And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself This ain't a way to be livin', I get it Didn't know bad it was until you actually said it Breakin' down but tellin' everyone I'm fine, I know I promised I would talk before I crossed that line again but didn't Yeah, I guess that's just the way my head works Open up another couple scars before you mend yours I don't learn from watching others crash, I gotta wreck first 'Cause I don't think that love is really love until you get hurt, yeah And I know what you think Said it's hard to love me when I Don't love myself and I'm on the brink Of trading in this sobriety for a fucking drink And I don't wanna talk about it till we're bout to sink, yeah Maybe I just need a day off Maybe I'm just more fucking comfortable in the chaos You say you love me, so you stay on Invested all your time and wonder when it's gonna pay off, huh? And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself So afraid of the failure that now I'm barely livin' Spent a lifetime of working with nothin' left to give it Lookin' back at the things we been through and feel I miss it I been running forever, I don't know how you didn't When you're sitting right next to me, don't know where I go I'm in my head with these songs and pick apart every note These insecurities killing me but I never show The things I'm thinking are probably worse than you'll ever know Yeah, we been feeling like we can't move Same house, same walls, but a different view Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth I got some problems and I'm sick of trying to blame you 'Cause I feel, like I been, on my own, in my head The light goes, and I see You fall when standing beside me And every night I lie awake Tryin' to fight but every day, I'm feeling less, feeling less like me Still waiting for me to open up She ain't cheating, just fantasizing bout who I was Fell in love with this image that I portray, but know it ain't a lie It's who I want to be at the end of the day I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds No matter where I go, they keep following me around And you think that one day, I can make it out And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself (Go and save yourself) Go and save yourself (Go and save yourself) Go and save yourself

Fuck Yeah, yeah Sometimes I feel guilt Some things can't be real Life's like Silent Hill Life is for the thrill Runnin' from my demons, get away from me I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh Ain't no fuckin' use in tryna save me I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh Save yourself, save yourself Save yourself from me Save yourself, save yourself Save yourself (I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh) Save yourself, savе yourself Save yourself Savе yourself (I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh) Save yourself From the depths of the ocean Sometimes I feel guilt Some things can't be real Life's like Silent Hill Life is for the thrill Runnin' from my demons, get away from me I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh Ain't no fuckin' use in tryna save me I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh Save yourself, save yourself Save yourself from me Save yourself, save yourself Save yourself (I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh) Save yourself, save yourself Save yourself Save yourself (I promise that I'm fightin' 'til the end, oh) Save yourself From the depths of the ocean

There's something about the winter's down in Texas Something in the wind that burns my eyes No way that I could keep from being reckless When nothing but a drink can ease my mind Now I've had enough of wanting to be wanted I've had enough of living in despair They say that brighter days will surely find me But I've never seen the sun like I did there So I'm packing up my bags and heading westward Looking for a place to call my own And I know I could find peace down in the valley But something about the water calls me home Well, in my heart there's two roads that diverge now And I'm sorry I can only travel one But living's only living once you've chosen To stop wasting time wondering what you might've done So I'm packing up my bags and heading westward Looking for a place to call my own And I know I could find peace down in the valley But something about the water calls me home So I'm packing up my bags and heading westward Looking for a place to call my own And I know I could find peace down in the valley But something about the water calls me home Oh I know I could find peace down in the valley But something about the water calls me home

I am lost In the darkness Between two worlds And here I'm struggling You're the light That I've been seeking Cuz my whole life There's been something missing Only you Can make me whole Just one touch You complete me Only you Can make me whole Just one touch You complete me Rescue me From this blackhole It sucked me in And left me dying You're the truth That I've been seeking Cuz my whole life I've been lying Only you Can make me whole Just one touch You complete me Only you Can make me whole Just one touch You complete me God I pray You'll find me worthy Of the right To stand beside you And of your truth And of your passion And of the right To sleep beside you Only you Can make me whole Just one touch You complete me Only you Can make me whole Just one touch You complete me Just one touch You complete me Just one touch You complete me Just one touch

You make it hard to breathe It's as if I'm suffocating And when you're next to me I can feel your heartbeat through my skin It makes me sad to think This could all be for nothing I wish there was a way A way for you to see inside me I've never felt this way About anyone or anything, tell me What do I have to do, to make you happy? What do I have to do, to make you understand? What do I have to do, to make you want me? But, if I can't make you want me What do I have to do? I know exactly what you're thinking But I swear this time I will not let you down I'm not as selfish as I used to be That was a part of me that never made me proud Right now I think I would try anything Anything at all to keep you satisfied God I hope you see what losing you would do to me All I want is one more chance, tell me What do I have to do, to make you happy? What do I have to do, to make you understand? What do I have to do, to make you want me? But, if I can't make you want me Just tell me, tell me Can I, how can I, how can we? What do I have to do, to make you want me? What do I have to do, to make you understand? What do I have to do, to make you love me? But, if I can't make you love me Just tell me what do I have to do? To forget about you

With time's passage, though, what worth would such things be Without a pen with which to write, Nor a voice with which to speak If I found you gazing back at me As the second night descends? For time steals us all away one day, does it not? It robs us of the things we want to hold onto the most. And believe me when I say That it lies in wait for no man or woman to make their haste. Just as easily, a thousand years would go to waste. The work is all the same before the eye of God, Is it not? Perhaps it is the plot I've lost? Perhaps I've lost my Way? At this point are they not the same? Am I not treading the One and only Pilgrims' Westward Way To do the workings of the One and only Thing? Have I not come this very way in search of higher things at stake? I have seen it manifest, I have seen it ache, I have been the squander, and I have been the mirth As their eyes avert from heavens sent to guide them to their birth. As they foster their impurity and mock the very Way In which the lurking and the murmuring Shall speak from night to day Will they choke upon their poison and speak the poison word While not manifesting the purity they sought. O', what a shame, O', what a tragedy it is for these words to fall upon deaf ears Doomed to never reach their subject. O', what a fool am I to have laboured and believed In such petty human things, When it was clear from the beginning; That we are westward souls? I pray the night might take me. I pray the night might take me westward bound. To confront who we are, to confront the shadow self, I pray the night might take me. If I must die a thousand deaths and die a thousand more As nameless, faceless, restless men Who nightly reach deaths door Then pray this lantern lays still lit to adorn my very soul. She told me once... "This is what happens in the mountains Where the light can't reach." So I go westward, westward bound.