Everybody wants a reason for everything It's so much easier with someone or something to blame I've always struggled at the root of the problem Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense? I've never spent a lot on finding a remedy I guess I figured that it hurts for a reason I guess that's why I've always turned to writing it down Not just in stories but the letters in between And I guess that's why it haunts the pages of everything To self-examine I think the thing is that I shut off from everything From friends and family and my own ambitions From having fun I just shut off from everything Self-defeating? Yeah, probably But I don't know that I had total control over it And I'm not sure it even matters why Sometimes things happen and you can't do anything Plus, I'm the only one who deals with it anyway So if everyone could do me a favor and Just put their fingers down I'd-and keep your mouths Sorry, I know I seem angry I'm not, I, I promise, I just know I did this to me And I will deal with it accordingly And I don't need opinions from those never a part of it Don't need them pointing out my problems, they're mine Don't need reminders, I know better than anyone And yeah, I know, I should be finding another way I know that I should be out seeking a substitute But just forgetting never really made sense to me So I haven't been Do I feel embarrassed about it? I think you know the answer to that I think you'd probably feel a little bit embarrassed for me Wouldn't you? I know I should've moved on ages ago, been happy already But it's never been that easy for me Or maybe it was me that made it so hard I know I've only ever tried a handful of times To sever this thing torturing me It never got me anywhere, with anyone No friendship or hobby, no lover's bed worked But looking back I maybe never tried hard enough And it is my fault Maybe I never tried at all

I'm staying up late again Something about the darkness that feels like a friend 'There'sm sleeping in once again Cause I don't understand the song birds when they sing I don't feel it Anymore I don't feel it Anymore Black out the sun Drag my sorry ass back to bed It's safer in the darkness I can't see inside my own head The doc gave me prescriptions I found my own bottle of meds Don't bother with the curtains I'll just black myself instead Cause I don't feel it Anymore I don't feel it Anymore Late to the party You lost your yellow handbag Long conversation In the car on the way back Foggy cracked windshield Feet up on the dashboard You hate the smell of cigarettes I just need one to clear my head Leaving the party it's more of the same We're talking in circles while you shift the blame It's clear in the rearview That I don't feel Anything Anymore So why am I so desperate to think that I am better than other people When we come from the same nothingness we unwillingly all retreat to I just wanna be I'm tired of the same old rinse and repeat And sleeping through scenes I should be living So when the curtain calls I can take a bow And be proud of the person I am now I got used to nothing and being a bore Now to do almost anything feels like a chore But tomorrow I'll wake up And come back for more Brush my teeth Wash my hair Drag myself out the door Cause I wanna feel it again

Shattered like the glass That casts a rainbow Across the back of your holy man What's the plan I don't have one I have no one Smoothest of glass Reflecting my past It doesn't seem far away Time passed so fast I knew it wouldn't last But it felt just like yesterday Isn't it obvious that I haven't been myself I'm nothing but a shell My bones My teeth My skeleton How did I think you could ever notice Notice that I've been trying harder than I ever have before I'm trying to understand why I do the things I do Why I say the things I say but I can't Nothing coming out of my mouth makes sense I know that I'm wishy-washy, insecure and totally confusing But so are you You push me away time and time again And I persist But we're not talking about you now and I understand that We're not talking about how selfish you can be We're not talking about everything wrong We're talking about everything wrong with me I get it I know you said not to say sorry so much and I promise I'm not Lord help me I'm alone again

Quero ir A cachoeira de madrugada Tirar minha roupa ao seu olhar Beijá-la no luar Faz de mim Suas noites quentes não ter fim Te encontro no seu jardim Aquecendo meus ouvidos assim E diga então Que gosta de sentir minha mão Descendo em noites de verão Suando o colchão

Haja o que houver Voltarei a te ver Meu pequeno astronauta Há dias que te acho Me perdi no espaço, sabe? Um ato de súplica Havia um brilho no olhar Um mar de "e se?"s Numa janela de um velho pombal Uma voz que ecoava Vi a luz num violão de aço Vi a multidão, o acaso E o caos Entre nós

You lay by my side like Somebody who coroused me My shadow mysteriously Bonded with yours Shoeless and so be it Caressing your face I found the most curious sounds Those lights around us were made To excite us You shoot me down From restless sounds I'll hold you now I'll have you till dawn All night by my side Carousing with me Breathing on my neck Arousing me Like innocent kids foolling around In the playground We'll say that was it We'll make secrets of it You shoot me down From restless sounds I'll hold you now I'll have you till dawn You shoot me down From restless sounds I'll hold you now I'll have you till dawn

Um som Sincronizado a batida de seus passos delicados Tua voz Em sequência a minha união de timbres abusados Me faz Derreter em sua boca como um ácido inesperado Me trás Arrepios e calafrios, não quero me manter parado Me leva ao topo Passo a passo e com a elegância De um flamingo Equilibrado numa perna só Me deixa louco Tudo ou nada e ou mais um pouco Me deixa tonto Com experiências de sete milhões de anos Nada vai me por Pra baixo Quando o funk toca alto Quando danço eu sobressalto Movimentos que te fazem querer Também Dançar com teu corpo junto ao meu No compasso e com atrito Nos deixamos querendo mais Tua voz Em sequência a minha união de timbres abusados Me trás Arrepios e calafrios, me faz me sentir pelado Me leva ao topo Passo a passo e com a elegância De um flamingo Equilibrado numa perna só Me deixa louco Tudo ou nada e ou mais um pouco Me deixa tonto Com experiências de sete milhões de anos Nada vai me por Pra baixo Quando o funk toca alto Quando danço eu sobressalto Movimentos que te fazem querer Também Dançar com teu corpo junto ao meu No compasso e com atrito Nos deixamos querendo mais Nada vai me por Pra baixo Quando o funk toca alto Quando danço eu sobressalto Movimentos que te fazem querer Também Dançar com teu corpo junto ao meu No compasso e com atrito Nos deixamos querendo mais Nada vai me por Pra baixo Quando o funk toca alto Quando danço eu sobressalto Movimentos que te fazem querer Também Dançar com teu corpo junto ao meu No compasso e com atrito Nos deixamos querendo mais

And i wonder what i'll do To go through In this long cosmic night If my thoughts are now compromised And i also wonder what you'll do To go through With this cosmic fantasy of ours Cause we've been fooling around for a while now Well, as long as we can keep dreaming And swimming And feeling And falling Asleep Together They say winter's here But i ain't feeling it In this long cosmic night All i feel is that need And you know all about that need, don't ya The one where under the sheets We'd meet ourselves again And for the first time Keep falling Keep falling But that's ok As long as we can keep dreaming Awake And swimming And feeling And falling, falling