Refresh Maintenance - Alanna Hull

I need to apologize to normal people in my life There are things they don't understand So I have to explain how my body works Uh Yeah Listen Maintenance is an every day work Every single second, it's an inner war Every simple task can be a dilemma My body wanna do it, but my mind says never Maintenance is an every day work Every single second, it's an inner war Every simple task can be a dilemma My body wanna do it, but my mind says never If I ain't answerin', sorry can't handle it Too much human interaction makes me have headaches Give me time to fix myself, let me fix this rivet My brain need some greasin', Will be back in a minute When you hate yourself, socializing's hard It's too stressful, my head's goin' bald This abyss' infinite, every day I'm fallin' They call you weak for seekin' help, so I don't feel like callin' Maintenance is an every day work Every single second, it's an inner war Every simple task can be a dilemma My body wanna do it, but my mind says never Maintenance is an every day work Every single second, it's an inner war Every simple task can be a dilemma My body wanna do it, but my mind says never Look into my eyes, they look so calm But inside is different, there's a storm goin' on I apologize, I don't mean to make it weird I just think explainin' it might make you feel it I don't think I'm shit, so excuse my narcissism That's my treatin' process, I don't really mean it I got no confidence, and that's what I need So I might play my self worth a bit extreme Wanna get out of bed, but I'm out of fuel But somethin' pulls me up, I should make some music That's the only ray of light I see comin' through I see the world different but not in a good way Today I went to rage, sometimes I can't take it Right now I'm indifferent, I'd just love some balance I don't wanna act like I'm special 'cause people hate it I'm not an asshole and I'm tryin' to make you understand it Maintenance is an every day work Every single second, it's an inner war Every simple task can be a dilemma My body wanna do it, but my mind says never