Spanish Love Soung

Just another day Wondering if you're ok Haven't seen you in a while I'm hoping that you smile These days 'Cause I'm thinking 'bout you And there's nothing else to do You keep me up at night Until I see the light Of day Sorry, I slept late last night I didn't see your text, sorry 'Cause I been thinking, yeah yeah We could be linking, yeah yeah Lockdown got me in this procedure Locking out my friends, been taking my time in all these leisure All I'm thinking about is how much I miss it Life came to a pause if only I had a remote to press play but today I'm all alone again scrollling the internet, tryna free myself from this boredom I'm gonna be calling you everyday, checking if you good 'Cause 'cause 'Cause there's nothing like you And there's nothing else to do You keep me up at night Until I see the light Of day 'Cause there's nothing like you And there's nothing else to do You keep me up at night Until I see the light Of day Keeping my social distance I'm trying really hard to listen The government has grounded the nation 'Cause corona is blind to colour and race and I know this is silly Talking 'bout the virus and all it's ability What's with all this humidity Think it's about to rain We could be quarantine and chilling I don't care what we do as long as we living Couped up inside I might need you to facetime I ain't got an Iphone But you know I'll find any other means I been thinking, yeah yeah We could be linking, yeah yeah Keep my phone on vibrate Hit me up like it's friday 'Cause there's nothing like you And there's nothing else to do You keep me up at night Until I see the light Of day

Had the feeling that we were due for bad news Six months away before we knew That no good was ever coming through I burnt down the house for you I moved my shit out of your room I kissed my dog goodbye, said, "I guess it's time to move" My things on the lawn in the heat September stayed so warm And your sweat tasted sweet It's the last time I held you complete The last family on the street The only time we meet You're not alone But all things in mind I couldn't be better Than times that I've denied myself my happiness And all things considered I come out the remainder Left alone without my whole So where'd you go? Now I stayed indoors on my throne And I talk to myself Pray that you haven't flown And I'll reap what I have sown 'Cause I'm just a fucked up boy Who dreams of dying alone But all things in mind I couldn't be better Than times that I've denied myself my happiness And all things considered I come out the remainder Left alone without my whole But all things in mind I couldn't be better Than times that I've denied myself my happiness And all things considered I come out the remainder Left alone without my whole Moving in on miserable (but all things in mind) With rings and beds I took for granted (I couldn't be better) Feels like I am barely here (than times that I've denied) Seven years that never happened (myself my happiness) Giving up on loving things (and all things considered) Except maybe for my new family (I come out the remainder) Hold myself up for display (left alone without my whole) Everything just brings me down today

Well, these are dark days When I'm staring at a mirror in the corner And I see both sides of who I should be A heritage, an excuse, or a black spot in my blood Like a shooter in a dark room waiting I don't want to let him out Because I'm afraid of what he'll do It's got me worried Am I the one? Hate more than love? Imploding, killing my brothers So, please don't judge me for the failure I'm gonna be I don't want to leave this couch, I'm afraid to go to war So I stay inside and I fuck myself blind But I want to know if we've been promised so much more Then how do I get it? 'Cause nothing's ever really worked out this far I'm well past the point of giving up It's got me thinking That I'm the one, hate more than love Imploding, killing my brothers I'm the one, hate more than love Imploding, killing my brothers

When you saw your dad shoot up for the first time It must've came as quite a shock You sat numb in your room for hours Ignoring the afternoon's drop-offs You picture him, arms outstretched in a song After Sunday school let out He'd drive the family home, and you'd Talk about Jesus But 15 years can change a man Alone in this wilderness Say "keep your head up" if you're not okay But "not okay" is what's expected They claim you're a hero if you could make it off the couch You know the truth in what they say The world's gonna kick you either way But now you're stuck in this routine Just trying to make something on your own Your older brother fled the country The cops are coming 'round your home But Kaylee has a baby on the way They're not gonna leave her a single mother The dope was legal, but they roughed you up for selling on the side And 20 years will change a man Ten with behavior is what you're looking at Just keep your head down, and you'll be okay You're living up to what's expected They'll claim you're nothing when you're walking out the door You know the truth in what they say The world's gonna kick you either way And Mom won't even come around most days You pop your prescription, and you put on a brave face You zone out to the local AM station And try not to think about next month's visitation I saw you last week, we haven't talked since graduation You're moving H with a guy to catch up, but it's clear you're using I didn't have the guts to be a better friend But what's another ten grand gonna fix in the end? Say "keep your head up" if you're not okay But "not okay" is what's expected They claim you're a hero, but you died there on the couch You knew the truth in what they say The world's gonna kick you either way