I Feel So Alone - Beowulf & Ayleen Valentine

I got tired of waiting Tried to make the small things matter But everybody leaves When they say they're there for me There's no one really there It's always been just me Stuck inside these corners Writing melodies And I think I'm ready for my next life Is there somewhere better I can spend my time Not in a sad way, I'll be fine It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes I got tired of losing He says I feel too much emotion If I chose to sleep forever Would you even notice? I'm not a perfect person And I never claimed to be But don't you see I'm trying? I've always been so weak And I think I'm ready for my next life Is there somewhere better I can spend my time Not in a sad way, I'll be fine It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes How was I supposed to know? No one ever stays too long Not even the grownups They get sick and go I know it's all my fault I should've picked up when you called Instead I shrugged you off Car rides full of small talk

I just wanted love and i lost Every boy i've loved said to take it off But with you i never feel sorry Cause you never wanted to haunt me But if we stay like this Will you go break my wrists While i'm anesthetized right there in your arms And if we said goodbye Just know i tried and tried and tried and tried But i just never really seem to understand Whatcha wanna know cause i hate it when you go so i'd Bare my whole soul for you Hours on the phone cause you feel more like a home than home Like folding clothes, like open doors When it gets too dark, you're scared monsters are out You're the only boy i care about So baby please don't be mad at me If i love too hard and get real clingy Tell me if i make a mess Tell me if i am too much for your head Is there someone else you fuck in your bed Is there someone else you wanted instead Baby don't lie to me, baby don't lie to me But if we stay like this will you go break my wrists While i'm anesthetized right there in your arms And if we said goodbye Just know i tried and tried and tried and tried But i just never really seem to understand

Is there a heaven? I'd like to believe That I'm just a passenger in the backseat Is there a heaven? Some place we find peace? I hope that you're there saving my seat Ghost in my head I feel when you tread softly You went ahead Now you know the end When I close my eyes And picture my death I don't see stars, I just see the end I know that it's wrong I want more for you When you talk to God, do you like the view? Ghost in my head I feel when you tread softly You went ahead Now you know the end

Time goes slow With you with you Even then It's not enough Even when i had you near You knew it was the end I can't stay, you know I'm sure we could've probably made it work But you should find somebody who won't assume the worst Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Every time you're lonely Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Everytime you're lonely Too far gone Wish i could my way I write these songs Cause baby i've been hurt and you know why Even when i had you near You knew it was the end I can't stay, you know Im sure we could've probably made it work But you should find somebody who won't assume the worst Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Every time you're lonely Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Everytime you're lonely

I don't wanna say goodbye I can stay a few more nights All those times you made me cry Am I weak if I don't mind? You're a pattern I repeat Love the one who's hurting me Am I weak if I don't mind? Picked it up when I was five I'll stay again Make sure I have nothing left I'll drain myself Trying to be the way that you see me I didn't know that love isn't hard The words that you say aren't meant to leave scars I'll love you forever but that's not by choice I can't help but love all the people that hurt me so I don't wanna say goodbye I can stay a few more nights All those times you made me cry Am I weak if I don't mind? You're a pattern I repeat Love the one who's hurting me Am I weak if I don't mind? Picked it up when I was five I don't wanna say goodbye I can stay a few more nights All those times you made me cry Am I weak if I don't mind? You're a pattern I repeat Love the one who's hurting me Am I weak if I don't mind? Picked it up when I was five