Closure - Lewis Fitzgerald

I didn't believe you When you said you'd leave me bruised But everyone told me It's always the beautiful ones Who show you the world from the highest of mountains Then push you right down to the deepest of valleys But I didn't know I was chasing horizons Oh I could've sworn you and I we were flying Flying I know I'm not perfect I tend to dramatize, overanalyze, criticize every little thing I do And I get awkward and nervous I guess I'm just a little insecure sometimes But I'm a man of my word, yeah you know that I'm honest Not a Saint nor a God, but a King, yes I'm worthy When the music is playing I'll be on the dance floor But I don't wanna dance by myself anymore It's not enough This is not enough It might be fate It might be bad timing Or maybe I'm just not the man that you dreamed of It is what it is and there's no way around it If you find what you need Then I hope That you're happy

Feel small again Same old story Don't you call again I'm not sorry I am better off without you I am better off without you I give up trying At least for today Lying is lying It's never okay Bend it all you want Hide it all you can I give up trying I give up trying I am better off without you I am better off without you I'm so angry towards you I'll take time again War on worry Don't you call again I'm not sorry I am better off without you I am better off alone I give up trying At least for today Lying is lying It's never okay Bend it all you want Hide it all you can I give up trying And though I'll be sad Lying's still lying And I'll settle with that Bend it all you want Hide it all you can I give up trying I give up trying I give up trying for you I give up trying I give up trying At least for today Lying's still lying I'll make it okay Bend it all you want And hide it all you can But I give up fighting for you I'm trying I'm better off without you I am better off without you I'm so angry towards you, yes

Oh God I know it I know I shouldn't call her back She's using me and I'm fine with that Yeah, she's using me and I'm fine with that And I hear ya sighs Through your phone tonight Look deep up in my eyes And tell me why'd you call me just to tell me to Come over Come over For closure For closure For closure She's hot and cold like Shoto Todoroki I know I know I must be crazy Phone's always dry And I never get a reply And I hear ya cries Through your phone tonight Look deep up in my eyes And tell me why'd you call me just to tell me to Come over Come over For closure For closure Come over Come over For closure For closure For closure

If it ain't you I know my heart wouldn't last Still waiting on the moment you come through Remember all the things in the past I've sent the pin but you still ain't rendezvous I know you missin' me But you chose him over me Leaving was the only Choice I had in front of me And now my heart's a little colder Find it harder to stay sober And I know this can't be over And my love keeps getting older But my heart keeps tellin' me You're my one and only But I know for sure I can't get down on one knee I don't want this to be over Miss you cryin' on my shoulder Why'd you leave without no closure? I wish I had never known her And no you never trusted me No cap girl you're all I need I'm trapped can you let me free? And I promise you're the one for me yeah, yeah Fuck that shit girl I been said sorry I need some closure Will you come back to me? No probably Cause I know it's over And now my heart's a little colder Find it harder to stay sober And I know this can't be over And my love keeps getting older But my heart keeps tellin' me You're my one and only But I know for sure I can't get down on one knee

Ashes in my bookbag When you chillin' that's when they play with you the most But they don't know you really ten times worst Keep yo' niggas out they feeling's when they joce You can't have yo' nigga in prison feeling hurt When you chillin' that's when they play with you the most But they don't know you really ten times worst Keep yo' niggas out they feeling's when they joce You can't have yo' nigga in prison feeling hurt Put the pen to paper for you every time like a verse Outta everybody you call, you know I'm pulling up first Hittin' licks outta town just to triple up the worth I always stood my ground and put it down on the turf Long nights on the block selling rocks I rehearsed Got a cutlass dropped the top just so I can have a vert Every year around this time we'd be all on the curb Cold as fuck outside long john under our shirt Break bread with the family, you felt you had to be first Everybody happy you want to be happier You know what's coming next, spent your block in a hearse Been put in front of the X, like that fire I immerse Just sent pictures to Flippa, that's my nigga we can't forget him Nobody check for Cool but I still tell him that we miss him I'm still chasing the dream that we had when we were children Lil' nigga serving fiends, got the studio in the kitchen I was just in elementary my momma start bitchin' 'Cause everybody told her I was heading to penitentiary I'm outside with guns, real young in the club around drugs Coming home smelling like I was just fishing All my big cousins used to always come and get me I was looking up to them and they the ones who wanna be with me You moved to the hood and fell in love with the trenches Saw the love that I had and ever since you wanna steal it Everything that we did, you was always in competition But I included you in every move, was never stingy With my plays, always made a way for you to be in position First chance you had you got a bag, you turned yo' back and dissed me When you chillin' that's when they play with you the most But they don't know you really ten times worst Keep yo' niggas out they feeling's when they joce You can't have yo' nigga in prison feeling hurt When you chillin' that's when they play with you the most But they don't know you really ten times worst Keep yo' niggas out they feeling's when they joce You can't have yo' nigga in prison feeling hurt I love you but my heart telling me to hate you You wanted me to be in jail tryna chase you It ain't 'bout what you do, it's how you did it You can't have you dawg in prison in his feelings Switching numbers on me like you don't want me with it And we talked about everything but the business I ain't get a sentence from you since my sentence But on the streets, everybody thinking you the realest 'Cause you screaming free me and SG on ya pendant Even though I ain't need it, you could've sent ya dawg a penny Got bro nem sending pictures of you like nigga why you ain't send it Of course that shit impressive but right now it don't impress me Yeah, that shit look cool but it's some shit we ain't addressing You know you owe me money, I don't want no pictures of you flexing When it was my time to ride, I held it down, you ain't gotta question it I told you if I'm yo' nigga why the hell you got me in here guessing On top of that I'm stressing, police jumping on me You supposed to send words of encouragement to yo' homie You know if it weren't for me nigga, yo' lil' bitch ass would've been homeless You made sure you paid them cracka's, I guess it's different when you owe me Fuck the check, it's 'bout respect, it's 'bout the principle, the loyalty It ain't never 'bout no money, I threw a hundred in the ocean I ain't even gotta go on and say everything I did 'cause you was there Every, you know what I'm sayin', you was there You was there as in everything I did for you, you remember You could, you could feel like, you and somebody cliqued tight but You know along the way everybody grow up and have kids of they're own and go through different shit You know things change, people change, feelings change You might be away for some time and yo' dawg out here You know what I'm sayin'? And by time you jump out and yo' dawg go in You know years go by to where you be like y'all done spent all this time Away from each other (you really don't know each other) to the point y'all don't really know each other You can't even say y'all know each other like that You know what I'm sayin'? We just know we was dawgs but it's like you know Over a while it's like you got to get to know me all over again I'm agreeing with different shit, you agreeing with different shit Sometimes people's perspective change I see you, I'ma smack the shit out you, jit Fuck you talkin' 'bout? Smack yo' bitch ass Yo' mama know (on gang)

No more promises tonight No one is in my line of sight We're trying too hard To keep away scars So bye bye, baby We've come to the end somehow There's too much at stake While our hearts break It's time to say goodbye now Someone will love you more than I will Someone who's better at sacrifice Some peace will come With a more loving one Bye bye, baby We've come to the end somehow There's too much at stake While our hearts ache It's time to say goodbye now We've tried, and we've tried with quiet lying Too much more time and too many knots need untying Bye bye, baby We've come to the end somehow There's too much at stake While our hearts break It's time to say goodbye now

I'm such a mess The other day I hurt myself to see Oh if you care If you believe My cracks in the mirror Oh, I slit my skin 'Til I, I felt something real Cause I was losing Losing my reflection There's a hero In you Inside of you Oh, who resolved the down But I'm asking why I'm still here Standing in the rain Did I fail you dear Like painless suicide You burried the creed Beneath blood-red roses Had life life had just begun I knew nothing could stay the same But feeling, can feeling last Forever There's a hero In you Inside of you Oh, who resolved the down But I'm asking why I'm still here Standing in the rain They said there's a hero In you, who'd flied with fears Who could set you free From death From the world In a world you've been left alone There's a hero In you Inside of you Oh, who resolved the down But I'm asking why I'm still here All by myself Feeling the touch of red From my skin

I'm holding out my heart in my trembling hands I'm holding out my heart, so I'll understand It's home is on my sleeve most days It's home is on my sleeve, right here for you to take Hey, I'm black and blue, black and blue I'm falling through the cracks, So I'm turning back and I'm not coming for you Your words, they're in my mouth, a puppet's muse Your words, they're in my mouth, someone else's news A voice inside me shakes to tell the truth A voice inside me shakes to tell the truth Hey, I'm black and blue, black and blue I"m falling through the cracks, So I'm turning back, I'm black and blue, black and blue I'm falling through the cracks, So I'm turning back and I'm not coming for you

If you only knew what I see deep within you You'd crush the fear and dig down without a care Just listen carefully You're a shining star and my heart beats for you When the words won't come and you can't breathe I'll give you some When you feel so deep it's hard to see what's to come Just listen carefully Just listen carefully You're a shining star and my lungs, they'll breathe for you So pay the mind to what's inside the space of you Your heart's so kind it carries mine to the truth Just listen carefully Just listen carefully You're a shining star, my love, believe in you