Matriarch Eclipse - Cephas Azariah

Two pairs of headlights Cut a night as black as coal I chase predatorily my prize Down these old darkened roads Panic stricken, hapless mother Fearful for her pregnancy In a grave miscalculation She wildly yanks the wheel into a tree See that big old god up there? Well he don't see me I've prayed and prayed And gone to church incessantly In a daze I find our newly bleeding host Never goes quite as planned this much I know In violence absolute I vault atop my gasping victim She screams in fear for two My knife, it's drawn so deadly sharp In the backseat of her car An infant is carved into this world- Not sacredly Not carefully The child in hate belongs to me See that damned old stork up there? He won't hear my calls He won't read my letters, man In this womb no life at all! That what the doctors said Said why even try? I'm shut down and I'm broken deep inside Tonight I'll use this blade To get exactly what I want: The child within you Incubating for nine hardshipped months The hopeful little angel Bet he looks just like his mom Targeted so carefully In this lottery of sickness you have won The smell of entrails wrestling the nose Gutted and splayed to hell sweet mommy goes In violence absolute I vault atop my gasping victim She screams in fear for two My knife, it's drawn so deadly sharp In the backseat of her car An infant is carved into this world- Not sacredly Not carefully The child in hate belongs to me Oh no, the life it's leaving mother's eyes Aren't we surprised, but a mere expense of this night {SOLO} I've been watching you for weeks I know what sex the child will be Know it's the perfect time for me To seize control! In violence absolute I vault atop my gasping victim She screams in fear for two My knife, it's drawn so deadly sharp In the backseat of her car An infant is carved into this world- Not sacredly Not carefully This child in hate belongs to me In this heart so destitute There is a void that's lying stillborn On the ground, discarded husk I thank thee for your work Second to none You'll never know my name You'll never meet your son Your seed is mine and mine alone In death this deed be sickly done See that big old god up there? Well he don't see me... he don't see me

Oooh Jesus help me Lord Yeah, yeah, yeah I've been tryin' to kill my sin Too much time in my hands to quit Where will you go, will you go With your soul, with your soul Brand new fathers now in the midst Children lead us in blissfulness Please keep their souls, keep their souls In the unknown, the unknown I am fearful of who I've been For I carry so many sins Please lead me Lord, lead me Lord I need you Lord, I need ya! Such a wretch am I Only Jesus I detest when I Fold in weakness I could rest in Yah But I feed this emptiness inside Could I be this selfish and defiant All I need is Jesus Lamb of God RIP, this flesh I must deny Eyes on me, this blessing your design Give me grace, I'ma need it to raise him My new born son, 9 months in the makin' Lord I put my whole faith in the promise you made in Deuteronomy That I'm never forsaken, though I ought'a be For the times I embrace sin A sinner and saint, that's a fact that I'm facin' Everyday I wake up, but I'll neva let satan Get the best of me, that's the heart that is taken By the one true Son you affirmed when you raised Him When bones didn't rot in the grave that contained Him The stone rolled away by the angels who praise Him 'Cause death couldn't hold the one soul who's blameless He neva did fold even though He was hangin' By nails on a cross, those driven to save men A crown of thorns placed on 'em by pagans They clowned spit on 'em, cost of the salvation Of you and me, and the little ones we bear In arms like guns Dem's tryin' to declare illegal Automatics the streets carry When poor bystanders get shot then they be buried We got big problems in the world can we solve 'em From poor little kids, innocence they be robbin' So let the kids know 'bout threats around them To neva' keep closed mouths if they are targeted Brand new fathers now in the midst Children lead us in blissfulness Please keep their souls, keep their souls In the unknown, the unknown I am fearful of who I've been For I carry so many sins Please lead me Lord, lead me Lord I need you Lord, need you Lord Need you like I needed you yesterday Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh runaway Barefoot against the ones that paved a way Freedom, but if I become a slave Life becomes a maze I can't find a way My fears are always findin' me Failure is always hauntin' me Satan constantly tauntin' me Cast down all the idols What's in store? Freedom from the shackles, from the storm Keep up with the battles, He restores Demons standin' baffled at the throne 'Cause Jesus picks the pieces He's the reason for the fetus Being healthy in this season Read Ephesians He will lead us He's redeemed us Another broken soul restored to faith Inconsolable's find peace in grace Grace so bountiful, sin leaves no trace So give me a chance to elaborate The way these tears would evaporate The King of kings offers His grace Now I live to serve like a plate All my sins have been washed away