Alone With Myself - Citizen Soldier

It's making it's way down The lump in my throat I've been on a high wire I've been holding the rope Now I feel like screaming And it's not cause I'm scared I just feel more alive now I just feel like I'm there I'm throwing off my burden I think it's finally worth it I'm not asking for your help I'm gonna dance with myself I guess you never wanted Somebody good and honest But I won't sit back on the shelf I'm gonna dance with myself I'm gonna dance I'm gonna dance I'm gonna dance I'm gonna dance with myself It's making it's way down The pain and the past I feel it in every crevice But it's not gonna last Now I feel like shaking Till it finds its way out again There's no way to describe it I'm lost in the motion I'm throwing off my burden I think it's finally worth it I'm not asking for your help I'm gonna dance with myself I guess you never wanted Somebody good and honest I won't sit back on the shelf I'm gonna dance with myself I'm gonna dance I'm gonna dance I'm gonna dance I'm gonna dance with myself I'm gonna dance (I'm gonna dance) I'm gonna dance (I'm gonna dance) I'm gonna dance I'm gonna dance with myself I'm throwing off my burden I think it's finally worth it I'm not asking for your help I'm gonna dance with myself I guess you never wanted Somebody good and honest But I won't sit back on the shelf I'm gonna dance with myself

I want to be alone Alone with you, does that make sense? I want to steal your soul And hide you in my treasure chest (Ay yo, Pluto, you goin' brazy) I don't know what to do To deal with your kiss on my neck Yo, yo, yo I ain't never had a girl like this, real to the core, it's real And I can't talk 'bout sex every day on the track So I talk 'bout the shit I feel I might give you flowers and kisses, not just dick, and this shit's real I might pull up on a late night one Like slap on a movie and come, let's chill I remember the day that I met you, no way could I ever forget that I would go back home in the DLR train, just missin' the fact you left, man I'm textin' bro like, "Yo" E man text me back like, "Wagwan?" I said, "Bro, after all the hoe stages, I'm ready, I found the one" Fake accounts gonna talk their shit, why? Both of us be lit And I don't really give a fuck 'bout that, as long as our relationship is bliss And I know that my baby humble, but I know that your temper's short And I know that I hurt you one time, if I do that again then I'm a fool And I know that the love runs deep, trust me, you know I know And I know that you really do got me, trust me, I know I know Winter time is cold, it's cold, and I find it hard to express So I'm writin' this shit on notes, I just put my feelings into the music That's the way that man know (I want to steal your soul) I wanna steal your soul now, wha I wanna steal your soul (And hide you in my treasure chest) I'ma hide you, huh, trust me, they can't find you (I don't know what to do) And I don't know what to do now, nah, but I don't know what to do (To deal with your kiss on my neck) mm Hold on, let me talk star signs, hear what I'm sayin' Yo, yo, I'm glad that I got me a Pisces With water you put me out and I keep you grounded That's light, B, I'm so glad that your mum do like me Got the old school love like '90s And God forbid, if I ever go jail, then I know that my babe will write me And I know that she'd be there soon, I got you and you be there, boo I know when you're upset, trust me, man I see straight through We're havin' a minor dispute, you walk out the room, man that shit's so rude But you know that we're stuck like glue, 4L 'cause the girl my boo, Arz I don't know what to do To deal with your kiss on my neck I want to be alone Alone with you, does that make sense? I want to steal your soul And hide you in my treasure chest I don't know what to do To deal with your kiss on my neck

The battle has just begun You tell me I'm not the only one Because he's been loving you And you're all carried away But baby I can't pretend I'm telling you this s*it has to end What are you running to Don't you make me play this game Hey you're killing me, whoa, it's hitting me Everytime you go is bringing me low Stop bringing me low You know you're not making sense No baby don't keep me on the fence Because I'm in love with you Just in case you didn't know Lost in a state of imagination Fighting with myself Me and no one else And I can't win the war I can't win the war Fighting with myself Burning in my hell And I've been here before I've been here before Why can you look into my eyes and be so cold? Don't wanna be alive if I can't hold You don't like this anymore Hope I live to tell Fighting with myself Fighting with myself A knife goes through a heart A look, a kiss, a spark Everyone knows the tune But they hope it never plays Say you wanna be, holding on to me Begging you baby please Don't leave me alone Don't leave me alone Lost in a state of imagination Fighting with myself Me and no one else And I can't win the war I can't win the war Fighting with myself Burning in my hell And I've been here before I've been here before Why can you look into my eyes and be so cold? Don't wanna be alive if I can't hold You don't like this anymore Hope I live to tell Fighting with myself Fighting with myself I'm fighting with myself Fighting with myself I've been through this before And I know know That I can't win the war I've been through this before And I know know That I can't win the war Why can you look into my eyes and be so cold? Don't wanna be alive if I can't hold You don't like this anymore Hope I live to tell Fighting with myself Fighting with myself I'm fighting with myself Fighting with myself

Sometimes I wonder why I'm even here Or if I have the strength to persevere Sometimes I feel like I'm somebody else Who's going mental with their mental health Sometimes I wonder if I'll die alone 'Cause lonely people tend to have lonely souls Sometimes I think about a younger me If he'd be proud of the man he sees I guess I'm rich, I made it out my town I played in front of thousands, you know I shut it down Look, little Bazzi, I'm living out our dreams Mama cry every time we on the TV Got a fancy car, we got a fancy crib You couldn't even dream of the girl that you with Remember all your idols and the people that we love I met 'em at a party, we was all doin' drugs Was all doin' Jesus I think I need, I think I need some Jesus Rich enough and sad as fuck I'm lonely Oh, I am, I am, I am I'm so lonely I'm the man, I guess I am But I'm still What's funny is, is My whole life I thought making money And being praised would give me some kind of happiness And I wanted those things because I was Concerned about what everyone else thought of me I wanted to feel loved, I wanted to feel accepted And then I realized that I could never feel anybody's pain or their happiness I could only feel mine In the car, in the house And the fame never made me feel anything except Separated, intoxicated and obviously kinda grossed Don't get me wrong, nice things are fun I like nice things but you just can't base your human value on them Because at the end of the day, they don't mean anything If I'm not happy, I'm a sad guy in a nice car If I don't have any real friends or family I'm just a lonely guy in a big home