I'm not the same anymore - NANCI

You're not the same anymore Don't wanna play that game anymore You'd make a better window than a door All the strangers, they implore They get so easy to ignore Just like the girl next door Uncle's house, it was noon Sorry boy, I can't implore ya You are strange but I like you Sorry, this is overdue I promised I would do it right Her and a boy on a Saturday night And now the door slams shut The child prisoner grows up To seek his enemies' throat cut I'm on and on it, on and on and on it We're on the way, fuel the jet Can see that what he wants, he gets What does your sworn enemy regret? I didn't know, I didn't care I don't even understand Did somethin' wrong, I wasn't sure Stay on top of this horse I was afraid, I fucked up Yeah, yeah, yeah I couldn't change, it's too late And now it's time to show up I'm late again, I can't grow up And now it's on me, they've given up Uncle's house, I forget Violent tendencies I give Your timing sucks, she went overboard Don't forget, you are insured I didn't know, I wasn't sure Can't remember all that well I couldn't change, was too late Yeah, yeah, yeah

I'll keep the pictures saved in a safe place Wow, I look so weird here My face has changed now It's a big shame So many feelings, struggling to leave my mouth And it's not that rare for me to let myself down In a big way But I had enough time and I found enough reason to accept that It's not the same anymore I lost the joy in my face My life was simple before I should be happy, of course But things just got much harder Now it's just hard to ignore It's not the same anymore It's not the same anymore It's not the same, but, it's not a shame 'cause I spend a long time putting up with people Putting on my best face It's only normal when you stop things in the wrong way It's only four o'clock and still, it's been a long day I just wanna hit the hay People knocking on me like every day I'm tired of taking stress If only there could be another way I'm tired of feeling suppressed And when they want me the most I'm tired of acting like I care, but I do And I can't wait to hit the bed But tomorrow makes me scared 'Cause it's not the same anymore I lost the joy in my face My life was simple before I should be happy, of course (of course) But things just got much harder Now it's just hard to ignore It's not the same anymore (it's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) It's not the same anymore (it's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) I kept the feelings inside I open up when shit gets built up this high She makes it easy to cry The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise I miss the days when I was someone else I used to be so hungry Right now, my stomach's full of air And I've spent many months just hating on myself I can't keep wishing things will be different Or leaving problems on the shelf I wish I didn't need to get help But I do But I do I've been so hard on myself, yeah Even my family can tell And they barely saw what I felt I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else It's not the same (It's not the same) (It's not the same) It's not the same as before It's not the same anymore And it's fine because I've learned so much from before Now I'm not sure on advice There's no excuses at all No point in feeling upset Won't take my place on my floor I'll stand up straight like I'm tall It's up to me, no one else I'm doing this for myself It's not the same anymore It's better It got better It's not the same anymore It's better Yeah, yeah

Hey, Mr. Heartbreaker Do me a favor Stop making me cry 'Cause I feel I ain't strong no more I need you to stop right now 'Cause it feels like I'm sinking down With my pockets full of stones And a brick tied around my soul Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Hey, hey, Mr. Heartbreaker You know I used to be a fighter But ever since you came into my life I can't find what's wrong from right Oh, you took the hope out of me I can't find any joy in anything And all of the things that I used to enjoy I don't enjoy them no more Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Oo-oo, I'm not the same Everybody's wondering Where she gone The girl that they used to know She don't live here no more She's gone She's gone She's gone Oo-oo, I'm not the same I'm not the same I'm not the same Hoo, hoo-hoo Hoo, hoo-hoo, woah, ooh Woah, oh-oh-oh-oh

I'm not angry anymore Well, sometimes I am I don't think badly of you Well, sometimes I do It depends on the day The extent of all my worthless rage I'm not angry anymore I'm not bitter anymore I'm syrupy sweet I'll rot your teeth down to their core If I'm really happy It depends on the day If I wake up in a giddy haze Well I'm not angry I'm not totally angry I'm not all that angry anymore