He makes me smaller with every embrace that I ask for Sit between the sheets of paper he writes on and I I keep on shrinking and he stays the same I keep on shrinking and he stays the same Keeps every dollar he earns under his pillow while he sleeps Fits me in the palm of his hand and I'm restless oh I keep on shrinking and he stays the same I keep on shrinking and he stays the same He's gonna make me watch him leave Done all the things that he asked of me He makes me fall, makes me fall to my knees Smaller than my mother, he looks down on me He drifts off slowly, it's like he can't talk in silence Kicks me in his sleep as he dreams of another oh I keep on shrinking and he stays the same I keep on shrinking and he stays the same He's gonna make me watch him leave Done all the things that he asked of me He makes me fall, makes me fall to my knees Smaller than my mother, he looks down on me Used up all of my words I can't read him anymore Used up all of my words I can't read him anymore

At this rate, I'm not gonna have bridesmaids Haven't seen my friends in 17 Fridays Spending all my time on you At this rate, I should throw away my crop tops Wear your hoodies 'cause you say I make 'em look hot Are you all I'm ever gonna do? And I'll never really been the kinda girl to throw a fit, oh no But lately, I've been wondering if this is really it, oh no All my girls have all been asking where I think this thing will go, oh no But how're we getting married when you never leave your home? All we ever do is hang out, make out, order up too much take out Watch the same damn movie, drink some mango truly's All we ever do is stay in, sleep in, why go out when you're three in? Tell mom I'm getting bored of this Tell me there's more than this, must be more than this, yeah Tell me, are you sure you're really happy? (Are you sure?) Frozen dinners on your birthday, ain't it classy? Good as we're gonna get, oh no So, tell me, is this what you wanted? (What you wanted) And are you having fun yet? Yeah, are you having fun yet, now? At this rate, we're dying in your basement, no way to escape it We're both stuck, but you and I are never gonna say it Awkward conversations, I love you but I hate this All we ever do is hang out, make out, order up too much take out Watch the same damn movie, drink some mango truly's All we ever do is stay in, sleep in, why go out when you're three in? Tell mom I'm getting bored of this Tell me there's more than this, must be more than this, yeah Tell me there's more (tell me there's more) Tell me there's more Tell me there's more than this Tell me there's more than this, must be more than this, yeah Never really been the kinda girl to throw a fit, oh no But lately, I've been wondering if this is really it (yeah, yeah) All we ever do is hang out All we ever do, all we ever do All we ever do is hang out All we ever do All we ever do is hang out, make out, order up too much take out Watch the same damn movie, drink some mango truly's All we ever do is stay in, sleep in, why go out when you're three in? Tell mom I'm getting bored of this Tell me there's more than this, must be more than this, yeah Tell me there's more (tell me there's more) Tell me there's more Tell me there's more than this Tell me there's more than this, must be more than this, yeah Tell me there's more (tell me there's more) Tell me there's more Tell me there's more than this Tell me there's more than this, must be more than this, yeah Tell me there's more than this Hmm do-do, hm

Is this what you meant? Is this what you dreamed of? When you were making your plans Shaking the dirt off? Do you feel like You and I belong? (Oh woah oh!) Just keep your eyes on the road And nothing can go wrong You can do so much better than this You can do so much better than this I've been checking my sums Oh where did the time go? Holding my photograph Up to the window Through the paper And refracted sun (Oh woah oh!) I can see all the things I wish that I'd done You can hang your hopes on the medicine (On the medicine) You can put your faith in the phone in (In the phone in) You can tell yourself you're doing your best (Doing your best) You can so much better than this (Better than this) Get a grip on yourself Get a grip on yourself Could've been something, but you're too late And you weren't invited anyway 'Cause the photograph showed the wrong man (Showed the wrong man) 'Cause there is no soap star holding your hand (Holding your hand) You don't see yourself in the freeze frame (In the freeze frame) Must be someone else using your name (Using your name) And everyone will be the same And everyone will glow And everywhere you'll see your name In every shop window It's better than this You can do so much better than this You can do so much better than this You can do so much better than this

All of my teachers were right I use math every day in my life I add, subtract, divide And most of the time it makes wanna die 'Cause the number below my feet And the number below my spine And the numbers on the menu are always too high So, I don't know how low I have to go 'Cause I wake up in my body and it never feels like home I feel like I'm in another persons house, I can't get out So, I don't know how low I have to go I want to rewire my mind So, I don't care if there's a space between my thighs It keeps me up at night To think I'll calculate until the day I die (until the day I die) 'Cause the number below my feet And the number below my spine And the numbers on the menu are always too high So, I don't know how low I have to go 'Cause I wake up in my body and it never feels like home I feel like I'm in another persons house, I can't get out So, I don't know how low I have to go I don't know how low All the numbers in my mind are set out to ruin my life I don't wanna let them win, but they just might And I know this is a problem That I'm improperly solving When I say, "I'll just go lower one more time" So, I don't know how low I have to go 'Cause I wake up in my body and it never feels like home I feel like I'm in another persons house, I can't get out So, I don't know how low I have to go I don't know how low No, I don't know how low I have to go I don't know how low

Waking up at 6:00 a.m. The weatherman said snow again You called me and said one day you'd go Where you don't have to worry 'bout A winter cold or icy routes Or walking on the sunny side of the road You always said When it gets cold, you wanna die And that's why you left To be under the southern sky Oh, winter looks so good on you You're thriving While every day for me has been surviving And I see your pictures on the beach I'm happy you're at 70 degrees But I wish you would've chose to freeze (But I wish you would've chose to freeze) It's hard for me to understand How warmer air is better than All the time and love we could've had Maybe if I'd spoken up And told you all my plans for us Then you'd be under blankets on my bed You always said When it gets cold, you wanna die And now I feel dead And I hope you're feeling more alive Oh, winter looks so good on you You're thriving While every day for me has been surviving And I see your pictures on the beach I'm happy you're at 70 degrees But I wish you would've chose to freeze But I wish you would've chose to freeze I feel cemented to the couch Just wondering who you're sat next to now Oh, winter looks so good on you You're thriving While every day for me has been surviving And I see your pictures on the beach I'm happy you're at 70 degrees, hmm But I wish you would've chose to freeze But I wish you would've chose to freeze (chose to freeze) Yeah, I wish you would've chosen me

Purple lips, sad face, going on a stupid date "Give him a chance", her father would say But she wouldn't want him, no matter the day Play nice, dress up, don't forget your makeup You really should impress him, once you take your medicine Ooh, daddy always had his ideas of being happy Marry a rich boy, be a rich girl Buy a big house on top of the world, oh You'll be a princess, you'll be a queen But her and her daddy, they never agree, oh 17, it's getting late, so listen to me and do as I say Baby, you're not gonna make it on your own Stand tall, suck in, laugh to show you're into him I heard he's got a million, so be a lady, not a friend Ooh, daddy always had his ideas of being happy Marry a rich boy, be a rich girl Buy a big house on top of the world, oh You'll be a princess, you'll be a queen But her and her daddy, they never agree, oh Marry a rich boy, you'll need the money So maybe one day, you'll be worth something, honey, oh Marry a rich boy Can't you see? He's what you need to live in his society It's only the reality, baby Marry a rich boy, be a rich girl Buy a big house on top of the world, oh You'll be a princess, you'll be a queen But her and her daddy, they never agree, oh Marry a rich boy, you'll need the money So maybe one day, you'll be worth something, honey, oh Marry a rich boy

High school graduation, last family vacation Trip to Michigan last year My yearbook from seventh grade I tore out every page with me And threw it all away I know there were more good times than bad But it's easy to forget when I start looking back So I, know you wanna keep This memory, can you keep it in the back of your head? 'Cause when I'll, see it in a week I'll wish I was dead, I'll wish I took the picture of you instead Future holidays, the beach next summer break I don't need proof that I was there My big brother's wedding Hope I'm not regretting the dress That I decide to wear So I, know you wanna keep This memory, can you keep it in the back of your head? 'Cause when I'll, see it in a week I'll wish I was dead, I'll wish I took the picture of you instead Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh I'll wish I took the picture of you instead Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh I know there were more good times than bad But they keep on getting ruined by these photographs So I, know you wanna keep This memory, can you keep it in the back of your head? 'Cause when I'll, see it in a week I'll wish I was dead, I'll wish I took the picture of you instead Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh I'll wish I took the picture of you instead Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

When I was a kid, I made a book Planning out how my future would look I drew in pictures of houses with views Two swings in the backyard, one pink and one blue Now I'm older, I wish I could see A world where that still made sense to me 'Cause if my future kids end up like me They won't get to sleep earlier than three They'll be thinking 'bout how they can be Better than they are, taking it too far Trying to change the things I love the most about them And I don't think I could ever stand to see that happen, oh-ooh I was too young when I picked out their names Then wrote them at the top of every page 'Cause I didn't know where I'd grow up to hate The way that I look and my size and my shape I wish I could make sure that they never see Themselves in the same way that I see me 'Cause if my future kids end up like me They won't get to sleep earlier than three They'll be thinking 'bout how they can be Better than they are, taking it too far Trying to change the things I love the most about them And I don't think I could ever stand to see that happen, oh-ooh I'll keep the book in a safe place 'Cause I'm not quite ready to throw it away 'Cause if my future kids end up like me They won't get to sleep earlier than three They'll be thinking 'bout how they can be Better than they are, taking it too far Trying to change the things I love the most about them And I don't think I could ever stand to see that happen, oh-ooh

You lived down the block We met for the first time at the bus stop We sat side by side Third seat from the back, we talked the whole ride Six years later you bought your first car And you told me to wait outside Then you pulled up and somebody else Was sitting in the passenger's side So I sat in the backseat, it didn't bother me But after five weeks of sitting in silence behind her While you talked of movies I've never seen I realized that's how we used to be But now my best friend is the driver And I'm the backseat rider Maybe it's my fault Spent summer break away and forgot to call Or maybe you forgot Around this time last summer, we sat in the parking lot And you told me when you got your first car That you and I would go for a drive But now we're here and somebody else Is sitting in the passenger's side So I sat in the backseat, it didn't bother me But after five weeks of sittin' in silence behind her While you talked of movies I've never seen I realized that's how we used to be But now my best friend is the driver And I'm the backseat rider I gave you back the clothes that you used to borrow You dropped me off at home, said you'll see me tomorrow And I sit in the backseat, it didn't bother me But after five weeks of sitting in silence behind her While you talked of movies I've never seen I realized that's how we used to be But now my best friend is the driver And I'm the backseat rider I gave you back the clothes that you used to borrow You dropped me off at home, said you'll see me tomorrow