I May Hate Myself In the Morning - Lee Ann Womack

I wish that I had somebody to call when I am not okay I wish that I had anyone who cared when I am in that place I wish I could have a mental breakdown Without turning my life into a ghost town So many things I would change But more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish there was a person that would miss me when I can't leave bed I wish I wasn't stuck sharing my secrets with these made up friends I wish I could be honest about the ugly Without every single person running from me These days it's hard to have faith And more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself The floods I feel This storm could kill I'm better off to keep it damned 'Cause the more I speak The more I see Just how alone I really am I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself

I smoke cigarettes Because I got a problem With my mental health I don't know how to help myself Don't know how to ask for help I don't know how to not break myself Don't wanna see so many sunrises Because of all the late nights I know where all the afterparties is When I'm tired as shit And I just wanna keep going And fuck with that blow And be a different person That I know I will like I'm a different person You see on the outside On the Instagram Tryna get a lot of likes Smoking in this room When I'm supposed to smoke outside I'm the one that you thought Was so good but I couldn't Make one good decision Even if I could Fucked up So drunk I got no one to love I hate myself And the way I am I hate myself And the way I am Go I hate myself I'm trapped inside a system Lock my heart and hide the key And know there ain't nobody miss 'em Got some cringe I call my life And see as memories Dodging all my peers Because I know they're so ahead of me Lace my blunts with Ketamine Chase my pills with Hennessey Dive into the ocean from the bridge It's feeling heavenly Died when I was seventeen Got stood up by Emily Hate myself much more Than you could ever know Or ever be Jumped to methamphetamines Can't change a world I'll never see Weight up on my heart And man I'm only stuck on Level three Still make the same bad decisions And in my position I know I should change in my heart But don't know where to start I hate myself Because I make a lot of bad decisions Then I suffer the consequences And just live with them I don't fight I don't try I don't hide I just lie In my mind Like it never ever ever happened It never ever ever happened Coming up and being happy It never ever ever happened I hate myself And the way I am I hate myself And the way I am

In the clear morning dew As I lay down to muse A fair maiden of honor Appeared in my view Says, I pretty maid Let me not see your frown But as these words were spoken Her tears trickled down While the moon does shine clear I will mourn my sweet dear Over mountains, clear fountains Where no one would hear While the moon does shine clear And the river does flow The fair maid of the morning Has many a foe In the clear morning dew As I lay down to muse A fair maiden of honor Appeared in my view Says, I pretty maid Let me not see your frown But as these words were spoken Her tears trickled down While the moon does shine clear I will mourn my sweet dear Over mountains, clear fountains Where no one would hear While the moon does shine clear And the river does flow The fair maid of the morning Has many a foe Has many a foe

Chances are I took the wrong turn Every time I had a turn to take And I guess I broke my own heart Every chance I had a heart to break And it seems I spent my whole life Wishin' on the same unlucky star And as I watched you 'cross the bar room I wonder what my chances are Well, I know you've been around And you've seen what you needed to see And at night when you're dreamin' You're probably not dreamin' 'bout me Oh, it's safe to say I've stumbled But I've managed to make it through this fall As I take one step and then another I wonder what my chances are I have watched the world go by, hand in hand And wondered why I'm still so alone Could I lay down my foolish pride And maybe finally find my heart a home The band has started playing A simple songs I used to know And I take your hand and walk you out Danced through the rhythm way down low Every heart has got a story Mine just has few more scars But they could heal if you will hold me And tell me what my chances are Well, it could heal if you will hold me And tell me what my chances are

I ain't a-lookin' for a smart guy school guy Some proud in-crowd decked-out necktie I need a man who can tame a wild mustang Knows the difference 'tween love and a lust thang Somebody who looks a whole lot like you Buckaroo Ain't interested in a yes 'mam yes man I'll pass on the politically correct man I'm set on fencin' in a desperado Takes my breath away like Colorado Who ain't afraid to walk a mile in my boots Buckaroo Heaven knows what I might do If I had me a cowboy like you Buckaroo Don't have to wow me like a long beard Shakespeare Just talk plain talk right here in my ear If you aspire to sophistication I'll tell you now you're in the wrong location Get out of here before this country girl gets to you But, if you like sunset on the painted desert The Lone Ranger and spaghetti westerns I'll tell you right now I'm the one for you Buckaroo

When I look back, boy, I must have been green Bopping in the country, fishing in a stream Looking for an answer, trying to find a sign Until I saw your city lights, honey, I was blind They said, get back, honky cat Better get back to the woods Well, I quit those days and my redneck ways And, oh, the change is gonna do me good You better get back, honky cat Living in the city ain't where it's at It's like trying to find gold in a silver mine It's like trying to drink whiskey from a bottle of wine Well, I read some books, and I read some magazines About those high-class ladies down in New Orleans And all the folks back home, well, said I was a fool They said, oh, believe in the Lord is the golden rule They said, get back, honky cat Better get back to the woods Well, I quit those days and my redneck ways And, ooh ooh ooh change is gonna do me good They said, get back, honky cat Better get back to the woods Well, I quit those days and my redneck ways And, ooh ooh ooh change is gonna do me good They said, stay at home, boy, you gotta tend the farm Living in the city, boy, is going to break your heart But how can you stay when your heart says no? How can you stop when your feet say go? You better get back, honky cat Better get back to the woods Well, I quit those days and my redneck ways And, ooh ooh ooh change is gonna do me good You better get back, honky cat Living in the city ain't where it's at It's like trying to find gold in a silver mine It's like trying to drink whiskey Oh, from a bottle of wine Get back, honky cat Get back, honky cat Get back, whoo You better Get back, honky cat Get back, honky cat Get back, whoo

Morning cup of coffee Not a single word And if you do, say something It's only about war Every time I ask you You just say we're good Either I'm a fool for asking Or you belong in Hollywood Five o'clock martinis Watch the sun go down (Sun go down) Eyes in crystal glasses That's the only sense I say you, let's get away You just smile and say we should Well either I'm a fool for asking Or you belong in Hollywood Like a silver screen It's a technical dream We pretend it's real But it's only make-believe Lying in our bed In the middle of back to We say, goodnight, I love you We never miss our cue I ask you, if you mean it (You mean it) You say, yes, I knew you Well either I'm a fool for asking Or you belong in Hollywood Either I'm a fool for asking Or you belong in Hollywood