I Will Never Exist - The Heartaches

Baby please It's the way you speak Forming words so easily And I think of the way you think It keeps me from falling asleep In that grave I call a bed Until you called me up and said "I haven't stopped crying My father's been drinking I need a place to stay I don't want to be here He's saying the words that He promised he would never say That liquid he consumes Makes him speak the truth" And I said "No, it's not that at all It's that bottle of lies for a troubled heart It's standing on the edge of a mountain top Screaming anything he wants Like, "Look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me Because I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist" I remember the way you shook It's a shame that we're not soul mates 'Cause if I didn't know better I'd say this feels pretty good And how could I be scared? When I stretch and feel you're there So shut your mouth 'Cause these words will speak themselves I can feel them in these blankets And they're surrounding your figure Embraced in the quilts And I can't help but think You're my missing puzzle piece I wake up in the hallway, I'm looking for sunlight With rays that will cure me of the pain that keeps my lungs tight Ignoring the voices and feelings that tell me To get out of this house I can't make them stop I'm just like my mom And you said, "No, these demons will fall You're so precious to us all" And I said, "I, I can't do this alone I still need you to hold So don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go 'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid"

When your sky is cold and lonely And your heart is filled with fear I will wrap My arms around you Know that I am here And I will keep you safe and sound Through the darkness that surrounds I will never leave you Nor forsake you Know that I am with you You will never be alone When your way is bright and glowing And your soul knows no despair Can you hear Me, singing with you? In your triumph I will share For I am watching over you And I rejoice in all you do I will never leave you Nor forsake you Know that I am with you You will never be alone So remember, never doubt this Hold it tightly to your heart I'm forever, always with you I will be right where you are I will never leave you Nor forsake you Know that I am with you You will never be alone

Stand up, you've gotta fight It's a temporary feeling, not like suicide It's like a war in your mind But you're stronger than you think now You'll be alright (Better days will come to light) (Better days will come to light) (Better days will come to light) I see the morning light and wonder why I'm still here If I exist another day would anybody even fucking care? Stand up, you've gotta fight It's a temporary feeling, not like suicide (Better days will come to light) I know it's tough, but it's not enough To give up and (Better days will come to light) You gotta stay, you'll be glad one day And you'll know that (Better days will come to light) I lie awake at night Feel like I'm gonna die I wanna fly away and wake up on the other side You're stronger this way You're sad, it's ok And you know that I know I'm lost but want to find myself while I'm alive And I put a light up to my shoulder just to ask if I can smile They say that happiness would find me but the monster found me first Drown it out with your soul fire Let the bastard die of thirst (Better days will come to light) I know it's tough, but it's not enough To give up and (Better days will come to light) You gotta stay, you'll be glad one day And you'll know that (Better days will come to light) I lie awake at night Feel like I'm gonna die I wanna fly away and wake up on the other side You're stronger this way You're sad, it's ok And you know that I am NULA And I am free I am NULA And I am free I am NULA And I am free I am NULA And I am free I'VE FOUND YOU MOTHER FUCKER (Better days will come to light) I know it's tough, but it's not enough To give up and (Better days will come to light) You gotta stay, you'll be glad one day And you'll know that (Better days will come to light) I lie awake at night Feel like I'm gonna die I wanna fly away and wake up on the other side You're stronger this way You're sad, it's ok And you know that

(Let it all) you know I, I never know what love meant to you 'cause (Let it all) you never really told me, you know? (ADELSO on this) Yeah, uh Heartaches, they don't discriminate You done taken my heart, put it in a bitter place No sweet, no sorrow Here today, still here tomorrow (yeah) Say to be honest, my love language all the above I crave affection but communication when we fuck Seen we talk better whenever I'm in between your thighs And you get me when I look inside them big brown eyes Say, "Hey, baby, you drivin' me crazy" I got heartaches, and my heart it been achin' lately Say, "Hey, baby, I want you to know I don't care about your past, even if you was a ho, uh" Say, "Hey, baby, you drivin' me crazy" I got heartaches, and my heart it been achin' lately Say, "Hey, baby, I want you to know I don't care about your past, even if you was a ho" (uh) Let me tell you how it was before I got rich Before I started followin' this dream that my pops did Before I fell in love with the nonsense Before I even met you, you was fine but now you're on ten Grindin', tryna go from overlooked to overbooked Yeah, you got me shook, I'm stuck on your line just like a hook Even when you do me bad it feels so good I keep tellin' myself lies like, maybe you just understood And that's only for my peace, back then it was hard to sleep Every time I put a cover on, like someone pulled the sheets Feel like even when I'm winnin' it's like I always get defeated That's why I've been grindin' for a reason, yeah, uh Heartaches, they don't discriminate You done taken my heart, put it in a bitter place No sweet, no sorrow Here today, still here tomorrow (yeah) Say to be honest, my love language all the above I crave affection but communication when we fuck Seen we talk better whenever I'm in between your thighs And you get me when I look inside them big brown eyes Say, "Hey, baby, you drivin' me crazy" I got heartaches, and my heart it been achin' lately Say, "Hey, baby, I want you to know I don't care about your past, even if you was a ho, uh" Should've knew what it was when you told me you was leavin' I can't say I ain't try to get even You probably think that I'd be crazy if I said I'm fightin' demons I know that this pain just for the season I done made it farther than you ever thought I would Darlin', I've been good Let another break my heart, they wish they could And I get it, I know, I'm misunderstood But darlin', I've been good Maybe I just wasn't good for you Pray for your success I know that you'll need it, I've been blessed I ain't have no reason to stress I remember when I had you pressed You don't even know, baby, that was when I loved you even less, yeah, uh Heartaches, they don't discriminate You done taken my heart, put it in a bitter place No sweet, no sorrow Here today, still here tomorrow (yeah) Say to be honest, my love language all the above I crave affection but communication when we fuck Seen we talk better whenever I'm in between your thighs And you get me when I look inside them big brown eyes Say, "Hey, baby, you drivin' me crazy" I got heartaches, and my heart it been achin' lately Say, "Hey, baby, I want you to know I don't care about your past, even if you was a ho, uh"

Watch out! Here we go again Heartaches Heartaches, heartaches Heartaches, heartaches Heart-aches Heart-aches Heartaches Heartaches Heartaches My loving you meant only heartaches Your kiss was such a sacred thing to me I can't believe it's just a burning memory Heartaches Heartaches What does it matter how my heart breaks? I should be happy with someone new But my heart aches for you Heartaches Heart, heart-aches Heart, heart-aches You know, my love for you meant only heartaches Heart, heart-aches Heart, heart-aches I can't believe your love is just a burning memory Heartaches Heartaches What does it matter how my heart breaks? I should be happy with someone new But my heart aches for you Heartaches