Before Rain

A stormy summer Is rolling closer Lighting up this holy smoker And if this drinking Could ease the thinking I toast to my home truth with this glass All rise you promises broken Call my lovers by their names Lost hearts and words that are spoken to the wind Which blows before the rain Little pin-pricks And how my ears bleed On the bomb ticks that is my heartbeat In every car crash In every life-flash I hear the silence waiting to fall All rise you promises broken Call my lovers by their names Lost hearts and words that are spoken to the wind Which blows before the rain For all I carry These murdered secrets The price of my blue star-eyed weakness And so we travel And we unravel Towards the place where all loose ends go All rise you promises broken Call my lovers by their names Lost hearts and words that are spoken to the wind Which blows before the rain

Heaven distorted Fell to the ground What were you thinking Head under water Who's gonna drown Slowly, but sinking I'm such a fool I'm not ok And every feeling hits me harder than a seven carriage train I'm just a loser Walk away Oh all I ever really dream of is that summer in the rain When our always was the only one we knew Blood did not stain Up above reality with you Never known pain There were clouds before rain There were clouds before rain, yeah I'll never get over it No matter what I do Thought i was helping But I was a fool for thinking you'd ever happy, In that tiny room And I'll envy forever Whoever's with you And I won't improve Got none to blame And every feeling hits me harder than a seven story pavement Its a movie, on replay And all it's ever gonna show me is our summer in the rain When our always was the only one we knew Blood did not stain Up above reality with you Never known pain There were clouds before rain There were clouds There were clouds, I saw clouds

I've become resistant to myself To my weaknesses and pain I've become the one who wants to live And just feel alive again I've changed myself I've changed I've changed myself I've changed I've become addicted to being strong Started out my second life And the remnants of your tears and smiles Shift deleted from my mind Without knowing how it hurts I feel safe Without knowing how it hurts I feel safe Is this what I really wanted? Is this what I really wanted? (Without) (Without)

Here we are, land to the earth by the stars It wont be near, but sets you free It wont be near, but closes the door, On before, before Slivers of light hang in the dark Loving hands place the flowers in the vase But it wont be near, but sets you free It wont be near, but closes the door, It wont be near, but sets you free It wont be near, but closes the door, On before, before She said dont look at the new moon through the glass Her eyes on the future that will pass But it wont be near, but sets you free It wont be near, but closes the door, On before, before.

Sick and tired of hiding things inside me Running from a power struggle, nah, nah, nah It's uncomfortable territory Watch me walk away from someone that I love There's nothing to see here Just sitting in feelings Love me, love you spilling Know that I'll start drifting Best, best before You learn any more of me It hit me before I tend to end the beginning I push myself away so you don't wanna stay It was best before, I swear it all Oh no, no Picking at my brain, it's saying get away I don't need no one but myself Let it fade away, give my thanks to Grace Silence, tell me what you know If it was best before Tell me why I'm not convinced? I should walk out the door Love you from a far distance There's nothing to see here Just sitting in feelings Love me, love you spilling Know that I'll start drifting Best, best before You learn any more of me It hit me before I tend to end the beginning I push myself away so you don't wanna stay Was best before, I swear it all Oh no, no Best before, before, before Best before, before, before I'm not bothered, honest, honest I'd rather leave than be forgotten All too much it hurts to put into words Will I ever learn? Is it worth you going? Best, best before You learn any more of me It hit me before I tend to end the beginning I push myself away so you don't wanna stay It was best before, I swear it all Oh no, no Will I ever learn? Is it worth you going? Maybe you could stay and things would be okay Best before, it's gone Best before, it's a myth and I know it