If you heard the things that I say to my bedroom ceiling Would you have me commited for the things I'm feeling? When I tell anybody else it only goes in circles Sick of oversharing til' my face gets purple No one understands me like my bedroom ceiling Oh, this is so messed up 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone Oh, let me spill my guts With the only one that will never run When I'm at my worst and I'm so ashamed I open up and nobody stays Oh no, am I that messed up? 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone If you heard the things that I say to my bedroom ceiling You'd be more focused on fixing than who they're killing Don't know why you cringe when I say I don't want to live Four inch concrete listened better than you ever did No one understands me like my bedroom ceiling Oh, this is so messed up 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone Oh, let me spill my guts With the only one that will never run When I'm at my worst and I'm so ashamed I open up and nobody stays Oh no, am I that messed up? 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone (one, one...) Let me be alone 'Cause I've already found the perfect therapist Hanging from my home And nothing feels better than to cry like this Let me be alone 'Cause I've already found the perfect therapist Hanging from my home And nothing feels better than to cry... like this Oh, this is so messed up 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone Oh, let me spill my guts With the only one that will never run When I'm at my worst and I'm so ashamed I open up and nobody stays Oh no, am I that messed up? 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone

And I remember how the pillows felt like clouds Or was it the other way around? How your neighbor came in to yell at you When the party got too loud When I snuck into your living room and I wished that you would follow At first you didn't, but then you did And it was already tomorrow Then you told me how you had an uncle Who played the villain in those movies And how he died and then you cried And you apologized profusely I was nervous that this was as good as I could ever feel And I was right I confess to thinking sex was my salvation When really, they just start with the letter S You'll forgive me for thinking heaven was her bedroom It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get And I'll always remember picking up my favorite records in your apartment Kissing you before you left me for New York Weren't you a princess or an heiress or just the daughter of a rich man? In this land who calls you sunshine, so that you never have to work New York City's cold and when you love someone, you should hold on to them so tightly Until you crush them Or they wriggle from your grasp You don't just stand there and say nothing But at least I learned my lesson And I confess to thinking sex was my salvation When really, they just start with the letter S You'll forgive me for thinking heaven was her bedroom It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get If I ever make it to New York Like I said that I would Would it do me any good? If I ever make it to New York Like I told you on the phone And I confess to thinking sex was my salvation When really, they just start with the letter S You'll forgive me for thinking heaven was her bedroom It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get

Sometimes it feels like love's a waste All of this time we spent, trying to make amends Of all this damage that we've made How do we savour it? Is there a way? Down this broken road I need you to know I might make mistakes I might change my ways But I'll never let go I'll never let go We might fight sometimes I might lose my mind But I'll never let go I'll never let go Maybe I'm not what you deserve Trying to be enough, but don't wanna lose too much Go on and tell me how it hurts I wanna fix this, is there a way? Down this broken road I need you to know I might make mistakes I might change my ways But I'll never let go I'll never let go We might fight sometimes I might lose my mind But I'll never let go I'll never let go See, I let you be part of my whole truth Even with all this shit that we go through And yet, still you're the one I come home to, I come home to When we said we both hated each other But without one another, we suffer There's no doubt in my mind, there's no other, no other but you I might make mistakes I might change my ways But I'll never let go I'll never let go We might fight sometimes I might lose my mind But I'll never let go I'll never let go

Do you remember when we were so good? Or do you forget like I do, forget like I do? But you were my first and you've taken a piece of me I painted you in the blame and it's not okay I was selfish Couldn't help it But I still care about you, still care about you, now I know I'm stubborn But I still think about you 'Cause maybe it was me I just couldn't see But maybe it was me who fucked it up Or maybe it was us So helpless and young Or maybe everything was all my fault And I regret All the times Of leaving you, in the back of my mind 'Cause maybe it was me And I just couldn't see But maybe it was me Magnified all of you flaws in my head We know that I've got mine too, I've got mine too Wonder if you have forgiven me yet 'Cause I am still trying to, I am still trying to I was selfish Couldn't help it But I still care about you, still care about you, now I know I'm stubborn But I still think about you 'Cause maybe it was me I just couldn't see But maybe it was me, who fucks it up Or maybe it was us, So helpless and young Or maybe everything was all my fault And I regret All the times Of leaving you, in the back of my mind 'Cause maybe it was me And I just couldn't see But maybe it was me Oh, oh Oh, I finally realised (oh) I've opened my eyes And now I see (oh) 'Cause maybe it was me I just couldn't see But maybe it was me who fucked it up Or maybe it was us So helpless and young Or maybe everything was all my fault And I regret All the times Of leaving you, in the back of my mind 'Cause maybe it was me And I just couldn't see But maybe it was me

Here we are again lying on the floor I can hear my name under the bedroom door You can change my day with a single word You will never know how much it hurts I hate it when I blame myself I hate it when I cry I hate it when my makeup is rolling down my eyes I hate the way you look at me Know I'm not what you want And I'm not coming back I'm already gone So are you gonna give me a reason to stay? Or are you gonna let me throw it all away? If I'm already broken There's nothing left to break So don't try and give me a reason to stay Who do I turn to? Where do I escape? Got an empty pack Still a heavy weight All I know is I did it for me I'm not sorry, I'm not sorry I hate the way you look at me Know I'm not what you want And I'm not coming back I'm already gone So are you gonna give me a reason to stay? Or are you gonna let me throw it all away? If I'm already broken There's nothing left to break So don't try and give me a reason to stay How could the fearless become so afraid? The ones that are closest feel so far away Guess we're already broken There's nothing left to break So don't try and give me a reason to stay I hate the way you look at me Know I'm not what you want So are you gonna give me a reason to stay? Or are you gonna let me throw it all away? If I'm already broken There's nothing left to break So don't try and give me a reason to stay, to stay

You're a monster and you drink But nobody has the guts to tell you That you're a monster when you drink And now I'm picking up the pieces It's not a complicated question You either care or you don't You take so long to answer Don't think you even know I'm saying all the things I've wanted to say You don't have the money to pay For what you did to me For what you did to me I just wanted you to say something, anything at all To put my mind at ease that you're a good man after all But nothing ever changes You don't even want to talk Maybe it's a good thing you won't see me anymore I'm leaving this forever, I've gone to pack my things Do you remember that I'm only eighteen? But nothing ever changes, you don't even want to talk Maybe it's a good thing you won't see me anymore You're still selfish when you're sober It's always about you And even though it's all over You keep hiding from the truth I'm saying all the things I've wanted to say You don't have the money to pay For what you did to me For what you did to me I just wanted you to say something, anything at all To put my mind at ease that you're a good man after all But nothing ever changes You don't even want to talk Maybe it's a good thing that you won't see me anymore I'm leaving this forever, I've gone to pack my things Do you remember that I'm only eighteen? But nothing ever changes, you don't even want to talk Maybe it's a good thing you won't see me anymore You can't buy love or laughter or happiness You can't buy love or laughter or happiness No you can't buy love or laughter or happiness No you can't buy love or laughter or happiness You can't buy my love, my laughter, my happiness You can't buy my love, my laughter, my happiness You can't buy my love, my laughter, my happiness You can't buy my love You're a monster and you drink And now I'm picking up the pieces

I tried to call you today To apologise for your mistakes I guess I'm just so used to it Being the one that's in the wrong And taking all the blame I'm glad you didn't pick up I swear to God, I'm better off I'd probably be too scared to say it to your face but anyway I'll text it you instead, yeah I know I said it but I don't regret it 'Cause you're still so pathetic, yeah I really meant it And I wish I could change you, but I fucking hate you And it's time that someone told you how it is, bitch I know I said it but I don't regret it 'Cause you're still so pathetic, yeah I really meant it And I wish I could change you, but I fucking hate you And it's time that someone told you how it is I'm done with all of the games You're just a waste of space in my brain I'm just so, over it, but I'll admit, it hurts a little bit When I hear your name And it's such a shame, mm I know I said it but I don't regret it 'Cause you're still so pathetic, yeah I really meant it And I wish I could change you, but I fucking hate you And it's time that someone told you how it is, bitch I know I said it but I don't regret it 'Cause you're still so pathetic, yeah I really meant it And I wish I could change you, but I fucking hate you And it's time that someone told you how it is, bitch La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la I know I said it but I don't regret it 'Cause you're still so pathetic, yeah I really meant it And I wish I could change you, but I fucking hate you And it's time that someone told you how it is, bitch I know I said it but I don't regret it 'Cause you're still so pathetic, yeah I really meant it And I wish I could change you, but I fucking hate you And it's time that someone told you how it is Ugh, you're such a bitch La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la (bitch) La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, bitch