The Lengths – Theme from Orphan Black: Echoes (feat. Calvin Lauber) - Julien Baker, Phoebe Bridgers & Lucy Dacus

Hateful (you made me hateful) (Hateful, hateful) count on you I used to beg you to wake up like every morning We were dreaming 'bout the rain before it poured in The way we gave each other scars Our undiscovered art All I wanted was for us to brave the changes Ain't it funny I was running with a shapeshifter Now I don't know who you are But i'm still wearing your scars Hateful hateful hateful Made me made me hateful You were so ungrateful I just had to let you know Don't tell me to be accountable for the things that you do to me Thought you said I could count on you once you had finished using me Now you happen to lose a feeling of empathy for me oh how convenient No longer leaning on me really changed the way you see me Round up our flaws and drop their jaws how did we make it this far Round of applause an angel falls now you exist in my art You've broken my heart And I still live with your scars Hateful hateful hateful Made me made me hateful You were so ungrateful I just had to let you know I let you let you go So dont unblock my phone I changed your pic to A snake so I wont miss you again Couldn't believe you tried to make me hate my friends Then didnt need me so you switched and side with them (lie to them) If they believe you they can keep you I dont need them I dont need you Leave you hateful in the end Hateful hateful hateful (hatefull in the end) Made me made me hateful (oh you'll be hateful till the end) You were so ungrateful (I tired to help you out and then) I just had to let you know (you made me miserable again) You made me miserable again You made me miserable again You made me miserable again

Friday nights involved Behind my bedroom door You and me and four walls Our schedule solved We grew and it grew old The way it played out all I took away was take out We were left so unresolved You changed, I changed A shame but just the same as Everyone else we knew You're strange, deranged I'm glad he took my place uh Hear me while I say the truth... Millennium baby you've driven me crazy 40 nights of causing fights and then you'll try to blame me! Millennium baby you can never change me And despite the sleepless nights I'll never let you claim me! Millennium baby you've driven me crazy 40 nights of causing fights and then you'll try to blame me! Millennium baby you can never change me And despite the sleepless nights I'll never let you claim me! (Now that those) Friday nights are over I thank my four leaf clover You had to screw me over (had to screw me over) My best friend took my place on your sofa You changed, I changed A shame but just the same as Everyone else we knew You're strange, deranged I'm glad he took my place uh Hear me while I say the truth... Millennium baby you've driven me crazy 40 nights of causing fights and then you'll try to blame me! Millennium baby you can never tame change me And despite the sleepless nights I'll never let you claim me! Millennium baby you've driven me crazy 40 nights of causing fights and then you'll try to blame me! Millennium baby you can never change me And despite the sleepless nights I'll never let you claim me! You changed, I changed A shame but just the same as Everyone else we knew You're strange, deranged I'm glad he took my place uh Hear me while I say the truth... (Truth)

I only say What I really mean When I start talking To you in my sleep Oh, I can be honest When I think it's a dream I can make promises sober I'll never keep And you can believe me As long as you want There's nothing inside of here But blood and guts When I hit the bottom Start pulling up floorboards Whatever I get Always need just a little bit more So I'm catching a ride now To get on the first flight You told me it scares you The way that I was tonight Oh, I miss when I was certain About every little thing So scared of forgetting That I put it down in ink Used to call upon the Spirit Now I think Heaven lets it ring Wanted so bad to be good But there's no such thing Ooh, ooh, ooh

I'm staying in tonight I won't stop you from leaving I know that I'm not what you wanted, am I? Wanted someone who I used to be like Now you think I'm not trying Well, don't argue, it's not worth the effort to lie You don't want to bring it up And I already know how we look You don't have to remind me so much How I disappoint you It's just that I talked to somebody again Who knows how to help me get better Until then I should just try not to miss anymore Appointments Ooh ooh ooh ooh Ooh ooh ooh I think if I ruin this That I know I can live with it Nothing turns out like I pictured it Maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases I think if I fail again That I know you're still listening Maybe it's all gonna turn out alright And I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is I have to believe that it is I have to believe that it is (I have to believe it) I have to believe that it is (Probably not, but I have to believe that it is) And when I tell you that you that it is Oh, it's not for my benefit Maybe it's all gonna turn out alright Oh, I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is

All of my friends, a plastic bag Walking around, jumping the train tracks Over the fence, veins all black Sleep on the bench in the park on my birthday Call the blue lights, cursed your name When I find I'm still awake Give me everything good, I'll throw it away I wish I could quit, but I can't stand the shakes Choking smoke, singing your praise But I think there's a God and He hears either way I rejoice and complain I never know what to say But I think there's a God and He hears either way And I rejoice and complain Lift my voice that I was made And somebody's listening at night The ghosts of my friends when I pray Asking, "Why did You let them leave And then make me stay?" Know my name and all of my hideous mistakes I rejoice, I rejoice I rejoice, I rejoice

We took the forty down to Visit the family, and I Told you, the only kin I knew Was who I could see from the gurney I used to think about myself Like I was a talented liar Turns out that all my friends were Trying to do me a favor I always want to tell the truth But it never seems like the right time To be serious enough I'm sorry, I'm making myself cry How long do I have until I've spent up everyone's goodwill? Sat on the hood, out all night Trying to scrape together change You pulled a moth out from the grill of your truck Saying "It's a shame" How come it's so much easier With anything less than human? Letting yourself be tender Well, you couldn't make me do it It doesn't feel too bad, but it Doesn't feel too good either Just like a nicotine patch, it Hardly works, then it's over Who put me In your way to find? What right had you Not to let me die? Ooh, but did I even know What I was asking for? If I had my way I'd have missed you more Than you missed me You missed me You missed me You missed me

I went walkin' again, and go out and forget To tell any of my friends where I'm goin' I'm just drunk, the side of the road, in a ditch When you find me, I wanna go home, I'm sick There's more whiskey than blood in my veins More tar than air in my lungs, the strung-out call I make Burned down, the edge of the highway "I'm sorry for askin', but please, come take me home" I quit talkin' again, I know you're still listenin' To see if I sleep or pierce my skin Needles to the worn out rags The folds in my arms, the sickenin' black And I haven't been takin' my meds Lock all the cabinets, send me to bed 'Cause I know you're still worried, I'm gonna get scared 'Cause I'm alone again, and I don't like the things I see And I haven't been takin' my meds So lock all the cabinets and send me to bed 'Cause I know you're still worried, I'm gonna get scared again And make my insides clean with your kitchen bleach But I've kissed enough bathroom sinks To make up for the lovers that never loved me And I know my body is just dirty clothes I'm tired of washin' my hands, God, I wanna go home