Journey back home find myself lost in my shoes And nobody tells you when you grow up you got more to lose Thoughts of all the missteps, memories engrained in my heart Can't believe I found the light, raised in the dark Supported by my elders Man I swore I'd never tell this But it can be bleaker on the other side Of white picket fences, missing love on the inside Inside, can you hear this? Can you feel this pain and confusion When your parents start to lose it Locked up in the closet of your worst nightmares Dreams of a happy family it was never there Even though we had the food up in our bellies High school kids sole connection on the cellies Broken homes Mommy and daddy called it quits And we feel so alone... God I hope it's the not the same when we get older This pain got me feeling like I can't even go home It's harder to cope if I'm sober Try to forgive my name I'm not the same Truthfully I don't really wanna put this out Guided by faith but I'm clouded by doubt Sometimes when the dark gets the best of ya You gotta pick ya head up and really know what you're about Pushing so hard through this life that I'm living The pain come before all the blessings I'm given It's true, It ain't about you All the time, kids missing their nutrition in the lunch line In the meantime we've been working on our punch lines More to life... generation perplexed, escape reality Slave to corporations and anxiety What you gonna say when your time come? What did you contribute, how hard did you try son? One more shot try to dull the pain And find out what we're missing dry out the rain like... God I hope it's the not the same when we get older This pain got me feeling like I can't even go home It's harder to cope if I'm sober Try to forgive my name I'm not the same Not the same You won't see me here again Keep progressing under pressure Pushing through the pleasure and the pain

I just wan' be left alone There's nothin' painful more than death alone Where all my dead ones go? Like, why'd y'all leave me here? I know they talkin' back to me but I can't seem to hear My mentality cloudy I can't seem to clear it Evil spirits can't avoid 'em I can't seem to shake 'em I been through shit that you couldn't stomach but won't let it break me Gave jurisdiction hope and niggas still ain't thank me It don't surprise me though this shit be comin' with high's and lows Got so many obituaries I can't cry no more The feds stipulation stiff I can't get high no more You see me starin' into space I'm tryna find me soul, nah Tryna find myself politely I declined yo' help There's nothing you can do to bring my niggas back And I just want my niggas back It ain't nothin' you could do to bring my niggas back And you can't do nothin' for a gangsta, you can't gimme dat They tellin' me I changed I'm knowin' I'm not the same If anything it's the pain I'm knowin' it's not the fame I'm knowin' it's not the money Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly They tellin' me I changed I'm knowin' I'm not the same If anything it's the pain I'm knowin' it's not the fame I'm knowin' it's not the money Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly I used to pray I live forever, shit, I'on care no more Ayy, am I weird for textin' gang though he ain't here no more? Mom's couldn't speak at your service 'fore she cleared her throat she broke down Ain't know what you meant to us they know now Throw rounds Used to pour out liquor now we pour out pints of slimnov Loyalty related to betrayal that shit a thin line Death before dishonor always been a quote I live by His son was there to watch them niggas barbecue his ribeye Gave my partner mama somethin' just to get by Even if she get high with it, shit, I don't blame her The suckas catch me loafin' I promise to die a gangsta Clip hold 20, it's 19, one in the chamber They tellin' me I changed I'm knowin' it ain't the fame Give a fuck about this money I just wanted y'all to love me But after all the sneaky snake shit, how could you trust me? Niggas forced my hand Shit, I was forced to get him slammed They tellin' me I changed I'm knowin' I'm not the same If anything it's the pain I'm knowin' it's not the fame I'm knowin' it's not the money Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly They tellin' me I changed I'm knowin' I'm not the same If anything it's the pain I'm knowin' it's not the fame I'm knowin' it's not the money Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly

Hey, Mr. Heartbreaker Do me a favor Stop making me cry 'Cause I feel I ain't strong no more I need you to stop right now 'Cause it feels like I'm sinking down With my pockets full of stones And a brick tied around my soul Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Hey, hey, Mr. Heartbreaker You know I used to be a fighter But ever since you came into my life I can't find what's wrong from right Oh, you took the hope out of me I can't find any joy in anything And all of the things that I used to enjoy I don't enjoy them no more Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Everybody's wondering Where she gone The girl that they used to know She don't live here no more She's gone She's gone She's gone Oo-oo, I'm not the same I'm not the same I'm not the same Hoo, hoo-hoo Hoo, hoo-hoo, woah, ooh Woah, oh-oh-oh-oh

I'm not gonna try and make it even You're way ahead by now I'm not gonna try and make it all even Even though I know how And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun I'm not gonna tell my new friends about you No, I'm gonna let that slide I'm gonna be lazy when I write about you Even though it takes all my might And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun I'm gonna get back to believing It's been a long, long time now I'm gonna get up and make it look easy Even though I don't know how I'm not gonna try and make it even I'm way behind by now No, I'm not gonna try and make it all even Even though I know how And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun And everyone thinks I dodged a bullet But I think I shot the gun

How my thoughts they spin me 'round And how my thoughts they let me down And how my thoughts they spin me 'round And how my thoughts they let me down And how my dreams they spin me 'round And how my dreams they let me down And how my thoughts they spin me 'round And how my thoughts they let me down And then there's you Then there's you And then there's you Then there's you And how my love it spins me 'round And how my love it's let me down And how my thoughts they spin me 'round And how my thoughts they let me down And then there's you Then there's you And then there's you Then there's you You know I know the tune well I've written it all myself, if you can't tell With a melody that climbs and then falls, then falls, then falls Without you, without you How my days they spin me 'round And how today it sets me down And how my days they spin me 'round And how today it sets me down Alongside you Alongside you Alongside you

In this proud land we grew up strong We were wanted all along I was taught to fight, taught to win I never thought I could fail No fight left or so it seems I am a man whose dreams have all deserted I've changed my face, I've changed my name But no one wants you when you lose Don't give up 'Cause you have friends Don't give up You're not beaten yet Don't give up I know you can make it good Though I saw it all around Never thought I could be affected Thought that we'd be the last to go It is so strange the way things turn Drove the night toward my home The place that I was born, on the lakeside As daylight broke, I saw the earth The trees had burned down to the ground Don't give up You still have us Don't give up We don't need much of anything Don't give up 'Cause somewhere there's a place Where we belong Rest your head You worry too much It's gonna be alright When times get rough You can fall back on us Don't give up Please don't give up I've gotta walk out of here I can't take anymore I'm gonna stand on that bridge Keep my eyes down below Oh, whatever may come And whatever may go That river's flowing Oh, that river's flowing Moved on to another town Tried hard to settle down For every job, so many men So many men no-one needs Don't give up You have friends And don't give up I'm proud of who you are Don't give up And I believe there's a place Where we belong