Таптаа Дуу (feat. Invent) - KitJah

I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end I wanted to hear your voice but not able to call you Your number is a refuge to us feeling safe when we're talking Refusing you're gone and you're not coming back is a problem This feeling of emptiness grows every day and it's awful I tap into every emotion and tackle this hole in my heart To repair it unable to bear what I'm sharing This has been weighing me down and I'm left in the dark feeling helpless Involved in a million issues I try but I can't seem to solve them Blaming myself for these things that I know I can't change And I'm hating myself to the point that I'm losing all faith What's better when better is not gonna stay? What's hopeful when I'm feeling less of myself every day And why does the thought of my happiness Make me uncomfortable so out of place? Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end Can't cry cause so I'm so mad Hold on but with both hands So frantic I'm in a state of prolapsing so sad While the world around me is falling apart put it all back This is all I have I've been bashed cause I have a passion I can't trash On our last call, you said you're so proud of me God knows that I'll never fold over, whatever happens, I'll capture it Can't keep asking the purpose I serve Cause my mind pulls a fast one when I'm doubting it How can I feel stable when I'm stumbling not balanced You told me I'm on a path that I never walked That we have a gift and to live it strong Cause sometimes life just sneaks up with a dark side Taking your heart, mind at the worst time And when night comes thoughts rise to an all-time low Looking up searching for answers that I might not find? I'll find my way, but until that day I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end I wanna go, a place you don't know Away from this world, a place for the broke, where I'm not on my own Disconnected, from reality I'll find my way, but until that day I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end This can't be the end This can't be the end Can't be the

It all felt so real The flow of life that left The world whispered your name In colors so dull and expressionless Was there anything? Maybe I was trying to pretend I wonder if you felt it all along You saw the beginning to the end You watch me drift away Over and over again I'm drowning in the rain Wither away Bury the pain In the hopeless deep Scorched beneath the skin Leaving the surface to make amends Buried in the pain again, but this time It all felt so real Find my way, see through the grey In the hopeless deep The quiet that used to put me to sleep Seems so loud in this restless bleak Watch me drift away painlessly Is it selfish to say I don't deserve it? The constant rain withers me The fine line between giving up and letting go You watch me drift away Over and over again I'm drowning in the rain Over and over again You watch me drift away Over and over again I'm drowning in the rain The quiet that used to put me to sleep Seems so loud in this restless bleak Watch me drift away painlessly Is it selfish to say I don't deserve it?

We wait until the best things are gone To realize they were the best things We wait for the moon to replace the sun To think about what weighs us down Make me realize just what I have I won't leave this earth with an uneasy mind Hold on, hold on A future is what I fear, a future I did not envision Hold on, hold on A future is what I fear, a future I did not envision You've made me, shaped me into Exactly who I need to be I just want to be there for the end I don't want to lose you, but I know I have to Left here is the mold of a man, that you guided, that you guided A part of me, is you, and we will live on I won't let this slow me down, I won't let this carry on If a future is what I fear, then I will create my own Onward Onward to the future I fear so much We wait until the best things are gone To realize they were the best things We wait for the moon to replace the sun To think about what weighs us down Hold on, hold on A future is what I fear, a future I did not envision Onward, to the future I fear so much Onward, to the future I fear so much Onward, onward I will face it with my worn down soul