i met the devil at 4 years old - flowerkid

Standing right Inside your parallel universe There's a solar system Shining that you can't reverse I know, I know Something begin to change and embrace But you might not know That my feelings will never change But you might not know I know, I know Something begin to change But you might not know But you might not know But you might not know But you might not know But you might not know But you might not know But you might not know But you might not know But you might not know

I buried a poem under each of the places we used to go In hope that you'd find one and read it so you know How I feel (how I feel) I had a dream and this is what it was You walked away with Mark and my phone started to buzz Yeah, better luck next time (better luck next time) Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself How unfair that he gets to run his dirty fingers through your hair And when we fought he was always standing there In the back of my brain, of my brain A smile so cruel and the smell of his cologne Could put me in a trance where his blood was on my hands But that's what mad people do (people do) But who's to say that you still think of me I'm just weak and miserable and only five foot three How do I compare? (compare) Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself Just to clarify I beat myself up every night Taking shit out on you I was never right Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself (I just hate myself) Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself (I just hate myself) Oh, I never hated you I don't even hate them I just hate myself

I feel it hard I feel the hurt I said It's happening all over again & I've got no control this time Help me, I feel it in my chest & In my eyes It's happening again tonight & I've got no control this time When I get lonely I turn to you You're it making it so hard You know it's true But enough about you Let's talk about me I remember thinking Oh, I know where I'll be Dead by the age of 23 I said I'd never love me But then I saw my Mum At my feet A sight I can never unsee I feel it hard I feel the hurt I said It's happen all over again & I've got not control this time Help me, I feel it in my chest & In my eyes It's happening again tonight & I've got no control this time The obsessions in your life That are hard to quantify Cause you're reaching out for comfort & It always hits you late When your dreams turn into longing And it's hard to say goodnight When you show me You show me you're here Your hair's so long Your skirt's so high She's caught in the day When I see her at night And I know I'm obsessed She brings peace I can't describe I feel it hard I feel the hurt I said It's happening all over again & I've got no control this time Help me I feel it in my chest & In my eyes It's happening again tonight & I've got no control this time

My friend drove me to the party In her red velvet dress She's always looking at her best For the tall and pretty boys I'm shaking to the core now These things get the best of me These goddamn kids can be so mean (can be so mean) Now here comes James with the long brown hair A sense of bitterness fills the air He sees me standing next to the girls And he shakes his head So smug he towers over me I'm scared he's gonna' try and cause a scene So I tell him Patiently (patiently) It took me a while To be where I am now I learnt how to fight back You don't even wanna know how He then smirks slowly And he pats my back He says The girls want a real boy And you're not that The girls want a real boy And you're not that Now everybody's dancing And I'm just sitting in the corner With my vodka orange juice (vodka orange juice) I never should have come here But I don't have a ride home And it's all thanks to you Now I don't blame you James but I can't help the way I am I didn't sign up for this life but I'm doing the best that I can And it gets hard sometimes Boy, I've tried to commit suicide multiple times It took me a while To be where I am now I learnt how to fight back You don't even wanna know how Still I look in the mirror And another looks back She says, "The girls want a real boy" She said, "The girls want a real boy" Now everybody's dancing And I'm just sitting in the corner With my vodka orange juice I never should have come here But I don't have a ride home And it's all thanks to you Now everybody's dancing And I'm just sitting in the corner With my vodka orange juice I never should have come here But I don't have a ride home And it's all thanks to you

And I confess These faded blue eyes you see So forgive me for pouring my love These faded blue eyes you see These faded blue eyes you see So forgive me for pouring my love And I confess So forgive me for pouring my love into you These faded blue eyes you see And I confess To falling in love too easily And I admit to making things harder For me than they have to be But in my defence The world hadn't welcomed my love until recently So forgive me for pouring my love into you And I confess So forgive me for pouring my love These faded blue eyes you see These faded blue eyes you see So forgive me for pouring my love And I confess So forgive me for pouring my love into you These faded blue eyes you see And I confess To falling in love too easily And I admit to making things harder For me than they have to be But in my defence The world hadn't welcomed my love until recently So forgive me for pouring my love into you And I confess To falling in love too easily And I admit to making things harder For me than they have to be But in my defence The world hadn't welcomed my love until recently So forgive me for pouring my love into you Wonder if you stayed up as late as I Thinking 'bout we Searching through my mind You're as far as the eye can see Love the high that comes with the night Because it's my time to dream And I confess To falling in love too easily And I admit to making things harder For me than they have to be But in my defence The world hadn't welcomed my love until recently So forgive me for pouring my love into you These faded blue eyes you see So forgive me for pouring my love into you I confess So forgive me for pouring my love into you These faded blue eyes you see