Missing Hell - Sushi Soucy

I didn't know the reason I wish I knew why I'd never get away with an alibi You know I've never been smart But I don't care I said life's a bitch And so unfair I was walking alone Late at night Roaming every street If their was no light I got a beer in my hand I can barely stand My stomach is fucked, I feel sick and fried I'll be sitting at home Wishing the best To all the dumb kids Who passed the wrong test Kissed the last girl And tried their best To get a good job Well you know the rest And I'll be here Trying to get out Trying to fit in And having my doubts That I'll never leave here And I don't care Cuz life's a bitch And so unfair And I've never been homesick in my life But I've been sick of home And I've been halfway through hell and back I'm missing it tonight, I'm missing Hell tonight I didn't know the reason I wish I knew why I'd never get away with an alibi You know I've never been smart But I don't care I said life's a bitch And so unfair And I've never been homesick in my life But I've been sick of home And I've been halfway through hell and back I'm missing it tonight, I'm missing Hell tonight I'm missing Hell tonight I'm missing Hell

Please, please forgive me But I won't be home again Maybe someday you'll look up And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one Isn't something missing? You won't cry for my absence, I know You forgot me long ago Am I that unimportant? Am I so insignificant? Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me? Even though I'm the sacrifice You won't try for me, not now Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone Isn't someone missing me? Please, please forgive me But I won't be home again I know what you do to yourself I breathe deep and cry out Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me? Even though I'm the sacrifice You won't try for me, not now Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone Isn't someone missing me? And if I bleed, I'll bleed Knowing you don't care And if I sleep just to dream of you And wake without you there Isn't something missing? Isn't something... Even though I'm the sacrifice You won't try for me, not now Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?

Average Like I've never heard that one before See, that one stupid word is why I don't act anymore One bad review from someone you love And suddenly it doesn't matter who thinks you're above average And so you stick to writing nothing else If you never show off, your only critic is yourself But now I've learned that I'm not the best So if you need a failure, you can ask where the nearest is I'll say, "Look no further than your favourite lyricist" Me, the kid waking up from a dream Realising his music is the worst he's ever seen And who cares if it was from when he was 15? It deserves the same judgement It deserves the same judgement God, it's so hard to be good for your age When you know that your work's not good enough for the stage You got the skills of an idiot who got too much praise And your whole damn career just turns into a phase And the fire in your heart is beginning to fade And you're one critique away from considering trading your piano for money Isn't it funny How average can cut so deep?

It seems rather sudden when all you've ever know just disappears Everything around me is falling apart, but I'm still here Times weren't always easy, but I always pull through You're my family, what else am I supposed to do? But if I put up with it for all those years Then why in the world couldn't you? Must we go our separate ways? Are you sure this isn't just a phase? Could you have not made it 'til I graduated from school? Aren't those the rules? But, at least, I'll have you still, right? Um, about that I have actually decided That I am gonna move in with mom What? I don't want to leave you, I'm sorry But I have to go (have to go) I want to discover the things about myself I didn't know (I didn't know) I hope you'll forgive me for what I'm about to do It breaks my heart to know that I'm hurting you I'll see you around, we can both still hang out So chin up and don't look so blue Must we go our separate ways? (I'll always be here for you) Are you sure this isn't just a phase? (Whenever you need me to) Can you not have waited 'til we graduated together? Would that not have been better? You cannot leave, I don't know what I'll do Life, it just won't be the same without you Could this have not waited a year or two longer for me? I'm on my knees, knees