Facing Fears - Ivan Torrent

We'll be facing the sun Waiting for these things to come We're smiling high Watching the good things passing by Pretend to feeling fine But inside we're crying sometimes It ain't what it seems Nothing but a dream And the faces get void And the lines get to thin And the roads become uneven So we don't know where we been And those who doubt us Will soon believe We are never supposed to win Or even to achieve We'll be facing the sun Waiting for these things to come We're smiling high Watching the good things passing by Pretend to feeling fine But inside we're crying sometimes It ain't what it seems Nothing but a dream And the faces get void And the lines get to thin And the roads become uneven So we don't know where we been And those who doubt us Will soon believe We are never supposed to win Or even to achieve

You made a promise of protection To a future after life To the final resurrection Unto eternal paradise But then I'm blinded with temptation Into every mortal sin Is it God that sits there waiting Or will the darkness suck me in? Let's wake up the dead (Oh yeah) It's better than never, you know More tears are shed (Oh yeah) I'm praying that you'll never know That I'm facing hell Oh the children sit and listen, the belief was in their eyes In a land with no tomorrows, through the night you hear their cries But then your eyes just skip the pages of a book that never ends Is it God that sits there waiting Do you hear the call again? Let's wake up the dead (Oh yeah) It's better than never, you know More tears are shed (Oh yeah) I'm praying that you'll never know That I'm facing hell It's just a crazy world we live in and I'm out of my mind You'll pray tomorrow but you're leaving today Evil one is coming and he's knocking your door 'Cause today's the day you pay Let's wake up the dead (Oh yeah) It's better than never, you know More tears are shed (Oh yeah) I'm praying that you'll never know That I'm facing hell

Last time I had a schedule It said Maths and Geography Last time I felt embarrassed I was stood in the dock and my mum couldn't look at me Last time I seen my dad He was asking me if I'm gonna do this properly Now they call me an MC Master of ceremonies But time is the master Because time will turn all this to a memory And I don't think I'm built for the industry All the fake smiles and laughter Make me want to turn into a mystery Cause I know what people are after Critics and journalists trying to get to me I preferred being a grafter You know, living under the radar With nothing but drugs and money to look after But now I've gotta see television as a factor I've got responsibilities Everybody wants something But they come wearing a mask Cause they're never gonna ask ya Even a friend can turn to an actor They act like they're happy you made it But feel like they deserve your wages And at that point it's the end of the chapter I'm losing friends and gaining enemies In fact more to the point I'm losing patience with negative energies I had to change my number Because conversations were lacking in relevance I wanna be tough for the future and this year I don't want a war with the elephants I don't wanna go back to claiming benefits I used to love money, but I don't no more I got money that I don't count no more I'll listen out for the trial no more We don't have to be down no more But I'm facing time I'm famous now So I'm facing time They wanna know what I mean by facing time If I could turn back the hands of time I'd go back to when I had freedom But now I'm facing time First time I've felt secure in all twenty five years First time I've felt like I don't need people to deal with fears First time I told my dad I loved him I was being sincere But family's a word And words just don't mean nothing out here I brought exposure to my city And I don't care By those who feel like it should be them And it's not fair Bring me one other person that could've climbed these stairs I know they don't want me to succeed But I've been saying my prayers They wanna know what I mean by facing time They wanna know runs through the mind of a famous guy They think fame means plenty of money And a glamorous life But fame is a jail And not everyone here will survive I'm new to the wing New to the guards New to the vibe For the things I've done I'm facing life Where else could I go? I don't blend outside Looks like I'll just have to do my time