Torn Up - Dion Timmer

One more night, I swear I won't exist It's okay, it's okay-ay Talk to em, uh If I go one more night alone it's like I won't exist I'm so strung out I'm sick of trying to be an optimist Whether I hit you back that waivers with my confidence Cause I'm torn up, throw my guts up when I think about it Hello, how you doin'? What you been up to, tell me what you pursuing Man, lately I'm just chilling I've been writing some music I took a break for a while but now I'm getting back to it, You probably knew it, uh Yessir, knew you could do it What you been up turning to when you need some influence? Well it's rather fortunate, I bottle up and hold it in and When I need to write music I simply tap into it, there's nothing to it Woah, is that really good for you? Penning your pain for the fans that adore you I spit when I internalize cause I know it'll turn your eyes and You gon call it fire, it's a piece of me that burns alive If I go one more night alone it's like I won't exist (I won't exi-st) I'm so strung out I'm sick of trying to be an optimist Whether I hit you back that waivers with my confidence Cause I'm torn up, throw my guts up when I think about it When I'm alone I would say I'm the most dangerous cause (Why?) Depression and anxiety think they hanging with us (Huh?) I go to battle with a constant reality-check and Saddle up my personality that doesn't give a fuck (Fuck) It's not a healthy one But he don't give a fuck He breaks my options down to giving in or giving up (Fuck him) And now I'm locked inside a box that I created and I know it's nothing more than a product of isolation But I swear I feel the borders around me just like a mime Only here for so long, why do we try to kill the time? I tip-toed through my youth like it was enemy lines I can't change my past but what I'd give to rewind, damn If I go one more night alone it's like I won't exist (I won't exi-st) I'm so strung out I'm sick of trying to be an optimist Whether I hit you back that waivers with my confidence Cause I'm torn up, throw my guts up when I think about it One more night, I swear I won't exist It's okay, it's okay-ay

A part of me wants to leave you alone A part of me wants for you to come home A part of me says I'm living a lie (And I'm better off without you) A part of me says to think it through A part of me says I'm over you A part of me wants to say goodbye A part of me is asking why A part of me wants to leave But a part of me wants to be here with you And every time I think that we're over and done You do something to get me back, loving you And you got me just torn Torn in between the two (oh yeah) 'Cause I really wanna be with you But something's telling me I should leave you alone (I really want to be with you) Leave you alone, leave you alone And you got me just torn in between the two (in between the two) 'Cause I really wanna be with you (be with you) But something's telling me I should leave you alone (you alone) Leave you alone, leave you alone There were no issues when we started out It was cool, it was everything that love's about But something happened Plus I'm feeling so burnt out ('Cause I can't understand you now) Now oh (I just can't understand you now) A part of me says it's all my fault A part of me says, he ain't what you want A part of me says to get my bags A part of me says I can't do that A part of me wants to leave But a part of me wants to be here with you And every time I think that it's over and done You make me fall back in love You got me just torn Torn in between the two (between the two) 'Cause I really wanna be with you (be with you) But something's telling me I should leave you alone (you alone) Leave you alone, leave you alone And you got me just torn in between the two (torn in between the two) 'Cause I really wanna be with you (really wanna be with you) But something's telling me I should leave you alone (telling me I should leave) Leave you alone (alone) Leave you alone (alone) So many times I (I was ready to go) So many times I (had my foot out the door) So many times I (I thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man) Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused 'Cause I keep fighting myself for you I don't know how much more I can take, but I can't feel this way You got me so torn Torn in between the two (oh yeah) 'Cause I really wanna be with you But something's telling me I should leave you alone (I really wanna be with you) Leave you alone Leave you alone (but I don't know) And you got me just torn in between the two (should I stay or should I go) 'Cause I really wanna be with you (I don't know) But something's telling me I should leave you alone (you alone) Leave you alone Leave you alone (you alone) And you got me just torn in between the two (I'm torn in between the two) 'Cause I really wanna be with you (I really wanna be with you) But something's telling me I should leave you alone (but I don't know) Leave you alone Leave you alone And you got me just torn in between the two 'Cause I really wanna be with you But something's telling me I should leave you alone Leave you alone Leave you alone And you got me just torn in between the two 'Cause I really wanna be with you But something's telling me I should leave you alone Leave you alone Leave you alone And you got me just torn in between the two 'Cause I really wanna be with you But something's telling me I should leave you alone

I thought I saw a man brought to life He was warm, he came around like he was dignified He showed me what it was to cry Well you couldn't be that man I adored You don't seem to know or seem to care What your heart is for And I don't know him anymore There's nothin' where we used to lie My conversation has run dry That's what's going on Nothing's fine, I'm torn I'm all out of faith This is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed Lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late I'm already torn So I guess the fortune teller's right I should have seen just what was there And not some holy lie But you crawled beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have no luck I don't miss it all that much There's just so many things That I can't touch, I'm torn I'm all out of faith This is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed Lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late I'm already torn Torn There's nothing where we used to lie My inspiration has run dry And that's what is goin' on Nothing's fine, I'm torn I'm all out of faith This is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed Lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn I'm all out of faith This is how I feel I'm cold and I'm ashamed Bound and broken on the floor You're a little late I'm already torn Torn I'm already torn I'm already torn I'm already torn

I wish I, had a chance to tell you The way out, way from inside I wish I, had a chance to hold you I wish I, got to save your life... I wish I-I-I I- (Drop) I wish I I wish I I wish I-I-I I- (Drop) I wish I, had a chance to tell you The way out, way from inside I wish I, had a chance to hold you I wish I, got to save your life...