Track 3 (feat. Bria Barfield) - JIL

It don't matter what you do, baby Keep on crawling back to you, darlin' All the shit you put me through Still addicted I'm a fool, yeah Just get the fuck out my head Listen baby you know that you got a motherfuckin' hold of me Yeah, like nobody that I seen I mean woah mami got control of me I'm a fiend for your toxins Which have grown on me and it seems that I want them Got my whole body in routine it's a nightmare Flashin' back on 'em in my dreams and I'm right there It so happens that extremes what attracts us Dirty actress to my scene Leavin' scratches like I'm scrappin' with Wolverine Nothin' in between it's up high or so low But we still believe and just why? I don't know You drive me loco but low goes the mode I live my life in I know those suppose that normal folks think I'm out of my head Out of my mind derailed on my meds I'm out of my element never been one to beg But this shit got me irrational So I went and got a whiteboard Split down with the positive and negatives And the negative got more than the postive ever did Pain they put me through got me stuck on these fuckin' sedatives And ain't no medicine could ever settle this And there ain't no halo on the head of this Both of us got a devilish side of us Rising up and been a problem from the Genesis Bite so venomous a menace on my premises And still I kinda want you Fuck! Don't matter what you do, baby Keep on crawling back to you, darlin' All the shit you put me through Still addicted I'm a fool, yeah Just get the fuck out my head And then you told me I should meet you downstairs 'Cause you've been out all night I guess you're drinkin' again And then you say some shit to trigger me Bringin' up our history, misery And we're running in circles again Listen baby you don't even really know what you could do to me It ain't new to me but despite How you brutally fuckin' ruin me I just might Really truthfully got a screw or three that ain't tight 'Cause I'm usually so presumably in the right But what you see, it's excusing me of my sight They be loosely, you're the fuel for me to ignite So abusive, but when you bruising me it excites This illusion Keep on luring me to the light No immunity when you wounding me I dont like that Rude to me under scrutiny so I fight back Yellin' "Fuck that!" then we fuck and I'm right back In this riptide tryna swim through the white caps Need a night cap son get me to sleep Crushin' powder on the counter roll a bill up repeat Yet still I come back when she yankin' my leash I wonder what that say about me? The results the same Got me out here stuck in the rain It's utterly insane how we made it fuckin' sustain for this long Shit it must just be the love of the game I don't wanna point no fingers both of us are to blame Keep relatin' every time we try to snuff out the flame And no matter what I do I got you stuck in my brain You say you hate me But I know you love me the same Shit I guess I'm just a sucker for pain Don't matter what you do, baby Keep on crawling back to you, darlin' All the shit you put me through Still addicted I'm a fool oh-oh no So get the fuck out my head And then you told me I should meet you downstairs 'Cause you've been out all night I guess you're drinkin' again And then you do some shit to trigger me Bringin' up our history misery And we're running in circles again And we're running in circles again, again

I was lost, in a cloud of doubt In a sea of questions Kept swimming but it got me nowhere I was stuffed by the endless drought By unlearned lessons Found a truth, in pursuit of you In my sea of questions Kept swimming but it got me nowhere I was wrong about who I was About what I've done And where I come from Still sleeping on couches Crashed at a couple of houses Borrowed every part of my outfit, but that ain't about shit My life is a book full of changes Right now we just flipping through pages Living in ages back in time A travelling mind is trying to grasp the past that was left behind While exploring the signs that I have at hand What does it mean for a black man to be an active activist? Or an artist activated by hardships? And all this backwards involvement The struggle for a true sense of being Where nothing has any meaning and meaning is everything The severing of old friends and old ties The opening of blue skies and sunshine The truth lies in what changes at nighttime It's half time, I'm only half past mine I was lost, in a lucid lie In a low life high In a burning dream, couldn't see

I look around, what I see doesn't phase me Can't help but laugh Count every pound that I keep, it outweighs me Can't help but laugh, can't help but laugh I feel I'm drowned by my fear of behaving Can't help but laugh Just trying not to sink too deep Sometimes some thoughts can be endless So just try not to think Just trying not to sink too deep Sometimes some thoughts can be endless So just try not to think

Feel the feeling so clear Found a smile in your tears You can say that you care Can you say that you care? You're trying to find your words But someone has said them for you Believing the things you heard Your feelings have gone Cold Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls We're awake inside our screens Sent to sleep in a cyber dream Are we really here? Looking into your pixel eyes I can see where your conscience lies Did you disappear? Hide behind the profile Found a lie in your smile You can say you know me Can you say you know me? You're trying to find your words But someone has said them for you Believing the things you heard Your feelings have gone Cold Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls

She don't want me to see her cry She's trying Holding everything inside She's dying, dying Didn't think that you were here Didn't think that you could hear me She don't wanna let me near Cause like the rest of them, I'll fear her She don't wanna look inside She's trying Pushing everything aside She's dying Didn't want to be alone But didn't want to let my love in On an island, on her own Going nowhere feeling nothing A blood red moon, a deeper blue They make their way to you From where they bleed, they bleed Seeking further Seeking for their truth Peeking through the valleys in your mind To catch a glimpse of you (The light and energy that live within can never die, and forever shine on) Our sun burns fire Set fire to set you free She says she wants to fly But what does it really mean? Flying through the skies Lying through disguises She said she wants to fly But doesn't know what it means I️ know you know you're lying to yourself You know you're lying to yourself You ain't relying on yourself Ain't even trying for yourself You're a Virgin Atlantic You're a Virgin Atlantic You're a one way flight A burning bird, come crashing into paradise She don't want me to see her cry She's trying Holding everything inside She's dying Didn't want to be alone Didn't want to let my love in On an island on her own Going nowhere, feeling nothing