I Hate It Here - CrackWhite

I try to stay busy I do the dishes, I mow the lawn I try to keep myself occupied Even though I know you're not coming home I try to keep the house nice and neat I make my bed, I change the sheets I even learned how to use the washing machine Keeping things clean doesn't change anything What am I gonna do when I run out of shirts to fold? What am I gonna do when I run out of lawn to mow? What am I gonna do if you never come home? Tell me, oh what am I gonna do? Oh, I hate it I hate it here When you're gone I caught myself thinking I caught myself thinking once again I had to try to keep my mind out of this Try not to pretend I check the phone I check the mail I check the phone again, I call your mom She says you're not there and I should take care I hate it here When you're gone I hate it I hate it here When you're gone I try to stay busy I take out the trash, I sweep the floor I try to keep myself occupied 'Cause I know you don't live here anymore

I wish I could erase it, but I can't though And not for lack of trying I'd be lying if I said that I could let go You already know Everything I'm feeling 'cause You told me not to worry about a month ago We're just friends, stop being so irrational Fast-forward to my fears becoming factual And your ghost likes to visit with me nightly To tell me how every day was something fictional and I see you in every single person that I meet and I'm sorry But the thought of you with him is enough to leave me weak And I hate it ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh You don't know how much I hate it ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh You don't know how much I hate it And I'm so past gone I packed my bags and just became another passenger Tryna act strong It's tit-for-tat and I ain't perfect but I'm searching for some purpose They marching in they lines inside the circus But this burden might be worth it If I carry it with everything I've got So tandem with the shots Cold handed with these rocks that I kick back No, no, no, don't hit me with no props I don't get that It's low-key like baritones Gimme lil' love and a quarter count of that serotonin Living for the moment I navigate through the pheromones I'm just tryna bare with 'em Sleepless nights I'm cold looking in myself (and it's no use tryna get used to) Haunted by your ghost, I see nothing else (the weight of living without you) You're like a demon in disguise Have to run away (and that's something that I can't undo) I'm tryna heal, move on Gotta let you go But all I know is I see you in every single person that I meet and I'm sorry But the thought of you with him is enough to leave me weak And I hate it ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh You don't know how much I hate it ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh You don't know how much I hate it ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh You don't know how much I hate it ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh You don't know how much I hate it

Woman, I hate, hate it When I wreck your alibi Woman, I hate, hate it When I catch you telling lies I used to be your knight in silk pyjamas Now you're running back home to your Mama I don't even know why Woman I hate, hate it Woman I hate, hate it When you brush my moves aside Woman I hate, hate it When you shoot holes through my pride I used to be your Latin lover boy Now you treat me like a worn-out toy Your lovin' brings me no joy Woman I hate, hate it I hate the way you run me round in circles I don't know which way to go Should I believe or should I believe me I guess I'll never know Woman I hate, hate it When you make that step on me Woman I hate, hate it When you just won't let me be You used to be a smilin' Mona Lisa Take the breath from everyone that meets you Now you don't even try Women I hate, hate it I hate the way you run me round in circles I don't know which way to turn I've made mistakes but I ain't mistaken This time I think I've learnt Women I hate, hate it And my whining days are through You're gonna hate, hate it When the tables turn on you If I can't be your knight in shining armour Ain't don't treat me like no poor darn farmer So baby, don't even try Women I hate, hate it Women I hate, hate it

(Hey yeah, hey yeah-ah-ah) I took it all, all on my back I picked it up on my shoulders Thought it was all, all I could have And it was better, it was better than nothing Now I know, I know that isn't true What have I got to show after seeing it through Now I know, I know a few things And I can feel it coming towards me It took me so long to get here, but here I am (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am (it took me so long but here I am) Everything I tried and all the things I dreamed of (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am If I could do it, do it all again I can't safely say I wouldn't change it There were things left me feeling ashamed (hey yeah) Like how I didn't stand up for myself I didn't even try to see the truth But the truth led to you calling my name And it shot like an arrow into my heart It took me so long to get here, but here I am (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am (it took me so long but here I am) Everything I tried and all the things I dreamed of (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am And all my systems were failing And it didn't seem fair, no it didn't seem fair But it made a way for something different I could feel it in the air, feel it in the air It took me so long to get here, but here I am (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am (it took me so long but here I am) Everything I tried and all the things I dreamed of (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am It took me so long to get here, but here I am (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am (it took me so long but here I am) Everything I tried and all the things I dreamed of (it took me so long, I can't believe it) It took me so long to get here but here I am Here I am Here I am (it took me so long, I can't believe it) Here I am (it took me so long, but here I am) Here I am (it took me so long, but here I am) Here I am (it took me so long, but here I am) Here I am

Holding my breath, playing pretend Acting like you'll never hurt me again And why does your love come with a punch That I'll keep taking again and again? How many times will you apologize And say that you're ready to change? I wish I could hate you for breaking me, calling it love I made you stay when you wanted to run Tell you I can't love the same, 'cause you threw me away And why couldn't I be enough? And sometimes, I felt being somebody else 'Cause you never cared, even 'til the end If only you'd be just into me But you keep on fucking me up in the head I wish I could hate you for breaking me, calling it love I made you stay when you wanted to run Tell you I can't love the same 'cause you threw me away And why couldn't I be enough? Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh I don't know love, mm From what you've done I wish I could hate you for breaking me, calling it love I made you stay when you wanted to run Tell you I can't love the same 'cause you threw me away And why couldn't I be enough?