One With the Decor - guardin

It's been so long I've lost count The days grow colder The waves have frozen I can't turn back time and change fate I guess it was never in our hands anyway How could we be so utterly blind? How could we think that we were God-like? How could we kneel before tyrants? How could we live for ages in fear and denial? No more fighting Just the abyss Soon I'll be One with the sea No more pretending Only the bliss Soon I'll be One with the sea Why did we wait for an unknown savior? Why we couldn't face eye-to-eye our nature? Why in the hearts of men, lives the urge for illusion? Why does it scare us so to let go and return back home? No more fighting Just the abyss Soon I'll be One with the sea No more pretending Only the bliss Soon I'll be One with the sea No more fighting Just the abyss Soon I'll be One with the sea No more pretending Only the bliss Soon I'll be One with the sea (One with the sea) No more fighting Just the abyss (Just the abyss) Soon I'll be One with the sea (One with the sea) No more pretending Only the bliss (Only the bliss) Soon I'll be One with the sea (One with the sea) One with the sea (One with the sea) One with the sea

White doves come down I'm out here standing in the wind And even now I'm tempted by the face of love I feel it coming like a flood Finding myself tempted By the face of love Really fear that I could never get enough I'm riding high up Watching over silent things Like pearls scattered at our feet Top down, head in the clouds You get yours from us My baby in a physical world Tell me you get yours from us (Not enough doors) Top down, head in the clouds (Not enough heat) You get yours from us (Not enough crowds) My baby in a physical world (Not enough heat) Tell me you get yours from us We're riding high up Watching over silent things Like pearls scattered at our feet And even now I'm tempted by the face of love I feel it coming like a flood

I can't remember anything Can't tell if this is true or dream Deep down inside I feel to scream This terrible silence stops me Now that the war is through with me I'm waking up, I cannot see That there is not much left of me Nothing is real but pain now Hold my breath as I wish for death Oh please God, wake me Back in the womb it's much too real In pumps life that I must feel But can't look forward to reveal Look to the time when I'll live Fed through the tube that sticks in me Just like a wartime novelty Tied to machines that make me be Cut this life off from me Hold my breath as I wish for death Oh please God, wake me Now the world is gone, I'm just one Oh God help me Hold my breath as I wish for death Oh please God, help me Darkness imprisoning me All that I see Absolute horror I cannot live I cannot die Trapped in myself Body my holding cell Landmine has taken my sight Taken my speech Taken my hearing Taken my arms Taken my legs Taken my soul Left me with life in hell

She makes home feel like a home in my head (In my head) And when I'm with her, I feel hope again I swear the weather on the coast all depends On where we are but it's still home in the end I felt hopeful (For once) You've got all of (My trust) You have no clue (What you've done) We were drowning (In love) I lost myself (In us) I don't know where to go And who to call when things get like this My car ran outta gas You said you could pick me up, but I feel like an asshole Offered you some cash, you declined, it didn't matter I was full of glee and you were full of laughter Laughter, and after, we went home and watched shit Turned on the TV, kickin' back, we were exhausted Flipped through channels 3 to 36 while eating Chex mix Couldn't find a thing so we resorted back to Netflix 'Til we passed out and then I got up off of the couch I picked you up in my arms and wiped the drool from your mouth Both half asleep but I still stumbled silently through the house Until I came upon a path that I've never known about And then I saw some lights in my reflection of doubt My conscience beheading North while my heart trips to the South And honestly, I'm feelin' torn in which direction I route Because I believe in everything we're building around She makes home feel like a home in my head And when I'm with her, I feel hope again I swear the weather on the coast all depends On where we are but it's still home in the end Woah, woah, woah, oh, oh Woah, woah, woah, oh, oh Woah, woah, woah, oh, oh Woah, oh, oh-oh, oh, oh Woah, woah, woah, oh, oh Woah, woah, woah, oh, oh Woah, woah, woah, oh, oh Woah, oh, oh-oh, oh, oh

So around the same time, uh That I started like freestyling like writing more, uhm I had just gotten fired The only other job that I worked apart from music I was a janitor at a hospital Deadass Yeah So I worked overnights I was like 12 'til 4 a.m Just like four hour shifts I don't think I've Ever been this fucking stressed in my life Creature part two isn't finished, I lied Just to get them off my back though I tried I can't create when I'm dying inside Moving this weekend I wish I could fly Don't have my car but I still gotta drive Pack up the U-Haul and tell my mom bye Hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why Am I like this? I don't like this All my friends are enemies behind my eyelids Losing sleep I drive all week and raise my mileage Guardin cut his fucking hair now I don't like him Depression take me by 25 Fuck going out I'll just stay inside "This isn't you", I say to myself Every night lately I contemplate suicide "Oh but you're famous online so your life must be great" They say, but that's a fucking lie Crawl into bed around seven a.m And the headaches come full force, I wanna die Oh, oh, oh (Da da da da da da da da da da da da da) Oh, oh, oh (Da da da da da da da da da da da da da) Hey, Hollywood would your people ever like me Misunderstood is all I ever might be Hey, Hollywood would your people ever like me? Misunderstood is all I ever might be Hey, Hollywood would your people ever like me? Misunderstood is all I ever might be

How does it work? How do you do this to someone? Oh, as if you had no choice? I'm drownin' in my headspace Drivin' shockpoint like I'm Isaac Clarke in Dead Space Two gram cone to my dome, now I'm dead, wait I feel fine, celebratin' poppin' champaigne Caught me in my zone, all alone, marijuana on my lip Fixin' for the herb, I'm packin' purple 'till I'm stiff Fall asleep in chairs or couches I don't give a shit Lil' sleepy boy, I'm overlookin' on a clip This that fuckin' cliffnote Cliff bars suck and clifford the dog was a nympho Breakin' 'till it fall apart, I guess you got the memo Good bye to my hello I was once a shade of blue but you turned to me yellow My color palette is minimum but I don't give a fuck Flip it 'till it's saturated, the vibrance ain't enough Been awake for days and I'm amazed that I'm still up Sleep is for the weak and I'm afraid of givin' up Yeah, I'm afraid of givin' up Yeah, I'm afraid of givin' up Yeah, I'm afraid of givin' up Yeah, I'm afraid of givin' up

I think I'd be better off alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I don't mind when I sleep all alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I think I'd be better off alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I don't mind when I sleep all alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I think I found the antidote I think I found another road I think I found some fucking hope, nope (Nope) I think I'm tryna find a way To rid of all these darker days But my mind's trapped inside a maze So I'll run so far from these shadows (From the shadows) Makeshift but my heart's still fragile (Heart's still fragile) I'd drown but the water's too shallow (Water's too shallow) My heads still caught in the gallows (Caught in the gallows) Your kiss is my remedy (Remedy) I fall to the ground so desperately (Desperately) Baby, I know that you're mad at me (Mad at me) Filling all the voids like cavities (Cavities) I think I'd be better off alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I don't mind when I sleep all alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I think I'd be better off alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I don't mind when I sleep all alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I guess this feeling lasts forever (Lasts forever) I guess we'll never be together (Be together) You're colder than I can remember But the ice is melting quickly I'm still wishing that you'd miss me (That you'd miss me) But you're gone and I never could replace you (Never could replace you) Mistraced new face but it ain't you (But it ain't you) Rebuilding the forts that I made you (Forts that I made you) No love but my hearts tryna breakthrough My chest 'cause its caving in (Caving in) I dwell in a cell in a realm of sin (Realm of sin) Six shots to the face of rum and gin (Rum and gin) I'm dead in the head so I guess you win (Guess you win) I think I'd be better off alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I don't mind when I sleep all alone Without you, without you, without you, without you I think I'd be better off alone (Better off alone, better off alone) I don't mind when I sleep all alone (I sleep all alone) Without you, without you