What I've Become - ABiCA

Blank stares from broken men So withered from the poisons They can't Remember when There were once honest reasons It's all a lie, it died 100, 000 miles ago Pretending I'm still here Justify What I've become Sanctify What I've become Amazing disgrace... how sweet the sound That saved a wretch like me Better lost if this is found, best blinded Never to see The race to save face, nothing now is what We meant it to be Pretending I'm still here It's a system now Intertwined Take your place in the line to be ground by the gears of the masterpiece Betrayal Justify What I've become Justify What I've become Suffered consequence It's been so long since any piece of this made any kind of sense You anoint the king, I'll burn everything to ashes You giveth, I taketh away You giveth, I taketh away It's a system now Intertwined Take your place in the line to be ground by the gears of the masterpiece Betrayal

Dwilly, I'm scared Walked across Ohio, took me 50 days I talked to the stars, they were happy that I came Somedays, I'm a genius; others, I'm insane There is somethin' gorgeous underneath the pain I can feel it liftin', woo, I'm feelin' good I'm thinkin' 'bout David from my old neighborhood A warm and perfect white light in each of my cells I used to a pop singer, now I am myself Yeah, I took a little time right now just to count my blessings Count my blessings, count, count, count Took a little time right now just to count my blessings Count my blessings, okay Even when I'm fallin', there's somethin' underneath Somethin' that is perfect, it's almost like a dream And I know Vincent Van Gogh, I know Princess Di And David Foster Wallace, he calls me all the time If I think 'bout paradise, I'd imagine this No drugs or no alcohol 'cause I'm high as it is Yeah, I don't want your money, I am simply done I just walked away, huh, Look What I've Become Look What I've Become (Woo, woo) Look What I've Become (Woo, woo) Look What I've Become (Woo, woo) Look What I've Become Rollin' through South Central, better watch your ass Bars all on my window, pistol on my bed-stand To live and die in L.A., couldn't make it off of minimum wage I had to get the big body Mercedes Cop a Rollie, plus one for my lady, my lady I always knew I'd be a legend, saw it in my dreams I had to keep one eye open, I could barely sleep (Sleep) I had to kill 'em with success like they the enemy Murder, murder, murder, Lord, mercy me I stopped smokin' last year, fuck that, started back again God don't make no accidents, Look What I've Become Yeah, Look What I've Become

They told you to keep your head down They told you not to run They told you "we're sorry, you're not the fortunate one" They told me to keep it quiet Said my day would never come So I screamed my lungs out and I ran straight for the sun And they always told us we would be nothing Look what we've done (look what we've done), hey And they always told us we would be nothing But look what we've become (look what we've become) And they told you you don't understand They told you, "let it go" And then they took you by the hand And led you out the door Your words don't make a sound My dreams are on the floor But you're rising up from underground And I'm nothing like I was before And they always told us we would be nothing But look what we've done (look what we've done), hey And they always told us we would be nothing Now look what we've become (look what we've become) They say it's over now The world is over you They told me "no regrets" There's nothing you can do But I won't fade to black On the walk that will be damned I'll wear my heart like a flag and run Straight for the sun Always told us we would be nothing And they always told us we would be nothing Told us "keep your heads down" They told us not to run They told us "we're sorry, you're not the chosen ones" They told us to keep it quiet And said our day would never come So we screamed our bloody lungs out and ran straight for the sun And they always told us we would be nothing And look what we've done (look what we've done), hey And they always told us we would be nothing But look what we've become (look what we've become) Uh, uh Look what we've become

I'm feeling pretty, pretty, pretty I'm feeling pretty, pretty, pretty I'm feeling pretty, pretty, pretty I'm feeling pretty, pretty, pretty I fell with the lows, lost in the highs All those memories lost inside And the fear I hid wasn't hidden well 'Cause the fights that I had straight drug me to hell Never thought the thing that I needed would make a wasted place My mind depleted and I lost the will to fight And all my drive cause the power that I had was stripped inside So low, nowhere to go Inhale death, relieve my heart slows Eyes closed, Tay on my side Laying on my chest making sure I'm still alive So low, nowhere to go Inhale death, relieve my heart slows Eyes closed, Tay on my side Laying on my chest making sure I'm still alive And if you had it then you get it won't relive it 'Cause I had to get to zero for a second chance on livin I've reached my nine lives nine ways to be forgiven from the Evil I kept hidden the disease good fuckin riddance I'm free I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will take me away I've had so many tries I'm learning what I need to keep me away I'm sick of all the lies I'm throwing everything I was away I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will give me away So sick with the pen ain't no pretend Every week in a brand new Benz Brand new tens, brand new lens Brand new rims, Armageddon Not for god, ain't making amends Took my image, took my name People know that you ain't my friend I promise you will do it again How you think it feels when the popo holds you down Your career, bullet in the head Took my name, took my image That's a shame, you should be laying in your coffin bed Your girl, she be giving me head Still no thief, just a dead How I make these colors blend Yeah, I made this all to descend These notes I know how to hem Try to look but you can't see the gem In my closet, in my head See you another time again Once I knew you, that was then Once I knew you, that was when I guess that's from what you said I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will take me away I've had so many tries I'm learning what I need to keep me away I'm sick of all the lies I'm throwing everything I was away I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will give me away In my room I sit alone, these regrets I still own Don't know where to go from here, falling deeper in despair You were here and now you're gone, I don't know why you went so wrong Your smile held a secret, now I'm the one that keeps it I lost a lot, you lost it all, as I slam my fist against the wall I swear to go back and fix the past, but what's done is done, and that's a fact No turning back and that's for real, I think I need to find a better way to deal And I hope you know that I'll always remember that walk in the dark, that cold December I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will take me away I've had so many tries I'm learning what I need to keep me away I'm sick of all the lies I'm throwing everything I was away I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will give me away