I Don't Want to Love You Anymore (Reimagined) - Caitlyn Smith

Each night, just about sunset I watch you passing my door It's all I can do Not to run to you But I don't want to cry anymore Nighttime, when there is moonlight The same old moon I knew before It's all I can do Not to run to you But I don't want to cry anymore All that I know about happiness I found just being with you Then I would find myself losing my mind Over some careless thing you would do Oh, why can't I forget you? I know so well what is in store A moment or two Up in the clouds with you Then back where I was before No, I don't want to cry anymore All that I've known about happiness I found just being with you Then I would find myself losing my mind Over some careless thing you would do Oh, why can't I forget you? I know so well what is in store A moment or two Up in the clouds with you Then back where I was before No, I don't want to cry anymore

How could I let this happen again you're a sucker for lies You promised me our love wouldn't end about a hundred times Misled again, done wearing this long sleeves I'm letting my scars breathe Covered them instead I mend, I stain myself with black ink it's permanent Cause I don't want to hurt anymore inside How could I let this happen again, you're a sucker for lies (A sucker for lies) You promised me our love wouldn't end about a hundred times (About a hundred times) While I was waiting your feelings traded Just want the truth you're so complicated Is our loved faded or fabricated, the only thing I feel is frustrated (How could I let this happen again, you're a sucker for lies) (You promised me our love wouldn't end about a hundred times) Hear the sirens yea You're acting strange and I can sense things have changed no no What are you hiding yea Going deranged, you're making me feel estranged I'm screaming out for help Spiral, spiral, out of control you had a grip on my soul and then you let it go Denial, denial, didn't want to believe you chose that lie over me You could've let me know I'm nauseous, said I was different than the others you fell in love with Hiding the lies under the covers I ignored it Caught by surprise now I'm living through this torment of not being good enough for anyone I've been cut before but this ones deeper Guess she'll never know for sure if I'm a cheater As she left me on read, are there girls in my bed, think I'd rather be dead Cause I don't want to hurt anymore inside How could I let this happen again, you're a sucker for lies (A sucker for lies) You promised me our love wouldn't end about a hundred times (About a hundred times) While I was waiting your feelings traded, just want the truth you're so complicated Is our loved faded or fabricated, the only thing I feel is frustrated (How could I let this happen again, you're a sucker for lies) (You promised me our love wouldn't end about a hundred times) How could I let this happen again you're a sucker for lies You promised me our love wouldn't end but it hurt this time

I tried to stop all the drinking It was just you that I'm missing The way that you kissed on my neck And helping my mom in the kitchen Please let me start the convincing I need you back in my life Imagining you as a wife Without you nothing feels right Losing you hit me just like a fucking concussion You and I fit for destruction Tell me now isn't that something Losing you hit me baby girl you know I'm tipsy Hoping the xanny will fix me If it's not us then what is we? You were my beauty and beast Kept your ass tight on a leash Those eyes were just like Mulan's That body just like a feast Your father lied through his teeth Locked you away with no key Fucked with those guys with much ease Now I sleep with no peace Losing you hit me just like a fucking concussion You and I fit for destruction Tell me now isn't that something Losing you hit me baby girl you know I'm tipsy Hoping the xanny will fix me If it's not us then what is we? Cutting my wrist knee deep Never will I be free Soon to be gone, you'll see How much you meant to me Say what you want, I'll leave Down the road, I will bleed Crossing the street, won't heed Till my lungs stop to breathe If I'm the one, who's he? Did you love him or me? I don't know what you need Can't you see my heart leaks Do I accept defeat Or do I kiss your feet? Losing you hit me just like a fucking concussion You and I fit for destruction Tell me now isn't that something Losing you hit me baby girl you know I'm tipsy Hoping the xanny will fix me If it's not us then what is we?

Where did your fate go? Was I just to fall on my own? If this room was full of lies Is that how you fooled me with love? I see how you changed me, I know what you said It don't make me hate you, I wish that it did I'm, I'm trying to find words, trying to make sense If I don't try, where do I find the lies between the lines? Why does it hurt so much? Won't understand, no, I can't let this go Oh, you made plans now, you can't shut me down Ah, you're advanced, but you can't tell them now No, you can't tell them how You face the pain while your days are numbered You took the highway, you've done it always You hurt this woman, you put your needs first And I've heard this many times in my head, but it still remains That you had all of this Oh-oh, you still search for bad Oh, you fought all of this You don't even know how bad it got So much for you're my one and only You'd say that you were all mine You knew that your words were hard to stand by I was scared of change, but then I complied even though it hurt I stayed and now I'm glad you have it all But there's things that you can't buy Glad that you said sorry, but habits they die hard Why, you want to offer me love that you don't have? Loving you exhausted me, baby, and you charged, you charged I'll take the high road, I've done it always Our time is old, there's only one way You hurt this woman, you put your needs first It's played out many times in my head, but it still remains That you had all of this Oh-oh, you still search for bad Oh, you fought all of this You don't even know how bad it goes So much for you're my one and only (You had all of this) (Oh, you still search for bad) So much for you're my one and only (You fought all of this) (You don't even know how bad it got) So much for you're my one and only I'll wait, I'll wait for faster Only I quit I'll wait, I'll wait for faster I'm all for that I'll wait, I'll wait for faster Only I quit I'll wait, I'll wait for faster I'm all for that