Felina - Staten

I wonder where my passion went It must've took off when she left That's no excuse, it's nothing new I should've found it someone else I'm alone more than I should be Bottle filled to the brim with whiskey I'll hit the ground when I reach Florida I was only hoping you'd stay with me So this goes out to all the ones Who believed in me Maybe, next time You can place your faith in someone Someone who's not afraid to be Someone else, somewhere new Something I could never do Coward, what a fake Liar, mistake This goes out to the ones who I promised to write a song To Derek, to Jess and Jess, to all the girls I fell in love with I'm sorry, I couldn't do it I choked, I fucking blew it Taylor, Christine Andreia, I'm s– Stop feeling sorry for myself My mother said I needed help I tried to kill myself back in July But I knew I couldn't kiss you If I were to die What a selfish way to leave I couldn't think about all the ones who needed me I couldn't shake the fact, the fact that That I wa worthless, so useless Wasted oxygen on a person, like cursive Filled with self-doubt 'cause I'm not perfect, they heard this Called a doctor so I wouldn't hurt anymore So this goes out to all the ones Who believed in me Maybe, next time You can place your faith in Someone who's not afraid to be Someone else, somewhere new Something I could never do Coward, what a fake Liar, mistake

Talks about being lonely Make me even lonelier. Talk about doing good Never made me holier. Well I'm not doing so well, Closer never opener. At 4am I'll dive into sheets Could always be soberer. Wake up in the morning Feeling like I never tried. I wake up in the morning While the sun's still on the rise. I hope that it burns bright Today cause I could use that shine. But it's constantly a struggle to find time To stay alive. Vitals dropping lower, man, I need to stabilize. When to eat and what to drink Cannot prioritize. I'm losing hope and faith As quickly as my appetite. Don't know what the fuck I'm fighting for I put my hands aside. While they getting their diplomas I'll be catching up on quotas, Loser, never moving, always using, Never sober. Taking out the garbage When depression's on the margin But if money's on my mind Then why do I feel departed? Cause Kaley's telling me To start believing in the magic Start believing in myself Before I leave or something tragic happens. It's a habit, I'm tryna break it, Create the happiness don't try and fake it. They'll find all our footprints Imprinted in the carpet, The dialogue of all our talks Are printed in that apartment. The milestones that decorate Your wall will never move. If everything just seems too much I know I'll look for you. Hey Kourtney, what you doing right now? We can walk around the city See what it's all about. Go and pick out an outfit Or wear whatever you want. Wherever you want, Pick apart a piece of your mind. I found God in a little bit of you, A southern angel with a halo made for two. Taking in all of those flowers you removed, Place them in your hair Or you can place them in my tomb. But I don't think you want to hear me talk like that I love you cause you understand where my mind's at. "If you're feeling hurt or lost, you know we got your back." But I feel my spine decaying, keep myself intact. Why do I feel so bad? Why do I feel like this? How do I explain to all my family that I want to quit? Not just the blood inside my veins but the ones I live with. I'm so sorry but I'm tired of surviving at best.