Smaller Chill Factors - Ruben Beard

I wake up early, sometimes at 5:30 to run My mom got too worried, I had to tell her it was fun Oh, I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch I'm chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun 'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why 'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this I'll set a goal for myself and I'll try to work hard I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start I know that it's not true, but I feel like I'm the only one Who's chasing a body I know that I'll never outrun 'Cause I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why That I'll always wish I was smaller than this I was smaller, I was smaller, I was smaller I wish I was I was smaller, I was smaller, I was smaller I wish I was I'll always wish I was smaller than this And I just can't quit pulling at my skin Oh, I'm scared that I'm never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why That I'll always wish I was smaller than this

I'm a fan of a map-dot Knowin' every truck and car 'round here Pullin' up at the Quik Stop And where they're headed to drink that beer I can't think of a better place For a good old girl to be raised up But it ain't where you wanna be Goin' through a breakup The smaller the town, more you gon' see You-know-who on a two-lane street All his friends are your friends too Who you gon' call? Whatcha gon' do? When there's only one bar with a neon on He might be there, so you just stay home Damn, if I ain't learnin' it the hard way The smaller the town Bigger the heartbreak Smaller the town Bigger the heartbreak It ain't just on the weekend It's seven days of déjà vu Can't go to work, can't go to church Without hearin' what they heard about you Yeah, I give up, I've tried gettin' drunk Tried talkin' to someone new Everything moves slow 'round here Guess movin' on does too The smaller the town, more you gon' see You-know-who on a two-lane street All his friends are your friends too Who you gon' call? Whatcha gon' do? When there's only one bar with a neon on He might be there, so you just stay home Damn, if I ain't learnin' it the hard way The smaller the town Bigger the heartbreak Smaller the town Bigger the heartbreak Don't know what would hurt me worse Stayin' here or gettin' gone Seein' him with someone else Or leavin' everything I've ever known The smaller the town, more you gon' see You-know-who on a two-lane street All his friends are your friends too Who you gon' call? Whatcha gon' do? When there's only one bar with a neon on He might be there, so you just stay home Damn, if I ain't learnin' it the hard way The smaller the town Bigger the heartbreak Smaller the town Bigger the heartbreak

He makes me smaller with every embrace that I ask for Sit between the sheets of paper he writes on and I I keep on shrinking and he stays the same I keep on shrinking and he stays the same Keeps every dollar he earns under his pillow while he sleeps Fits me in the palm of his hand and I'm restless oh I keep on shrinking and he stays the same I keep on shrinking and he stays the same He's gonna make me watch him leave Done all the things that he asked of me He makes me fall, makes me fall to my knees Smaller than my mother, he looks down on me He drifts off slowly, it's like he can't talk in silence Kicks me in his sleep as he dreams of another oh I keep on shrinking and he stays the same I keep on shrinking and he stays the same He's gonna make me watch him leave Done all the things that he asked of me He makes me fall, makes me fall to my knees Smaller than my mother, he looks down on me Used up all of my words I can't read him anymore Used up all of my words I can't read him anymore

Every day I wake up we drink a lot of coffee and watch the CNN Every day I wake up to a bowl of clover honey and let the locusts fly in. Lobsterbacks attack the town again Wrap all my things in aluminum Beams of darkness streak across the sky Pink rays from the ancient satellite Every time I look out my window same three dogs looking back at me Every time I open my windows cranes fly in to terrorize me The power of the Holy Ghost Shadow of the New Praetorian Tipping Cows in fields Elysian Saturnalia for all you have The seven habits of the highly infected calf Swan diving off the tongues of crippled giants International Business Machine Choking on bits of barley bread crumbs Oh, this burning beard, I have come undone It's just as I've feared. I have, I have come undone Bugger dumb the last of academe Okkam's razor makes the cutting clean Shaven like a banker, lilac vegetal Break the glass ceiling and the golden parachute on down The power of the Holy Ghost comes to town Shadow of the New Praetorian Tipping cows in fields Elysian Saturnalia for all you have The seven habits of the highly infected calf