Breaking through the normalcy The panic makes its entrance New glass upon the floor, it only mingles with the old How can I feel so fucking guarded And be totally defenseless Parts of me are burning Parts of me are cold A part of me feels so goddamn apart from me It's scaring me Try to pull myself together Gain composure Take a breath and just hold it, hold it Now exhale I am in control and if I wait, the feeling passes Now hold up, just hold up Though this newly founded confidence is admirable It's tattered and it's frayed and now it's standing in my way So just cut the act No one has their life together No one has it figured out But they all make the best of it while you take the worst parts and Stitch them all together Make an effigy and stick it full of pins so you'll remember You're in this alone You made yourself a martyr And it feels so good to fall on the sword It feels so good to fall on the sword But what the fuck are we falling for Breaking through the confidence The panic grabs a hold of my neck And drags me through the shatters closer to the door Whether it's an entrance or an exit is up to you, it mentions Parts of me are screaming Some part of me can't make out a word I can't make out a word I can't make out a word Paranoid and nauseous, I collapse We've got him right where we want him Keep it up, keep it up, keep it up now Tear his fucking heart from his chest Right out Make a run for it Salvage what you can and just Stitch them all together Make an effigy and stick it full of pins so you'll remember You're in this alone You made yourself a martyr And it feels so good to fall on the sword It feels so good to fall on the sword But what the fuck are we falling for Never drowning Never really drowning but never really out of the water Never drowning Never really drowning but never really out of the... Water It surrounds me Picks me up into the sky and wraps me up until I'm drowning Don't bother to save me Let the waves take hold and change me I dove in Tried to put myself together but the pieces never fit to begin I dove in, I dove in You can't pull somebody out If you have never known how deep they were (In)

If I tried to do this alone There's no chance that I'd make it It'd bury me I depend on you You're my home But god how it scares me to think that your patience is wearing thin Do you see it on her face, the resentment? For every time you shook her out of her sleep For every time you pushed and begged her to end it Stay with me, stay with me 'til it all passes me by I'm sorry this happens and thank you for giving me time Let me bury myself in your comfort Though I know that I'm leeching you dry Will you carry me, still call me lover Though the weight of me shows in your eyes I sense it, the increasing distance and I sense it, your exit plan forming and I sincerely fear that I've turned you to ice No longer your sense of warmth Stay with me, stay with me til it's all gone You're a shelter from storms no one sees as they're passing And you've weathered me silent and thankless Never asking Patience is the only word that I seem to forget Any lesson learned is lost in the process of living in... How many times will you allow me to cut you down? Unintentional incisions bleed you dry of your time Are you wasting your life with me? Pull out my eyes Great winding stairways leading to nothing Built upon something I thought would change All I need is you Please leave me here

Drag him from his bed String him up, string him up to the ceiling Keep him blind, keep him feeling Keep his nerves on fire, get him screaming Let his screams die out, make him quiet, make him quiet now Ten Nine Eight Seven Six Five Four Three Two One Ready or not, where the fuck will you run? I'll burn every hiding spot down Leave no stone unturned Leave you senseless, broken and in pain Leave nothing unturned Let no shred of sanity remain Drag him from his bed String him up, string him up to the ceiling Keep him blind, keep him feeling Keep his nerves on fire, get him screaming Let his screams die out, make it hurt, make it loud

If I had to talk simply about it Well I'm sure I'd say nothing at all How the thoughts in my head get so crowded Or how everything makes me feel small How I constantly feel I'm surrounded Or feel no one's around me at all Or feel nothing Trade me anything just to feel something Take your pick Take it all We'll take hold Leave his bones as bare as our hearts We'll take hold Drain the life from him Make him empty and cold Every happy thought you have is tagged with hidden costs There's no way out I don't think you'll understand No rescue Oh, I thought we were past this Oh, I thought we were moving on Thought you'd gotten the message But I guess I was fucking wrong What's so wrong? Oh, don't get in your head There is solace in this depression It's the only thing that's permanent When everyone leaves you Let nothing deceive you We'll always be here by your side Ain't it something? Even now, when you swear you've got nothing We're still buried inside My colors will stay the same But my shades will bloom from grey to grey This smothered state of change Will rearrange me grey to grey What's so wrong? Oh, don't get in your head There is solace in this depression It's the only thing that's permanent When everyone leaves you Let nothing deceive you We'll always be here by your side Ain't it something? Even now, when you swear you've got nothing We're still buried inside If I had to talk simply about it Well I'm sure I'd say nothing at all How the thoughts in my head get so crowded Or how everything makes me feel small How I constantly feel I'm surrounded Or feel no one's around me at all Or feel nothing Trade me anything just to feel something Take your pick Take it all

All the lines on the table are squirming like insects Let's lean down and inhale them And let them decide for us Let them writhe in us Let them feast on whatever they find I've been told to cope I've been told to cope You should try therapy Try getting out of the house Change your sleep schedule Try working out Try to schedule a doctor's appointment The pills they prescribe you could really help out You should try mixing those pills with some whiskey You should try harming yourself Just to feel some control You should lock all of the doors in your house Tell your friends to fuck off cause you're trying to cope Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) All the talking All the effort Nothing worked Nothing's better All the pills All the liquor Meant to close my wounds tore them open and left me for dead It's hard to swallow and it never ends Full up on medicine but always on empty It's always fighting and it always wins I've given up but it's relentlessly kicking I've been told to cope I've been told to cope Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) Take, take, take, take, take, take Take what you get (Get, get, get, get, get) It's hard to swallow and it never ends We've exhausted our options Took advice that was offered Meditated, medicated, chemically altered our heads It's always fighting and it always wins We're sedated at best Why try to deal with emotion When you can remove it and trade it for rest

And after all is said and done I know the problem's internal I know the symptoms like they're family And I can't fend them off But I'm learning to outlast and stand it Each time gets better and it feels like they're all losing their grip You can't just cover this up It knows you down to the cell It's left a mark on your tongue Can you taste it? There is a permanence here As much as knowing it hurts It's not what all of us want But this is coming to terms If this is coming to terms, I've got a clause of my own If this is coming to terms, why are its claws at my throat? If this is coming to terms, we're gonna pull through If this is coming to terms, we're starting with you It's getting simple I've got the reins in my hand It's never quite gone but not too strong to withstand And when I hold my breath, it's not denial of air It's not to drown in a void It's just a way to see clear You can't just cover this up It knows you down to the cell It's left a mark on your tongue Can you taste it? There is a permanence here As much as knowing it hurts It's not what all of us want But this is coming to terms Tragedy calls you home Let the trauma, depressive instincts expand where Tragedy makes its home In the weak, in the tired, in trembling hands Tragedy takes a toll Makes its cuts where it wants to because it can Tragedy never hold Tries so desperate to cling, find its purchase but can't You can't just cover this up It knows you down to the cell It's left a mark on your tongue Can you taste it? There is a permanence here As much as knowing it hurts It's not what all of us want But this is coming to terms