Simba (Ray Childress Speaks) [feat. Hardo] - Mayhem Mal & Jimmy Wopo

Some summers in the evening after 6 or so I walk on down the hill And maybe buy a beer I think about my friends Sometimes I wish they lived out here But they wouldn't dig this town No, they wouldn't dig this town Try not to think about it, Alice Childress Try not to think about it anymore Try not to think about it, Alice Childress Anymore No, not anymore, oh Alice, the world is full of ugly things That you can't change Pretend it's not that way It's my idea of faith You can blow it off And say there's good in nearly everyone Just give them all a chance Now let's give them all a chance Try not to think about it, Alice Childress Try not to think about it anymore Try not to think about it, Alice Childress Anymore No, not anymore, oh No, it didn't work out No, it didn't work out the way we thought it would No, it didn't work out (An arranged marriage is not so good) Thank God it's you You know, your timing is impeccable And I'm not fooling you I don't know what to do Some dude just knocked me cold And left me on the sidewalk Took everything I had And everything I had Try not to think about it, Alice Childress Try not to think about it anymore It's getting late where you are, Alice Childress Anymore No, not anymore Anymore No, not anymore

I think once I took my first Vicodin, it was just like, this feeling of "Ah" You know, like everything was not only mellow, but didn't feel any pain It just didn't–, it just kind of numbed things I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem I just remember liking it more and more People try to tell me that I had a problem I would say, "Get that fucking person out of here, I can't believe they said that shit to me, they know nothing about my fucking life, are they out of their fucking mind?" I'm not out there shooting heroin, I'm not out there fucking, you know, putting coke up my nose, I'm not smoking crack You're struggling with the argument of "Do you have a problem, or do you not have a problem? Can you control it, or can you not?" And I literally thought I could control it You're taking things that people are giving you that, you don't even know what the fuck they are They look like a pill, and they look– they're shaped like something that you take, so you take it, you know? Xanax, Valium, tomato-tomato You know what I mean? It's th-the same thing, it's all in the same family, fuck it, take it Had I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later, I would've died My organs were shutting down, my liver, kidneys, everything They were gonna have to put me on dialysis, they didn't think I was gonna make it My bottom was gonna be death, within a month, I had relapsed And shot right back up to the same amount of pills that I was taking I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day, like, "I'm gonna fucking die", like, I'm-I'm looking at my kids, and I need to be here for this Coming off of everything, I literally was up 24 hours a day for three weeks straight And I mean not sleeping, not even nodding off for a fucking minute Like, I was literally just up, like, looking at the TV I had to regain motor skills, I had to regain talking skills It's been a-a learning process, like, it's been, I'm growing I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy, or naturally function, or be just enjoying life in general, without being on something So, I would say that t-to anybody that i-it does get better, you know? It just– it does