I Exist - Sad Plants

Baby please It's the way you speak Forming words so easily And I think of the way you think It keeps me from falling asleep In that grave I call a bed Until you called me up and said "I haven't stopped crying My father's been drinking I need a place to stay I don't want to be here He's saying the words that He promised he would never say That liquid he consumes Makes him speak the truth" And I said "No, it's not that at all It's that bottle of lies for a troubled heart It's standing on the edge of a mountain top Screaming anything he wants Like, "Look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me Because I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist" I remember the way you shook It's a shame that we're not soul mates 'Cause if I didn't know better I'd say this feels pretty good And how could I be scared? When I stretch and feel you're there So shut your mouth 'Cause these words will speak themselves I can feel them in these blankets And they're surrounding your figure Embraced in the quilts And I can't help but think You're my missing puzzle piece I wake up in the hallway, I'm looking for sunlight With rays that will cure me of the pain that keeps my lungs tight Ignoring the voices and feelings that tell me To get out of this house I can't make them stop I'm just like my mom And you said, "No, these demons will fall You're so precious to us all" And I said, "I, I can't do this alone I still need you to hold So don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go 'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid"

Stand up, you've gotta fight It's a temporary feeling, not like suicide It's like a war in your mind But you're stronger than you think now You'll be alright (Better days will come to light) (Better days will come to light) (Better days will come to light) I see the morning light and wonder why I'm still here If I exist another day would anybody even fucking care? Stand up, you've gotta fight It's a temporary feeling, not like suicide (Better days will come to light) I know it's tough, but it's not enough To give up and (Better days will come to light) You gotta stay, you'll be glad one day And you'll know that (Better days will come to light) I lie awake at night Feel like I'm gonna die I wanna fly away and wake up on the other side You're stronger this way You're sad, it's ok And you know that I know I'm lost but want to find myself while I'm alive And I put a light up to my shoulder just to ask if I can smile They say that happiness would find me but the monster found me first Drown it out with your soul fire Let the bastard die of thirst (Better days will come to light) I know it's tough, but it's not enough To give up and (Better days will come to light) You gotta stay, you'll be glad one day And you'll know that (Better days will come to light) I lie awake at night Feel like I'm gonna die I wanna fly away and wake up on the other side You're stronger this way You're sad, it's ok And you know that I am NULA And I am free I am NULA And I am free I am NULA And I am free I am NULA And I am free I'VE FOUND YOU MOTHER FUCKER (Better days will come to light) I know it's tough, but it's not enough To give up and (Better days will come to light) You gotta stay, you'll be glad one day And you'll know that (Better days will come to light) I lie awake at night Feel like I'm gonna die I wanna fly away and wake up on the other side You're stronger this way You're sad, it's ok And you know that

I've been doomed from the start Everything around me falls apart So quickly, always end up with a broken heart Even Tylenol can't fix me Unless it's mixed with whiskey I ain't even sad, I'm just bored Nothing can excite me anymore like you used to Hollywood has lost all its allure Used to be so pretty Now it's just a city All of these people and all of their friends Look so good together and I don't fit in 'Cause they're picture perfect And I'm on the end Crop me out the photo so they can pretend Like I don't exist Like I don't exist Don't exist Like I don't exist (no) Like I don't exist No When I feel good it never lasts That's why you can find me living in the past if you need me Everybody says this shit will pass I say it won't, they don't believe me Just tell me to deep breathe Falling apart Don't know what to do, what to do Looking for someone to save me, I don't know who I don't know who All of these people and all of their friends Look so good together and I don't fit in 'Cause they're picture perfect And I'm on the end Crop me out the photo so they can pretend Like I don't exist Like I don't exist Don't exist Like I don't exist (no) Like I don't exist No Am I even real? Am I even real? Am I even real? Am I even real? Am I even real? Am I even real? It's hard to tell when I can't feel a fucking thing All of these people and all of their friends Look so good together and I don't fit in 'Cause they're picture perfect And I'm on the end Crop me out the photo so they can pretend Like I don't exist (no) Like I don't exist Don't exist Like I don't exist (no) Like I don't exist No Am I even real?