't find my way My mind's slowly fading Every night I'm tweaking I'm thinking you're the reason Friends told me stop but I keep slipping Inside my heart it's dim and dark, my eyes keep glistening Roll up in a ball, get up on a call but I can never sleep No, I can never sleep All she wanna do is party all night Drinks everywherе I'm feeling so drunk, so lost Drunk in love Told me you'd never run away I been walking where the fuck you been? You been texting all these messages Tripped me up about my confidence Showered you in your favorite presents Used to like them but you wasn't present Your words stuck to me like they were Piers Morgan's Ignorance with a good diction All she wanna do is party all night Drinks everywhere I'm feeling so drunk, so lost Drunk in love Yeah, huh Stop now, calm down, breathe out Don't share your thoughts, they loud What you jealous, about? That girl wasn't shit, she was Walked out, where you at? I can be there Home 'lone, where my boys, have you seen them? Ignored them, now I'm lone on a weekday Drinks out, no one to share all my feelings My ego shivering, I been super weak and I felt like the Weekend I called you on weekends But that ain't your thinking You don't like my moves, you think I be creeping All up in my feelings, but where have the drinks been? I need some I need some I need some again Oh won't you come back girl at least be my friend I need some I need some I need some again All she wanna do is party all night Drinks everywhere I'm feeling so drunk, so lost Drunk in love Drunk in love Drunk in love

Yo Arum, you ready? Alright, let's go I see these demons in my mind and I can't get rid of them They seem to haunt my dreams and I can't let them go I see these demons in my mind and I can't get rid of them They seem to haunt my dreams and I can't let them go These thoughts up in my brain Make me go insane Falling to ground, can't remember my name These tears in my eyes Made me blind to the light Who the fuck told y'all I was doing alright? Yeah these late nights, alonе up in my room How the fuck you think I could go back to school? All unfair fights, alone down in my tomb I wish I coulda made mysеlf a little cool Let you fall in love with someone else But I'm a broken boy and I got no one else Been stomping walls, ripping off my nails Like a broken toy I put me on the shelf Got a hard time letting dreams go Got a hard time letting me go Got a hard time letting dreams go Got a hard time letting me go I see these demons in my mind and I can't get rid of them They seem to haunt my dreams and I can't let them go I see these demons in my mind and I can't get rid of them They seem to haunt my dreams and I can't let them go I been on my phone, tryna leave her 'lone Even wrote her a thousand different songs They feel way too distant, the times we got along She blocked me out her life and I can't move on Looking past horizons, but I feel so small Nothing ever seems to make sense at all I'm with another person, and she loves me whole But then it comes to mind, that you did also It ain't a curse if you tryna hide the facts If you look into your eyes, clean your dick, and think of ass Can't make truce, if you don't stay true, yeah think of that You say you cheat because of devils, I say you just a rat And it's fine if you gotta compromise yourself If someone gotta see that you not perfect in and out You hate hurting people, and that hurts you most when it happens So speak your truth, embrace and use these demons Note to self 10th of February 2021 (Woooh) Huh I think that's pretty much the beat

Dark hair Brown eyes You're all that I desire Brown hair Dark eyes You're all that I desire Make love, no make-up Everything I want Break up, and make up Toxic days are far I fall asleep I think of you Wonder what you would do If we, were close Front my face all the day long How does loving take so long? The man, I trust Love is at our fingertips Like all my cigarettes I cry but smile Love is at our fingertips Talk to you with just one click So far, close by Love you, love more No that ain't an option Love you, love more No find a solution I need an intervention for what I'm going through Heart pounding, blood pumping I need to take a two Shatter my life, baby come by My arms, your arms combined A bus away, a train away, I come your way We need to wait, slower our pace; calm down my face Love is at our fingertips Like all my cigarettes I cry but smile Love is at our fingertips Talk to you with just one click So far, close by Blue moonlight, shine so bright Starry nights, wishes good nights Hello, goodbye Goodbye, hello Demon, halo Stand high, stay low At my fingertips The only one, I miss