Not As I - George FitzGerald

Have you ever wondered about our old Nu-metal friends and what became of them? Turns out I saw them a couple of days ago They were laughing and drinking and smoking and singing I'd rather not, let's just say I'm starving myself I don't want no savior baby, I just wanna have a good time Oh, oh At least I'm not as sad as I used to be And they said, "Hey Nate, yeah, it's been a while, Are you gonna sing?" And I began to smile and I said "You should've seen me a couple of years ago, I was laughing and drinking and smoking and singing." It's such a gas when you bring up the past I don't want no savior baby, I just wanna get it out Oh oh, oh At least I'm not as sad as I used to be Oh oh, oh At least I'm not as sad as I used to be At least I'm not as sad as I used to be Just get it out Doo doo doo Wooh ooh At least I'm not as sad as I used to be And they said we would've seen you two years ago Had you stuck around or come out to a show But youth's taken over by rock and roll While we were laughing and drinking and smoking and singing So I left, that is it That's my life, nothing is sacred I don't keep friends, I keep acquainted I'm not a prophet but I'm here to profit That's all, I'm gone! That's my life, nothing is sacred I don't fall in love, I just fake it I don't fall in love, I don't fall in love

We who are not as others We who are not as others We who are not as others We who are not as others We who are not as others We who are not as others We who are not as others We who are not as others

No more promises tonight No one is in my line of sight We're trying too hard To keep away scars So bye bye, baby We've come to the end somehow There's too much at stake While our hearts break It's time to say goodbye now Someone will love you more than I will Someone who's better at sacrifice Some peace will come With a more loving one Bye bye, baby We've come to the end somehow There's too much at stake While our hearts ache It's time to say goodbye now We've tried, and we've tried with quiet lying Too much more time and too many knots need untying Bye bye, baby We've come to the end somehow There's too much at stake While our hearts break It's time to say goodbye now

I'm such a mess The other day I hurt myself to see Oh if you care If you believe My cracks in the mirror Oh, I slit my skin 'Til I, I felt something real Cause I was losing Losing my reflection There's a hero In you Inside of you Oh, who resolved the down But I'm asking why I'm still here Standing in the rain Did I fail you dear Like painless suicide You burried the creed Beneath blood-red roses Had life life had just begun I knew nothing could stay the same But feeling, can feeling last Forever There's a hero In you Inside of you Oh, who resolved the down But I'm asking why I'm still here Standing in the rain They said there's a hero In you, who'd flied with fears Who could set you free From death From the world In a world you've been left alone There's a hero In you Inside of you Oh, who resolved the down But I'm asking why I'm still here All by myself Feeling the touch of red From my skin

I'm holding out my heart in my trembling hands I'm holding out my heart, so I'll understand It's home is on my sleeve most days It's home is on my sleeve, right here for you to take Hey, I'm black and blue, black and blue I'm falling through the cracks, So I'm turning back and I'm not coming for you Your words, they're in my mouth, a puppet's muse Your words, they're in my mouth, someone else's news A voice inside me shakes to tell the truth A voice inside me shakes to tell the truth Hey, I'm black and blue, black and blue I"m falling through the cracks, So I'm turning back, I'm black and blue, black and blue I'm falling through the cracks, So I'm turning back and I'm not coming for you

If you only knew what I see deep within you You'd crush the fear and dig down without a care Just listen carefully You're a shining star and my heart beats for you When the words won't come and you can't breathe I'll give you some When you feel so deep it's hard to see what's to come Just listen carefully Just listen carefully You're a shining star and my lungs, they'll breathe for you So pay the mind to what's inside the space of you Your heart's so kind it carries mine to the truth Just listen carefully Just listen carefully You're a shining star, my love, believe in you