If I'm Honest - Trousdale

Hello, where have you been? You're about to miss it all I would give anything to hear you call, if I'm honest Sometimes, it's all that I can do to keep my head up high I'm like a book with empty pages inside Cold wind blowing through the window shade I'm calling what else can I say? I'm like a billboard in the sky How many times you've passed me by, you've passed me by? You're like a blinking neon light How many times I've bought your lies Sometimes I wonder why, if I'm honest My life, it's not as easy as I make you think I close my eyes and I try not to blink, if I'm honest Cold wind blowing through the window shade Fallin' faster each and every day I'm like a billboard in the sky How many times you've passed me by, you've passed me by? You're like a blinking neon light How many times I've bought your lies? Sometimes I wonder why Come back, come back Please don't leave me all alone Come back, come back I'm right here Come back, come back I'm willing if you are I'm like a billboard in the sky How many times you've passed me by, you've passed me by? You're like a blinking neon light How many times I've bought your lies? Sometimes I wonder why I'm like a billboard in the sky How many times you've passed me by you've passed me by? You're like a blinking neon light How many times I've bought your lies? Sometimes I wonder why, if I'm honest

I'll be the first admit sometimes I don't feel worth it I'm not a stranger to the dark Sometimes I'm not okay with the way that I was made Too many questions If I'm honest If I'm honest Maybe you took these pieces and saw someone worth saving Could these scars be a perfect work of art I'll never see myself a beautiful reflection Buried in shadows, I have to look up If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest I see fault you see a future I see doubt you see a child I see rags you see a treasure I feel holes you fill my whole heart I wanna see me how you see me I wanna know me how you know me I wanna love me how you love me I wanna see me how you see me I wanna know me how you know me I wanna love me how you love me If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest If I'm honest

I met you out in the valley Where young lovers go to find themselves I caught you there feeling scared And unaware, of how to love somebody else Like the wolves that howl in the dead of the night I can hear you crying out for more Believe me I understand If you wanna leave well there's the door I'm sorry darling I can't help you anymore It's time you looked after yourself Be strong, be sure So if you wanna leave well there's the door Yeah yeah well there's the door You don't have to go by yourself No one makes it through this valley alone See there's scavengers up on the eastern ridge And they'll be hustlin' all night long If you wanna leave well there's the door I'm sorry darling I can't help you anymore It's time you looked after yourself Be strong, be sure So if you wanna leave well there's the door Yeah yeah well there's the door I met you out in the valley Where young lovers go to find themselves If you wanna leave well there's the door I'm sorry darling I can't help you anymore It's time you looked after yourself Be strong, be sure, So if you wanna leave well there's the door Yeah if you wanna leave well there's the door I'm sorry darling I can't help you anymore It's time you looked after yourself Be strong, be sure So if you wanna leave well there's the door Yeah yeah well there's the door Yeah yeah well there's the door

Glee I can't let these niggas knock me off my pivot God sat me down and talked to me, I listened I was in that cell, he told me that I'm gifted I don't make it in the booth, then I'ma make it in the kitchen I'm special with the mic, special with the whippin' I ran out of money, had to pay attention All the people that was 'round me, they ain't have my best interest You ain't have my best interest You lazy with yo' loyalty and yo' position And now I gotta execute 'cause you don't listen That throwaway on me, dumpin' with position I know shawty only on my trail 'cause she see a ticket I read between the lines and people, they intentions Can't have you niggas around me shit gon' go to missing I had to press that bump, I had to feel it You know if it ever come down to it, a nigga with it All these drugs got the whole world jiggy Hoes comin' out they clothes and niggas trippin' Why hit the top to back to the bottom? All these bitches fallin' for me like it's autumn I'm tryna tell you, homie, you don't want none They freed me so I'm right back to that money hunt Somebody tell these niggas they don't want none Kodak Black but I'm sprayin' blue hundons They said my nigga Cool on the fuckin' run When they let him out of prison, I'll be 31 I knew I was a star when I was sellin' hard Everybody told me I would make it when I was on the block See, before the rap shit, I was jackin' cars I couldn't get all my time 'cause I was doin' fraud Me and my nigga Lil' Marcus tearin' up the Y It hurt me 'til my heart hurt, they gave him 25 I'm from the Nola, all I know is slang that iron Just like I told you, if I'm lyin' then I'm flyin' Just like I told you, if I'm lyin' then I'm flyin' Just like I told you, if I'm lyin' then I'm flyin'

If I'm being honest Know you a problem And I don't care to solve it I tried to stall it But this liquor got me calling It got me all in Just tryna get you out that studio apartment Cause you top 10 And no you not 10 You got good brain And you can hold discussion topics Keep it on the low Don't wanna be no trending topic Hit you when I need it But don't treat you like an option Only if I'm being honest You know I miss you shawty Miss the way you do it just for me I'm the only one to blame Know my pride came in between us I came to my senses Know it probably doesn't mean much Open when I'm faded Know that you've been more than patient But I can't do this on my own You give me confidence Guess I just needed time To weigh out the consequence Met me on common ground Love ain't no competition You got my best interest If I'm being honest Know you a problem And I don't care to solve it I tried to stall it But this liquor got me calling It got me all in Just tryna get you out that studio apartment Cause you top 10 And no you not 10 You got good brain And you can hold discussion topics Keep it on the low Don't wanna be no trending topic Hit you when I need it But don't treat you like an option Only if I'm being honest

If I'm lucky, You will tell me that you care, That we'll never be apart. If I'm lucky, This will be no light affair, It's forever from the start. If I'm lucky, There'll be moonbeams all around, Shining bright as day. You will hold my hand And you'll understand All I cannot seem to say. If I'm lucky, There will be a time and a place, You'll kiss me, we'll embrace; In that moment, Every wishful dream I ever knew Will come true; If I'm lucky, I will go through the years with you. If I'm lucky, There will be a time and a place, You'll kiss me, we'll embrace; In that moment, Every wishful dream I ever knew Will come true; If I'm lucky, I will go through the years with you.

If I'm so happy How am I losing all this sleep? If I'm the only child How do I feel like the black sheep? If this is what we always wanted How's the signal so weak? If I'm loved unconditionally How's this condition so unique, so unique? But when you're with me I feel like I'm embracing it And when you cry I know that you've been saving me And if I'm insecure How have I been so sure That I'm gonna care for you 'Til I am no more If I'm insecure How have I been so sure That I'm gonna care for you 'Til I am no more But if this life matters How am I still wasting it? If I'm an animal Shouldn't I be embracing it? When you're with me I feel like I'm embracing it And when you cry (when you cry) I know that you've been saving me, from me And if I'm insecure How have I been so sure That I'm gonna care for you 'Til I am no more How have I been so sure That I'm gonna care for you 'Til I am no more If I'm insecure How have I been so sure That I'm gonna care for you 'Til I am no more How have I been so sure That I'm gonna care for you 'Til I am no more