We Are Grown Ups - Lauren Ruth Ward

Didn't think you'd take my story and throw it in my face That's a real nice way to throw me away Don't you even worry, I didn't really need a friend I was just pretending to be lonely The jokes on you How do you feel? I feel cool Now those butterflies all seem bubblegum, The only thing you knew to make my feet go numb This ain't a love song No, you don't deserve one How did you feel with your hands up in the clouds? What did you have when you brought them down? Hopefully something accountable I swallowed your knife You won't be feeding the fear in my new life My instincts are so much better than yours My windows are open and you've closed all your doors How time flew I can't recall when I thought you were cool Now with those butterflies all seem bubblegum, The only thing you knew to make my feet go numb This ain't a love song No, you don't deserve one How did you feel with your hands up in the clouds? What did you have when you brought them down? Hopefully something worthwhile

Looked down the hallway to the mirror Noticed all those stretch marks From when I was 15 And I smoked too much weed Those marks remind me Of scars behind me Now that I'm wiser I know it was just an opportunity To grow and be on my own But not alone Those marks are mine And they don't pay no fines Ahhh I should've known better I asked for sugar when I should've been making bread I was afraid of my demons but now we're hanging Don't want to be with you, man I want to be in the band No here's a lighter, toke an antidote for your ego stroke We are not prisoners just friends in the rope Braid those frays Keep it all contained I am a wise gal Shoulda told you, woulda told you if you Would've listened to me Speaking about all my dreaming Aw that's okay, I only know My half of the half of the half of the half I asked for sugar when I should've been making bread I was afraid of my demons but now we chillin' Don't want to be with you man I want to be in the band I asked for sugar I should've taken it Just like you took it Ahhh I should've known better I asked for sugar when I should've been making bread I was afraid of my demons but now we're shaking hands Don't want to be with you man I want to be in the band I asked for honey when I should've been making my money I wasted time betting, shacking with beaus in their buggies Give me another hand I want to be in the band Whatcha gonna do with those bees in your bonnet? Oh sweet Jesus, I think they're hornets Maybe you'll get lucky and they'll still make honey Give it to your monkey It'll be so nice

There's a heart in the states That beats for your embrace Just to be in the grace Of your negative space. I tell it not to be So damn naive But when my brain agrees Oh you better believe. It's not lust. It's need. When I try to swallow the feeling devours me. It's not lust. It's need. There's no heart in my place. I have no breathing space. Took the flower from the vase, Left the vase in case. I will catch my breath along with your caress. I'll wear that yellow dress till there's nothing left. I-I-I Idon't care if I'm alone. Your shadow don't haunt me no more. You were the calm before my storm. Ooo-you. You will be forever more. Forever more Oooo

I'll fix it up in practice Bring it to you in a package Leave multi-faceted Takes courage to be passive Still, you shattered my magic Tossed the keys to the casket And I captured the flag And recited the alphabet backwards! Placed my head on your lap and Tell me I'm attractive A look that is classic Or a case in a basket Matter of fact, got shafted It took me years to move past it Now I'm more elastic And I leave the crowd laughin' Real life for the most part Real life for the most part Real life for the most part Real life for the most part While you pet me in your daydream I am only sayin' what you make me say Be your best friend in a heartbeat But reality is keeping us awake Don't blame me, I'm a bastard Baby-Boomer plastic You know I've never asked for this To be born so tragic Before you think I'm believin' a message in the comment's section Just recall that we are all celebrated actresses (Tequila, tequila) Real life for the most part Real life for the most part Real life for the most part Real life for the most part Eeeeyup!