Up To You (feat. Chelsea Cutler) - graves

Everybody knows that it don't feel right I was waiting up in your darkest nights Why's it always hurt when you need it most? Never wanted love, I just fake my part Never got enough when I wanted your heart Why do I just sink when I'm trying to float? But you know I'm done pretending I'm wrong when it's not my fault And baby, I'm done pretending it's love, when it's not your all Tell the next girl all the things that you told me All you let slip, 'cause you were hurt and you were lonely I've found that giving up ground ain't what I want Both our names carved in my bedroom door Nightmares of you and I we can't ignore How was I sold on the idea of us in the first place? For sale signs on whatever once was ours Hate saying you're the reason I have these scars But you left me thinking that I was out of line To need space But you know I'm done pretending I'm wrong when it's not my fault And baby, I'm done pretending it's love, when it's not your all Tell the next guy all the things that you told me All you let slip, 'cause you were hurt and you were lonely And I've found that giving up ground ain't what I want

I got ideas of you and me on my mind And we got two nights down on the Lower East Side (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) We got Don Julio, some Diet Coke A couple joints that we could smoke 'Cause you and me, we got nothin', baby, but time (All of the time, yeah, all of the-) I've been drinkin', wasn't thinkin' Turn the week into a seven-day weekend Say the word and you know that I got you If you want it, you can have it Break my body like a habit Anything, anything that you want That I got, that's for you If you want it, you can get it Don't believe me, baby, test it Anything, anything that you want That I got, that's for you If you want it, we could Pack a bag and take this whole thing overseas (Where you wanna go, baby?) Close your eyes and you and I could play make-believe, yeah (mm-mm) Got this Cali King on Bowery Some Hennessy to rinse your teeth, yeah Crazy how you make a bad thing heavenly (ooh, yeah) I've been drinkin', wasn't thinkin' Turn the week into a seven-day weekend Say the word and you know that I got you If you want it, you can have it Break my body like a habit Anything, anything that you want That I got, that's for you If you want it, you can get it Don't believe me, baby, test it Anything, anything that you want That I got, that's for you If you want it, we could Wave goodbye to hesitation I don't want you to be patient Anything I got, go take it Oh, yeah-yeah-yeah You don't need no self-control, no Let's just live here in the moment Anything you want, you know that If you want it, you can have it Break my body like a habit Anything, anything that you want Anything, anything that you need Anything, anything Ooh-ooh If you want it, you can have it (yeah) Break my body like a habit (yeah) Anything, anything that you want (you want) That I got (I got), that's for you (that's for you) If you want it, you can get it (ooh-ooh) Don't believe me, baby, test it (come on, baby) Anything, anything that you want (ooh) That I got, that's for you (ooh, that's for you, yeah)

You don't, you don't care like you used to You don't want me there like you used to I keep wasting every night Waiting for you to say goodbye But if you won't, you won't, I'll make the first move I choose crying, over you I choose silence, over being lied to I choose drinking alone Drowning in my tears, in my bedroom 'Cause it'll make me happier than you do I choose crying over you You know, you know just how to get me How to take my love and use it against me I keep wasting all my time Trying to make the wrong things right I hope you like your bed when it's empty 'Cause I choose crying, over you I choose silence, over being lied to I choose drinking alone Drowning in my tears in my bedroom 'Cause it'll make me happier than you do I choose crying over you Yeah, I choose crying over you Yeah, yeah The truth is, I'll only get over you if I choose crying, over you I choose silence, over being lied to I choose drinking alone Drowning in my tears in my bedroom 'Cause it'll make me happier than you do I choose crying over you

When it's late and I miss you And I'm sleepless and stand still And I wonder if you are in love Or if you are still thinking about me 'Cause it's late and I miss when You were here in my bed still With your mouth on my neck And your hands on my waist And my hands on your body So tell me it's not, tell it's not, oh, tell me it's over So tell me it's not, oh, tell me it's not and you're coming over Tell me it's not, tell me it's not, oh, tell me it's over And you're coming over (yeah) I'm thinking too much and I miss you, I miss you, I miss you I miss you in the morning I tried to replace it, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you I miss being important My body is wasted on these conversations I hated You make me wanna forget And I've been too honest 'Cause honestly all that I want is to feel important So tell me it's not, tell it's not, oh, tell me it's over So tell me it's not, oh, tell me it's not and you're coming over Tell me it's not, tell me it's not, oh, tell me it's over And you're coming over (yeah) Too much, she on too much Obsessed with being obsessed, not being in love Being backlit by fireworks and drugs Being passionate about everything but us And now I'm hands-up in the hallway Elevator fights spilling into streets all day Second half with the bad habit, you, yeah Second chance but I'm still bad at truth, yeah Tit-for-tat but we always end up back here Hungover in a deli, going halves for the cashier Can't tell if I'm over you, man, I might call I miss you in the morning and even more when night falls So tell me it's not, tell it's not, oh, tell me it's over So tell me it's not, oh, tell me it's not and you're coming over Tell me it's not, tell me it's not, oh, tell me it's over And you're coming over Hey, um, I called twice I don't know if your phone's dead or it's going to voicemail But I'm, uh, I'm standing on the end of the block right now I just wanna talk for a second

Focus on you in the light, it helps me fill my emotions Why are we at such a distance? Find ourselves so out of frame This love stay calm in the night, Yeah, help me heal and re-open Why are we drifting away from everything we wanted to save? I told you I'd be down forever Loving you is danger, but it don't feel wrong It's old news, I should look for better Falling back to strangers, leave me hanging on Flare guns go off in my head, saying not to call you this late Still I dial those numbers every time Why do I replay those messages that you left at the tone last May? Slowly wishing you were never mine Your face became all I know, I'd try to picture another Why are we frayed at the edge, it's making me feel all to blame I wanna know what's the deal Where have you been and what do you think of me? Is it a new girl silently screaming your name? I told you I'd be down forever Loving you is danger, but it don't feel wrong It's old news, I should look for better Falling back to strangers, leave me hanging on You leave me hanging on Flare guns go off in my head, saying not to call you this late Still I dial those numbers every time Why do I replay those messages that you left at the tone last May? Slowly wishing you were never mine I told you I'd be down forever Loving you is danger, but it don't feel wrong It's old news, I should look for better Falling back to strangers, leave me hanging on See, I don't know better than to give up on loving Why am I still holding on? I'm still holding on And I'm way too honest and you make me want it Lying alone al night long, alone all night along Flare guns go off in my head, saying not to call you this late Still I dial those numbers every time Why do I replay those messages that you left at the tone last May? Slowly wishing you were never mine Flare guns go off in my head, saying not to call you this late Still I dial those numbers every time (Still I dial those numbers every time) Why do I replay those messages that you left at the tone last May? Slowly wishing you were never mine (Slowly wishing you were never mine)

This is only the beginning Four shots deep, I'm out alone again 'Cause I don't really know who to call friend, yeah Shoulda stayed home but I'd rather pretend That I'm not gonna lose it I know what I'm doing, yeah I call you but you never pick up Maybe I'm just asking too much, yeah Thought I'd knew it all by 21 But I still don't know How to be human Still don't know How to be human I don't know What I am doing? Please tell me How to be human 4 a.m. and I can't sleep again I don't know God but I know that I've sinned I wanna love but I have thicker skin Now that somebody has hurt me Heart was broken early, yeah I call you but you never pick up Maybe I'm just asking too much, yeah Thought I'd knew it all by 21 But I still don't know How to be human Still don't know How to be human I don't know What I am doing? Please tell me How to be human (Bending all my bones for you) (I don't know what's left of me) (What am I supposed to do?) I call you but you never pick up Maybe I'm just asking too much, yeah Thought I'd knew it all by 21

You're still in the shower Don't know where you're gonna go I wish I had the power To make this house feel more like home I won't sleep a minute Leave the light on by the bed The bed you should be in, yeah It's not how it's supposed to end Please don't leave me here I don't know where I started Please don't leave me here I don't know where my heart is I see you when I see you It hurts, you'll never know 'Cause maybe you'll come running When you're done being alone I swear I'll wait forever If it means not letting go I'll put you under pressure Were you scared of getting close? Please don't leave me here I don't know where I started Please don't leave me here I don't know where my heart is All these bridges that we're burning Tables that we're turning I won't let this go to a middle ground Promises you're breaking Parts of me you're taking I don't know myself when you're not around Please don't leave me here I don't know where I started Please don't leave me here I don't know where my heart is

I'm a mess, i've been a mess for months I know it's real I've been doing anything i can to numb how it feels And i know that putting all this liquor in my body Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me Still i wait for you And i know It's late and i wanna go home But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you I hate taking off my own clothes Getting in my own bed Spinning thoughts about you It's late and i'm waiting behind For the drugs to kick in And erase my body I hate how it's all in my head Smoking your cigarettes Thinking you could still want me I'm a mess, i've been a mess for months I know it's true I look for validation from anybody that's not you, yeah And i know that putting all this liquor in my body Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me Still i wait for you And i know It's late and i wanna go home But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you I hate taking off my own clothes Getting in my own bed Spinning thoughts about you It's late and i'm waiting behind For the drugs to kick in And erase my body I hate how it's all in my head Smoking your cigarettes Thinking you could still want me It's late and I'm waiting behind For the drugs to kick in And erase my body I hate how it's all in my head And i know i'm a mess Thinking you could still want me

I wish you'd leave that place Did you forget how good it feels to stay Unpack the bags i made You'll forget about your days away Count down, come down, come lay beside me You can, Calm down sit down you know i'm yours You're not alone You're just too far for me to hold Nothing can hold you down You think it's made you better All that you see is blue and green Would you rather be blind or free You think you've found your comfort but we just need more color I wish you'd change your mind the more you go the less I feel the time You look so small tonight How'd you get away so many miles Count down, come down, come lay beside me You can, Calm down sit down you know i'm yours You're not alone You're just too far for me to hold Nothing can hold you down You think it's made you better All that you see is blue and green Would you rather be blind or free You think you've found your comfort but we just need more color

You know you're breaking my stride It's the easiest time and you've got me We go one day at a time if I don't act now But I'm losing my mind and you've got me I don't know why but I think I like all you've put down Something in the way that you say it's alright to want you now And I want you now There is some kind of light in those eyes And you've got me Is this all I can say every time I get close And I feel your fade, but you've got me All that I know is I want you to stay Stay around Something in the way that you say it's alright To want you now And I want you now, now Yeah, I want you now And I want you now And I want you now All that I know is I want you to stay Stay around Something in the way you say it's alright To want you now And I want you now

I tripped and fell into A rhythm with you I jumped off the deep end But still played it cool Tried to pretend we're not different And I hate that I have to admit it But im done with wishing I know it's only a matter of time until the shine wears off Cause I'm all out of words Feel alone every time we touch The more that I hold you The more I don't know your touch I know it's only a matter of time till the shine wears off I know that we're living Inside of a dream Cause we're trying too hard To make this a thing Why does it feel like we're working You act like a whole different person I'm tired of searching I know it's only a matter of time till the shine wears off Cause I'm all out of words Feel alone every time we touch The more that I hold you The more I don't know your touch I know it's only a matter of time till the shine wears off I'll be fine Knowing it's over Clearer eyes Come with getting older We fantasize But we had our day Now your disguise is fading Your disguise is fading away I know it's only a matter of time until the shine wears off Cause I'm all out of words Feel alone every time we touch The more that I hold you The more I don't know your touch I know it's only a matter of time until the shine wears off Till the shine wears off Feel alone anytime we touch The more that I hold you The more I don't know your touch I know it's only a matter of time till the shine wears off