I got tired of waiting Tried to make the small things matter But everybody leaves When they say they're there for me There's no one really there It's always been just me Stuck inside these corners Writing melodies And I think I'm ready for my next life Is there somewhere better I can spend my time Not in a sad way, I'll be fine It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes I got tired of losing He says I feel too much emotion If I chose to sleep forever Would you even notice? I'm not a perfect person And I never claimed to be But don't you see I'm trying? I've always been so weak And I think I'm ready for my next life Is there somewhere better I can spend my time Not in a sad way, I'll be fine It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes How was I supposed to know? No one ever stays too long Not even the grownups They get sick and go I know it's all my fault I should've picked up when you called Instead I shrugged you off Car rides full of small talk

Say something I want to hear Your voice cutting Through the clear As we won't go anywhere we can be found So say something Say it loud 'Cause I'm seeing your love tonight As you come to lift me out I'm ready for the next life A change coming early But keep running Back here 'Cause I'm seeing your love tonight As you come to lift me out I'm ready for the next life Yeah I'm seeing your love tonight As you come to lift me out I'm ready for the next life Yeah I'm seeing your love tonight As you come to lift me out I'm ready for the next life

Ah, ah Ah, ah Ah, ah Ah, ah, ah First time in my life I, I'm not afraid First time I remember feeling anything, anything There's no turning back now, I can't be saved And in the next life they'll remember me, remember me I'm the greatest God created I'm a sickness, I'm contagious I'm a demon, power trippin' On the mission, and vindictive Suffocating, exterminating And I love that every second Full of hatred, irritated Cut you open for entertainment Ooh They'll remember me Ooh You'll remember me First time in my life, I (First time in my life) I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) First time I remember feeling anything, anything (Anything) There's no turning back now (There's no turning back) I can't be saved (I can't be saved) And in the next life they'll remember me, remember me Deine Zeit ist abgelaufen Ich bin dein Alptraum, ich bin dein Omen Wenn du mich siehst, fängst du besser An zu laufen, kannst du glauben? Sag jetzt deine letzten Worte Ich krieg' immer was ich wollte Ich bin das Ende deiner Tage Ich bin die Krankheit, ich bin die Plage Ooh They'll remember me Ooh You'll remember me First time in my life, I (First time in my life) I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) First time I remember feeling anything, anything (Anything) There's no turning back now (There's no turning back) I can't be saved (I can't be saved) And in the next life they'll remember me, remember me

I don't know you at all Thought I did, I was wrong All the nights you cooked me dinner We were dancing in the kitchen We loved all the same songs Walls down after dark All the nights you kissed me slowly Hate how well your body knows me But I asked an 8-ball if you loved me Shook it twice, it said, "Not likely" Guess it gets you better than I do 'Cause I was there every day Rubbed your neck when it ached And through every storm, you weathered Bought milkshakes to make it better 'Cause that's who I am Love you 'til I can't But you never made it easy I tried to make you happy But I asked an 8-ball if you loved me Shook it twice, it said, "Not likely" Guess it gets you better than I do I don't know you at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) I don't know you at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) Oh, I tried, I tried, I tried But I can't look you in the eye When you feel nothing at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) And you feel nothing at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) Oh, I tried, I tried, I tried But you broke me every time 'Cause I asked an 8-ball if you loved me Shook it twice, it said, "Not likely" Guess it gets you better than I do And I wonder why you put me through this Built us up, just to destroy it No one ever hurt me more than you I don't know you at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) I don't know you at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) Hmm-mm-hmm I don't know you at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) Oh, I don't know you at all (ooh, ooh, ooh) Hmm-mm-hmm I don't know you at all

I lost touch with all my friends I'm in bed by 10 p.m. I have no social stamina I cancel on all my plans I commit then I don't answer I can't keep up with anyone Now I'm a desert island, I know I push away until I'm alone When did I become someone no one loves? I'm a broken record, it shows All I ever say is "no" When did I become someone I don't love? Now I don't know, I don't know who I am How did I turn into a person who I can't stand? How did I let it get this bad? Now I can't go back, now I'm all I have And I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am) Trigger warnings in my mind I'm so vulnerable at night So I watch romantic comedies (I watch romantic comedies) But happy couples make me cry I can't find someone in real life Always feel like something's wrong with me Now I'm a desert island, I know I push away until I'm alone When did I become someone no one loves? Now I don't know, I don't know who I am How did I turn into a person who I can't stand? How did I let it get this bad? Now I can't go back, now I'm all I have And I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am) Now I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am) Now I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am)

Hate that I feel like I don't deserve you And you deserve so much better than me I think that you'll have my heart forever But what if yours was never mine to keep? They say, "If you love someone, let them go and then they'll come Right back to you in the end," but I'm so scared if I give you up I'm just the one before the one, won't be yours ever again 'Cause, what if you're too good for me? Oh, you're the best thing that I've ever had What if you're too good for me? Never been more terrified of feeling that 'Cause you're everything I never knew I wanted But every good beginning ends up bad What if this time, I don't leave? What if this time, I just let you be? Let you be good for me Hmm-mmm I know you would, but I could never ask you (ooh-ooh) To fix someone you didn't even break I don't wanna leave, but if I have to (ooh-ooh) Promise me that you know it's for your sake They say, "If you love someone, let them go and then they'll come Right back to you in the end," but what if you're too good for me? Oh, you're the best thing that I've ever had What if you're too good for me? Never been more terrified of feeling that 'Cause you're everything I never knew I wanted But every good beginning ends up bad What if this time I don't leave? What if this time I just let you be? Let you be good for me One day I'll wake up, see that I'm enough Like you always knew I'll hold you for dear life 'cause I know that I I belong with you You're so good for me Oh, you're the best thing that I've ever had Always been so good for me Never been more terrified of feeling that

Coffee makes me anxious But I drink it 'cause it tastes like you (mm-mm) Converse hurt my feet But I still wear 'em 'cause I think of you (mm-mm) When I put them on I think of late night walks All of our heart to hearts 'Bout never giving up Guess I wrong to think That you'd stick around You ruined all my favorite songs for me (mm-mm) I hate all my favorites movies (mm-mm) I know I shouldn't let you get to me (mm-mm) But I do and it's exhausting (mm-mm) And all my friends say it's not meant to be (mm-mm) But baby, they don't know our history (mm-mm) You ruined all my favorite songs for me (mm-mm) You ruined everything including me (mm-mm) Vodka makes me sick So I take shots hope they sting more than you Your sweater make me sad But I still wear it 'cause it smells like you When I put it on I think of late night walks All of our heart to hearts 'Bout never giving up Guess I wrong to think That you'd stick around You ruined all my favorite songs for me (mm-mm) I hate all my favorites movies (mm-mm) I know I shouldn't let you get to me (mm-mm) But I do and it's exhausting (mm-mm) And all my friends say it's not meant to be (mm-mm) But baby, they don't know our history (mm-mm) You ruined all my favorite songs for me (mm-mm) You ruined all my favorite songs for me (mm-mm) 'Cause when I put them on I think of late night walks All our heart to hearts 'Bout never giving up Guess I wrong to think To think that you'd stick around You ruined all my favorite songs for me (you ruined all my favourite songs for me) And I hate all my favorites movies (I hate all my favourite movies) I know I shouldn't let you get to me (I shouldn't let you get to me) But I do and it's exhausting (it's exhausting) And all my friends say it's not meant to be (mm-mm) But baby, they don't know our history (mm-mm) You ruined all my favorite songs for me (mm-mm) You ruined everything including me (mm-mm) You ruined all my favorite songs for me You ruined everything including me You ruined all my favorite songs for me You ruined everything including me

I want thinner thighs I know that you don't think so but I do And I'm an ugly crier So I try not to cry in front of you And I know you always say You could never hate Any part of me But there's so much I would change When I see my face I just don't believe That you love me You don't really, you don't really love me My heart is tryna hear you but my body Doesn't trust a word you say 'Cause how could you love something I hate? I don't like my curves (mm, mm) You promise me you like them as they are (mm, mm) You tell me that it hurts (mm, mm) When you see me tearing myself apart (mm, mm) And I know you always say You could never hate Any part of me Say there's nothing you would change I'm the perfect weight I just don't believe That you love me You don't really, you don't really love me My heart is tryna hear you but my body Doesn't trust a word you say 'Cause how could you love something I hate? (Something I hate) (How could you love?) How could you love something I hate? (Something I hate) (How could you love?) How could you love something I hate? (Maybe one day) (I'll learn to love) How could you love something I hate? (Maybe one day) I'll be enough

I've been doing too much retail therapy You left me with a box of empty memories That's all I have left of you Thought I was so much more to you I've been doing too much overthinking 'Bout you and your friends Probably overdrinking That's how you get rid of me Forget all the shit you did to me Now everyday feels like a year When you're gone and I'm waiting here For you to change your mind I swear you still want this So why can't you text me and tell me you're sorry? Admit that you made a mistake and you love me Oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh I wish you would call me and say that you need me Say you were stupid and foolish for lеaving Oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh And when you try to make up, I'll hang up 'Cause you burnеd me I just wanna hurt you like you hurt me Been checking out mentally a little too often You left without a sound So suddenly, what happened? The minute you walked away You left with a part of me Now look at what you did to us Pushing me away for what? Guess I never meant that much Guess I never meant that much So why can't you text me and tell me you're sorry? Admit that you made a mistake and you love me Oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh I wish you would call me and say that you need me Say you were stupid and foolish for leaving Oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh And when you try to make up, I'll hang up 'Cause you burned me I just wanna hurt you like you hurt me I just wanna hurt you like you hurt me I just wanna hurt you like you hurt me I just wanna hurt you like you hurt me So why can't you text me and tell me you're sorry? Admit that you made a mistake and you love me Oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh I wish you would call me and say that you need me Say you were stupid and foolish for leaving Oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh And when you try to make up, I'll hang up 'Cause you burned me I just wanna hurt you like you hurt me