My Name - JIL

I was lost, in a cloud of doubt In a sea of questions Kept swimming but it got me nowhere I was stuffed by the endless drought By unlearned lessons Found a truth, in pursuit of you In my sea of questions Kept swimming but it got me nowhere I was wrong about who I was About what I've done And where I come from Still sleeping on couches Crashed at a couple of houses Borrowed every part of my outfit, but that ain't about shit My life is a book full of changes Right now we just flipping through pages Living in ages back in time A travelling mind is trying to grasp the past that was left behind While exploring the signs that I have at hand What does it mean for a black man to be an active activist? Or an artist activated by hardships? And all this backwards involvement The struggle for a true sense of being Where nothing has any meaning and meaning is everything The severing of old friends and old ties The opening of blue skies and sunshine The truth lies in what changes at nighttime It's half time, I'm only half past mine I was lost, in a lucid lie In a low life high In a burning dream, couldn't see

I look around, what I see doesn't phase me Can't help but laugh Count every pound that I keep, it outweighs me Can't help but laugh, can't help but laugh I feel I'm drowned by my fear of behaving Can't help but laugh Just trying not to sink too deep Sometimes some thoughts can be endless So just try not to think Just trying not to sink too deep Sometimes some thoughts can be endless So just try not to think

Feel the feeling so clear Found a smile in your tears You can say that you care Can you say that you care? You're trying to find your words But someone has said them for you Believing the things you heard Your feelings have gone Cold Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls We're awake inside our screens Sent to sleep in a cyber dream Are we really here? Looking into your pixel eyes I can see where your conscience lies Did you disappear? Hide behind the profile Found a lie in your smile You can say you know me Can you say you know me? You're trying to find your words But someone has said them for you Believing the things you heard Your feelings have gone Cold Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls Generation we grew old Too fast, or so we're told An entire nation sold On a trip to lose their souls

She don't want me to see her cry She's trying Holding everything inside She's dying, dying Didn't think that you were here Didn't think that you could hear me She don't wanna let me near Cause like the rest of them, I'll fear her She don't wanna look inside She's trying Pushing everything aside She's dying Didn't want to be alone But didn't want to let my love in On an island, on her own Going nowhere feeling nothing A blood red moon, a deeper blue They make their way to you From where they bleed, they bleed Seeking further Seeking for their truth Peeking through the valleys in your mind To catch a glimpse of you (The light and energy that live within can never die, and forever shine on) Our sun burns fire Set fire to set you free She says she wants to fly But what does it really mean? Flying through the skies Lying through disguises She said she wants to fly But doesn't know what it means I️ know you know you're lying to yourself You know you're lying to yourself You ain't relying on yourself Ain't even trying for yourself You're a Virgin Atlantic You're a Virgin Atlantic You're a one way flight A burning bird, come crashing into paradise She don't want me to see her cry She's trying Holding everything inside She's dying Didn't want to be alone Didn't want to let my love in On an island on her own Going nowhere, feeling nothing