Engineer

I'm gonna jump in Lake Michigan And swim out as far as I can You should come with me You should come with me I'm gonna jump in Lake Michigan And swim out as far as I can You should swim with me You should swim with me And we'll swim out as far as we can When we reach the end, we'll start to descend There's so much at the bottom to see Empty bottles, broken glass This is where we'll sleep I'm just worn-out bed sheets, you won't miss me I am nothing I am nothing I'm just an empty bottle shattering I'm gonna jump in Lake Michigan And swim out as far as I can You should come with me You should come with me I'm gonna jump in Lake Michigan And swim out as far as I can You should swim with me You should swim with me I'm just an empty bottle shattering Shattering Shattering Shattering Shattering Shattering Shattering Shattering I'm just an empty bottle shattering

I'm gonna screw up again I'm gonna ignore advice from all of my best friends And they'll all think I'm nuts But I don't give a fuck Just as long as they let me come crawling back I'm sleeping in the same bed again I'm gonna regret all the places that I haven't been I'll say it's just my luck But I'm sick of feeling stuck Just because I'm too afraid of falling back I'm running late again I'm gonna explain why in all the texts I send I'd really like to talk to you but I just don't have the guts And you know it, cause I'm no good at calling back I'm gonna screw up I'm gonna screw up again Fuck! I'm gonna screw up again I'm gonna ignore advice from all of my best friends And they'll all think I'm nuts But I don't give a fuck Just as long as they let me come crawling back

Could have been a doctor if I really cared enough But I didn't have it in me I got distracted by a bunch of stuff I'm so stupid and empty My mind just wasn't in it And neither was my heart And the drive was a lie to myself from the god damned start It's funny how for years I kept trying Laughed at all the fears that I'd been hiding Took me a while to see that it didn't matter that much to me 'Cause I think you're so cool I didn't wanna go away to dental school I don't care about anything as much as I used to I don't care about anything as much as I used to I don't care about anything as much as I used to Except maybe you I wanna give up I wanna give up I don't wanna try no more I wanna stop all these pathetic attempts and saving this shipwreck Swim right out the door Before it sinks with a fraction of what's left of my dignity I swept so many failed tests under carpets Deep down I knew this is not what I wanted (not what I wanted) I don't care about anything as much as I used to I don't care about anything as much as I used to I don't care about anything as much as I used to Except maybe you And I still feel just about as dumb as I used to I still feel just about as dumb as I used to I still feel just about as dumb as I used to (as dumb as I used to) I didn't wanna go, but the rejection still kind of hurt Not as much as the one from you though That one hurt way worse That one hurt way worse That one hurt way worse I kept thinking things would get easier I kept thinking I'd get better I'm not basing my intelligence on some fucking letters And now that it's over I did what I was told I had to do But I still feel just about as dumb as I used to I still feel just about as dumb as I used to I don't care about anything as much as I used to