And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself This ain't a way to be livin', I get it Didn't know bad it was until you actually said it Breakin' down but tellin' everyone I'm fine, I know I promised I would talk before I crossed that line again but didn't Yeah, I guess that's just the way my head works Open up another couple scars before you mend yours I don't learn from watching others crash, I gotta wreck first 'Cause I don't think that love is really love until you get hurt, yeah And I know what you think Said it's hard to love me when I Don't love myself and I'm on the brink Of trading in this sobriety for a fucking drink And I don't wanna talk about it till we're bout to sink, yeah Maybe I just need a day off Maybe I'm just more fucking comfortable in the chaos You say you love me, so you stay on Invested all your time and wonder when it's gonna pay off, huh? And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself So afraid of the failure that now I'm barely livin' Spent a lifetime of working with nothin' left to give it Lookin' back at the things we been through and feel I miss it I been running forever, I don't know how you didn't When you're sitting right next to me, don't know where I go I'm in my head with these songs and pick apart every note These insecurities killing me but I never show The things I'm thinking are probably worse than you'll ever know Yeah, we been feeling like we can't move Same house, same walls, but a different view Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth I got some problems and I'm sick of trying to blame you 'Cause I feel, like I been, on my own, in my head The light goes, and I see You fall when standing beside me And every night I lie awake Tryin' to fight but every day, I'm feeling less, feeling less like me Still waiting for me to open up She ain't cheating, just fantasizing bout who I was Fell in love with this image that I portray, but know it ain't a lie It's who I want to be at the end of the day I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds No matter where I go, they keep following me around And you think that one day, I can make it out And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself (Go and save yourself) Go and save yourself (Go and save yourself) Go and save yourself

You may not believe me Know I didn't tell you I will always love you But just know I'm good without you You may not believe me Know I didn't tell you I will always love you But just know I'm good without you I hope you find what you're looking for I hope you find it and way much more This ain't the first I've been here before Just go ahead and save yourself All I ever wanted was everything Now I gotta unlearn everything But I let it slide, let it slide No You may not believe me Know I didn't tell you I will always love you But just know I'm good without you (Just go ahead and save yourself) you may not believe me Know I didn't tell you (know I, know I didn't tell you) I will always love you (I will always love you) But just know I'm good without you (Just go ahead and save yourself) you may not believe me Know I didn't tell you (know I, know I didn't tell you) I will always love you (I will always love you) But just know I'm good without you (Just go ahead and save yourself) you may not believe me

Have you ever had a dream that you, um, you had Your, you- you could, you'll do, you- you wants You, you could do so, you- you'll do, you could- you, you want You want them to do you so much you could do anything? (Yeezo Beats) I keep trippin' away, I can't be home I keep driftin' away, I'm close to shore I keep you on my brain, yeah, hard to ignore I spent most of my days, yeah, waiting for You, waiting for you What were you waiting for? Waiting for What were you waiting for? Waiting for You, waiting for you What were you waiting for? What were you wait-waiting for? (Waiting for) What were you wait-waiting for? I can touch your soul and tell you what you wanna hear I'll warm you when you're cold, I keep you safe, nothing to fear Already know, I know, I felt the pain, I shedded tears Let me go blindfold, and I can still see that you're here (Yeah) Phantom, drop the top, I'll fix the mirror I got hella racks, no racketeer ('Teer) I just made like ten million this year This year, yeah I keep trippin' away, I can't be home I keep driftin' away, I'm close to shore I keep you on my brain, yeah, hard to ignore I spent most of my days, yeah, waiting for You, waiting for you What were you waiting for? Waiting for What were you waiting for? Waiting for You, waiting for you What were you waiting for? What were you wait-waiting for? (Waiting for) What were you wait-waiting for? I can touch your soul and tell you what you wanna hear I'll warm you when you're cold, I keep you safe, nothing to fear Already know, I know, I felt the pain, I shedded tears And I can go blindfold, and I can still see that you're here (Yeah)

Like rain and lightning Keep on crying out Like rage colliding Keep on fighting on Are you there? Anybody home? Are you scared? Don't go running off I don't care Don't let it all go to your head To your head, to your head You're not alone No, forever on your side Yeah, not alone Forever, girl, I'm gonna ride Yeah, not alone Don't let it get to your head To your head, to your head Are you there? Anybody home? Are you scared? Don't go running off I don't care Don't let it all go to your head To your head, to your head There! Are, you, there? Are, you, there? Are, you, there? Like rain and lightning Keep on crying out Like rage colliding Keep on fighting on