I Don't Know How to Stop Being Turnt Like This (feat. Carlton Carvalho & Seba) - Russ

Repeat to yourself that they're not really gone Time has proven That fooling yourself into believing a lie Is the most effective way To deal with things you have no control over Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you Overanalyze every single word you hear "Was this a sign that things were going wrong" No no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them Stay up every single night staring at your phone Either attempting to gather up the courage To turn these demons, these constant reminders Of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream Or praying just for one second you could feel The warmth of equally returned love Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself Always bring your notebook, never stop writing Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip Watch them smile as you get in your car Talk down on yourself whenever possible My life is shit because I deserve it, right? You must have done something real bad Its nearly impossible for you to cry now Avoid your friends for weeks even though They're the only sense of consistency you have Left in your life, if they really wanted To see you they'd come, but they won't (who cares?) Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love Watch as you begin to take a backseat To the world around you, don't fight it Become a secondary character in your own motion picture But most importantly Drown every single one of your feelings In old stolen rum Learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach You're drinking bottled love now You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness You just needed to find a way to talk to it

Killin' me slowly, I swore an oath to never break that hope That we could be together, that whoever I could love, I could see as forever You broke my heart, know it's kinda complicated And it ain't your fault, our love wasn't worth lasting But you took all the passion But it feels like a part of me Is a little harder on what my body likes to perceive Everything we promised, you started smoking weed I started hitting these dranks, so maybe you'd realize that it ain't the same But now it ain't about you, and it ain't about us It's just about me, and everything I just have to admit to the world, one thing I don't know how to love anymore I don't know how to love anymore I've never felt so confused, staring in the mirror With the blissfulness glooms Stare into someone's eyes I don't feel that spark Lust, just fuels a rampage in my mind Telling me I should not give a fuck Stuck in wanderlust, he always a better man, and I'm the runner up See me at my weakest, drinking every week and What are we trying to prove? I'm just trying to play it cool But not for the same reasons I ain't looking to you for love I am just looking at you to fuck If I am being honest I don't know how to love, anymore I don't know how to love, anymore To good mornings and to goodnights Every time you drove home from my place I had to pray you were alright We went shopping for clothes, you took me to your parents' house Even talked about one day you playing my spouse I told you my fears, and all my stories You always listened and never said I was boring With you I was on a high always soaring I saw you everyday My favorite moments were ordering you coffee bean Thought I scored well in this love lottery We were building something up no pottery I spent all my time Wasted all my love And you never gave it back And that's okay, but you shattered everything I don't want it to go down the same way I don't feel emotions for anyone like I did before Yet you managed to break my heart Now let me restart Let me find my way Through these trenches I'm on the side court and I'm sitting on these benches Just a wreck and Trying to fix this mess and I don't know where I'm going anymore If I'm being honest with you I wanna love the same But I really don't know how to love anymore, anymore, anymoew I don't know what say, I don't know what to do I've just been going through struggles If this is what love puts you through Maybe I don't wanna love anymore Maybe I don't wanna love anymore Anymore, anymore, anymore, anymore, anymore, anymore I don't really wanna love you anymore I don't love you anymore I don't know how to love anymore I don't know how to love anymore

Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty Do that thing you know I like No one watchin', it's just me and you, alright Yuh She a shy girl, but she a freak deep down (down) Pussy royalty, needs to be crowned (crowned) We should leave town (town), sex is better overseas Both your hands and both your knees Crawl over, grab hold of me Show me where you wanna take it (show me) Grab the headboard, hold on tight I think we 'bout to break it (break it) She wants more, she asks what's her reward for bein' patient Don't just undress me with your eyes Use your hands, let your mouth just glide Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty Do that thing you know I like No one watchin', it's just me and you, alright (yeah, yeah) Yuh (yeah, yeah, yeah) She said, "Spank me, that's the only way I learn" (come on) I said, "Okay, good girl, good girl" Tried to test her (yuh) patience, we didn't get far (yuh) Topped me off in the mornin' Now that's what I call a "head start" (top) Baby, don't be ashamed (nah) I'm cravin' it everyday Don't need to wait for the weekend For you to call out my name Baby, we could do this often (often) If those pants are botherin' you Take 'em off then (off then) (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty Do that thing you know I like No one watchin', it's just me and you, alright (Yeah, yeah) I know everyone wants a pretty girl like you You look so good when you put me inside you Listen, there ain't nothing like that moan When the tip's in (ooh), good God (good God) Look at you, you're doin' such a good job (good job) Girl I'm proud of you (I am), I love the sound of you (ooh) Girl, you're mine now, you were made for me Come for me, baby, you don't gotta wait for me, yeah, yeah, yeah Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty Do that thing you know I like No one watchin', it's just me and you, alright Yuh We said we only friends, so how come we keep forgettin' That yo' my sweetest oblivion? We just fakin' with benefits See my icebreaker was tellin' you that I might break ya Our friends disapproved, but we not good advice takers They just jealous, so they twisted our love The ritual is kissin' you, givin' you dick 'til you- Come, come, uh Met you when I knew I only wanted one lover Then it happened one summer, I was cold before But I don't care if I get hurt, every rose has thorns Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty, nasty Yeah, I want you to get nasty Do that thing you know I like No one watchin', it's just me and you, alright