Fighting Against Myself - Vladimir Sterzer

Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions I find myself growing In an environment Where finding food Is just as hard as Paying the rent In trodding these roads of trial And tribulations I've seen where Some have died in desperation To keep Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions In a family of ten And raised In the ghetto Hustling's The only education I know Can't grow no crops In this Concrete jungle A situation like this Is getting Too tough to handle To keep Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions Battering down sentence, All day long, Fighting against convictions With a pregnant woman, yes, And five kids to care for Can't cool my heels, I've got to do the town Skillful as I am, The jailer-man Is bound to find me I pray the day will come When I shall be free from Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions Battering down sentence, All live long day, Fighting against convictions To be trapped and caught and taken Before judge And angry jury Pleading before men, Who seem To have no mercy Can't afford to find myself Down in the dungeons I've got to stay free So that my kids won't be Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions Battering down sentence, All live long day now, Fighting against convictions Now a fugitive at large Could this be my destiny With no one to care for The welfare of my family In solitude I've found New faith and hope in this I'll be secure For mind and soul would soon be weary Just couldn't take no more Battering down sentence, All live long day, Fighting against convictions Children hear me when I say Battering down sentence, All day long, Fighting against convictions Hear me when I sing my song Battering down sentence, Fighting against convictions.

The battle has just begun You tell me I'm not the only one Because he's been loving you And you're all carried away But baby I can't pretend I'm telling you this s*it has to end What are you running to Don't you make me play this game Hey you're killing me, whoa, it's hitting me Everytime you go is bringing me low Stop bringing me low You know you're not making sense No baby don't keep me on the fence Because I'm in love with you Just in case you didn't know Lost in a state of imagination Fighting with myself Me and no one else And I can't win the war I can't win the war Fighting with myself Burning in my hell And I've been here before I've been here before Why can you look into my eyes and be so cold? Don't wanna be alive if I can't hold You don't like this anymore Hope I live to tell Fighting with myself Fighting with myself A knife goes through a heart A look, a kiss, a spark Everyone knows the tune But they hope it never plays Say you wanna be, holding on to me Begging you baby please Don't leave me alone Don't leave me alone Lost in a state of imagination Fighting with myself Me and no one else And I can't win the war I can't win the war Fighting with myself Burning in my hell And I've been here before I've been here before Why can you look into my eyes and be so cold? Don't wanna be alive if I can't hold You don't like this anymore Hope I live to tell Fighting with myself Fighting with myself I'm fighting with myself Fighting with myself I've been through this before And I know know That I can't win the war I've been through this before And I know know That I can't win the war Why can you look into my eyes and be so cold? Don't wanna be alive if I can't hold You don't like this anymore Hope I live to tell Fighting with myself Fighting with myself I'm fighting with myself Fighting with myself

Now, sometimes these thoughts in my head speak so loud Every little thing that I think about Just builds on top of the pain and doubt Even though I wanna just let it out I try to act like I don't mind it, try to keep my mouth so quiet But sittin' there in my silence just seems to amplify it When I thought that keepin' this inside would make it better I never thought that I would end up ruining it forever But every time I think I got everything put back together I end up making more regrets, making more regrets Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start Fighting myself, I always lose Fighting myself, I always lose I didn't want you to think I'm worn out so easily I wish I'd held it in so you never knew what built up inside of me Now I don't know how it overflows, spilled out unwillingly But now everything that I learned to hate came out for you to see I don't want you to promise you can change everything and make it better 'Cause you can bet I'm gonna end up ruining it forever And every time you think you got everything put back together I end up making more regrets, making more regrets Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start Fighting myself, I always lose Fighting myself, I always lose Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start Fighting myself, I always lose Fighting myself, I always lose I can't run with this weight on my back I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside me I can't run with this weight on my back I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside of me Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside of me Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside of me

I chased every dream that the world sold to me I fought to the top till I had everything Obsessed till success was a sixth sense to me Then I slayed all my giants with just skin and bone Made something from nothing as I took the throne King of the world but my heart doesn't know It feels like I've got it all So tell me, what's wrong with my soul? My heart wants everything And I hate that part of me Am I hearing heaven or hell? I'm fighting myself If I had known who I'd be Would I have been proud of me? 'Causе it's getting harder to tell I'm fighting mysеlf I thought I'd be safe if I tried hard enough So I built up some walls Jericho's jealous of Now I'd kill for some pain just to know I'm not numb Now I'm waiting and waiting to be satisfied But the longer I wait, the more I realize The dreams that I brought 're enemies in disguise It feels like I've got it all So tell me, what's wrong with my soul? My heart wants everything And I hate that part of me Am I hearing heaven or hell? I'm fighting myself If I had known who I'd be Would I have been proud of me? 'Cause it's getting harder to tell I'm fighting myself It feels like I've got it all So tell me, what's wrong with my soul? It feels like I've got it all So tell me, what's wrong with my soul? My heart wants everything And I hate that part of me Am I hearing heaven or hell? My heart wants everything And I hate that part of me Am I hearing heaven or hell? I'm fighting myself If I had known who I'd be Would I have been proud of me? 'Cause it's getting harder to tell I'm fighting myself

All I want All I need Always lies just out of reach I've been coming up empty (I realize) Run as fast as I can run Pushed as hard as anyone Still, There's nothing for me (Oh) (And I want) I've tried as hard as I can (And I need) I've taken all I can stand (And I fall) But I am running a race Against myself Against myself, Yeah (I realize) Burning out, Strung along Now my sorrow is my song My whole world is half-hearted (I realize) For my pain, I have none After all is said and done Now I'm back where I started (Oh) (And I want) I've gone as far as I can (And I need) I've taken all I can stand (And I fall) But I am running a race Against myself Against myself, Yeah Whooooaaaa Ooooooooooooh (And I want) I've tried as hard as I can (And I need) I've taken all I can stand (And I fall) But I am losing the race Against myself Against myself, Yeah Against myself