When will I let go? My pain is numbing in the worst way. Blinded by the light. I let my fear guide me away from you. Away from here. Hopeless and afraid. I've reached the bottom. I've failed you. I grow weaker by the day. So fragile. I've failed you. I grow weaker by the day. So fragile. Is this bliss or misery? I begin to claw my way out. It's not hard to see. I've failed myself.

Is there a heaven? I'd like to believe That I'm just a passenger in the backseat Is there a heaven? Some place we find peace? I hope that you're there saving my seat Ghost in my head I feel when you tread softly You went ahead Now you know the end When I close my eyes And picture my death I don't see stars, I just see the end I know that it's wrong I want more for you When you talk to God, do you like the view? Ghost in my head I feel when you tread softly You went ahead Now you know the end

I got tired of waiting Tried to make the small things matter But everybody leaves When they say they're there for me There's no one really there It's always been just me Stuck inside these corners Writing melodies And I think I'm ready for my next life Is there somewhere better I can spend my time Not in a sad way, I'll be fine It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes I got tired of losing He says I feel too much emotion If I chose to sleep forever Would you even notice? I'm not a perfect person And I never claimed to be But don't you see I'm trying? I've always been so weak And I think I'm ready for my next life Is there somewhere better I can spend my time Not in a sad way, I'll be fine It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes How was I supposed to know? No one ever stays too long Not even the grownups They get sick and go I know it's all my fault I should've picked up when you called Instead I shrugged you off Car rides full of small talk

I don't know you well Somehow you hurt me still I think it's all my fault Crashed and hit the wall Blood rushing down my skull You're the one I used to call And now I'm on the run Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Baby, fight or flight is in action Hard to control my reactions I know that you hate how I'm acting now I'm so selfish But I can't help it If these are the cards god gave me To keep me from losing my patience So I run, run, run, run, run I know it's dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb Don't need you to wait for me Don't need you to hold me closer Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? You're the scar I don't wanna heal 'Cause at least that shit felt real And when tears come down my face It's proof you were worth the chase And the last times always the worse It only feels good 'cause it hurts And how could we not know That we'd both lose control Fight or flight is in action I'm trying to control your reaction How the hell did we let this shit happen now You're the poison in my wine Yet I'll drink you every time But at least tell me why Why do I do that? Why do I? (Why do I?) For you, you know that I'm helpless First time that we really felt this Baby answer the question Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I do that?

Baby, I've been feeling worthless You don't give your time of day Tell me what I did to deserve this You fuck me over 'cause you think I'll think it's okay I'll keep running back, prepare for the attack You get me underwater, my vision's turning black I don't wanna argue, but you make it so hard All I wanna do All I wanna do is know your love But when I wake up in the morning, I can hear you screaming out All I wanna do is get you moaning But when I cry, it's on your skin It's so wrong to love like this Baby, why are you so fucking cold? Maybe you just hurt me 'cause you know I'll keep coming back, 'cause I need more I'll keep running I know you don't care and you'll probably be fine I'm in the corner in the back of your mind I know you'll never love me like I love you But I can pretend you do Hold me down Paint me as a villain so you can be mad Be like that You know I don't deserve it You do this shit on purpose All I wanna do is know your love But when I wake up in the morning, I can hear you screaming out All I wanna do is get you moaning But when I cry, it's on your skin It's so wrong to love like this Baby, why are you so fucking cold? Maybe you just hurt me 'cause you know I'll keep coming back, 'cause I need more I'll keep running

Time goes slow With you with you Even then It's not enough Even when i had you near You knew it was the end I can't stay, you know I'm sure we could've probably made it work But you should find somebody who won't assume the worst Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Every time you're lonely Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Everytime you're lonely Too far gone Wish i could my way I write these songs Cause baby i've been hurt and you know why Even when i had you near You knew it was the end I can't stay, you know Im sure we could've probably made it work But you should find somebody who won't assume the worst Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Every time you're lonely Baby stop it Don't you try to call me Just forget my number Everytime you're lonely

I don't wanna say goodbye I can stay a few more nights All those times you made me cry Am I weak if I don't mind? You're a pattern I repeat Love the one who's hurting me Am I weak if I don't mind? Picked it up when I was five I'll stay again Make sure I have nothing left I'll drain myself Trying to be the way that you see me I didn't know that love isn't hard The words that you say aren't meant to leave scars I'll love you forever but that's not by choice I can't help but love all the people that hurt me so I don't wanna say goodbye I can stay a few more nights All those times you made me cry Am I weak if I don't mind? You're a pattern I repeat Love the one who's hurting me Am I weak if I don't mind? Picked it up when I was five I don't wanna say goodbye I can stay a few more nights All those times you made me cry Am I weak if I don't mind? You're a pattern I repeat Love the one who's hurting me Am I weak if I don't mind? Picked it up when I was five