Stolas Speaks - Jefferson Friedman

It is expected An oath by blood to hold the tome And the starlight passes overhead Fuels all the skills I've honed I am a guardian A watcher of these ancient rites Yet I find myself drawn from that path On those dazzling moonlit nights Let me hold you, keep you close to me I long to hear your voice Come now, my little impish plaything We both made our choice I can give you everything you need Or do you want to hear me plead? Just look my way Just look my way Is there something more that I don't know That you won't say 'til we've both grown cold? Just say, "please stay" Look my way This unspoken contract A deed we forged for mutual gain If that's all this was, when you're not here What is this rooted pain? I don't care that you're of lower station Or primed to sate my dark temptations Why can't you understand? Let me explain 'Cause I'm terrified, as I cry To make these feelings true What's left for me in this broken house If I cannot have you? I'll give you everything you need What more is there? What more to plead? Just look my way Just look my way What can there be that I don't know? Will you never tell or be so bold? Just say, "please stay" Look my way Unless its me? And no matter what in this world I could give It's not enough To get through the walls you've conjured up to live Is this how she'd feel? Abandoned, all alone and left to fend For herself For some semblance of happiness that doesn't have to end I will try to make amends For making you means to an end So, look my way Please, look my way And if there's something more that I don't know? I'll save us both before we grow cold If you'll stay, and just say Look my way Look my way Look my way

I think once I took my first Vicodin, it was just like, this feeling of "Ah" You know, like everything was not only mellow, but didn't feel any pain It just didn't–, it just kind of numbed things I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem I just remember liking it more and more People try to tell me that I had a problem I would say, "Get that fucking person out of here, I can't believe they said that shit to me, they know nothing about my fucking life, are they out of their fucking mind?" I'm not out there shooting heroin, I'm not out there fucking, you know, putting coke up my nose, I'm not smoking crack You're struggling with the argument of "Do you have a problem, or do you not have a problem? Can you control it, or can you not?" And I literally thought I could control it You're taking things that people are giving you that, you don't even know what the fuck they are They look like a pill, and they look– they're shaped like something that you take, so you take it, you know? Xanax, Valium, tomato-tomato You know what I mean? It's th-the same thing, it's all in the same family, fuck it, take it Had I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later, I would've died My organs were shutting down, my liver, kidneys, everything They were gonna have to put me on dialysis, they didn't think I was gonna make it My bottom was gonna be death, within a month, I had relapsed And shot right back up to the same amount of pills that I was taking I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day, like, "I'm gonna fucking die", like, I'm-I'm looking at my kids, and I need to be here for this Coming off of everything, I literally was up 24 hours a day for three weeks straight And I mean not sleeping, not even nodding off for a fucking minute Like, I was literally just up, like, looking at the TV I had to regain motor skills, I had to regain talking skills It's been a-a learning process, like, it's been, I'm growing I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy, or naturally function, or be just enjoying life in general, without being on something So, I would say that t-to anybody that i-it does get better, you know? It just– it does

Way on the other side of the Hudson, Deep in the bosom of suburbia, I met a young girl, she sang mighty fine, Tears on my pillow and Ave Maria. Standing by the waterfall in Paramus park She was working for the friends of BAI She was collecting quarters in a paper cup. She was looking for change and so was I. She was a jewish girl. I fell in love with her. She wrote her number on the back of my hand. I called her up, I was all out of breath, I said, "Come hear me play in my rock and roll band. I took a shower and I put on my best blue jeans. I picked her up in my new vw van. She wore a peasant blouse with nothing underneath. I said, "hi". she said, "yeah, I guess I am." Ariel Ariel We had a little time, we were real hungry. We went to dairy queen for something to eat. She had some onion rings. she had a pickle. She forgot to tell me that she didn't eat meat. I had a gig in the american legion hall. It was a dance for the volunteer ambulance corp. She was sitting in a corner against the wall. She would smile and I melted all over the floor. Ariel Ariel Instrumental I took her home with me. we watched some TV, Annette Funicello and some guy going steady. I started fooling around with the vertical hold. We got the munchies and I made some spaghetti. We sat and we talked into the night, While channel 2 was signing off the air. I found the softness of her mouth. We made love to bombs bursting in Ar- - - iel Ariel Ariel Ariel Ariel Way on the other side of the Hudson, deep in the bosom of suburbia, L met a young girl she sang mighty fine, Tears on my pillow and Ave Maria, Tears on my pillow and Ave Maria, tears on my pillow and Ave Maria

I am an ancient wall of stone, atop a hill so high And if you listen with your heart, you just may hear my cry Where has the Bais Hamikdash gone, I stand here all alone How long am I to wait for all my children to come home A house of marble and of gold once stood here by my side From far and wide all came to see its beauty and its pride But Sinas Chinam brought it down, and with it so much pain Now only Ahavas Yisrael can build it once again Together, together, you stood by Har Sinai, my daughters and sons Forever, forever, you must stand together forever as one You come and stand beside my stones to raise your voice in prayer You ask, When will the Golus end, how much more can we bear But Sinas Chinam still lives on, it lingers in your heart How can you come back home to me, while you remain apart Together, together, you stood by Har Sinai, my daughter and sons Forever, forever, you must stand together forever as one Together, together, you stood by Har Sinai, Bnai Avraham Forever, and ever, you must stand together forever as one

כל הנשמה תהלל קה, הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה, הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי אלקי נשמה שנתת בי נשמה טהורה היא אתה בראתה אתה יצרתה אתה נפחתה בי אלקי נשמה שנתת בי טהורה, טהורה היא אתה בראתה אתה יצרתה ואתה משמרה בקרבי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי אלקי נשמה שנתת בי טהורה שנתת בי טהורה היא אתה בראתה אתה יצרתה ואתה משמרה בקרבי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי If all the trees were pen and feather All the rivers ink together My soul would sing this song forever Praise Your name forever and ever כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי כל הנשמה תהלל קה הללוקה כל הנשמה, נשמה שלי